his mother came out eagerly to receive him.
his face told her in a moment that something was wrong.
“i’ve lost the place; but that’s my luck. i dreamed an ill dream last night, mother — or maybe i saw a ghost. take it either way, it scared me out of my senses, and i’m not my own man again yet.”
“isaac, your face frightens me. come in to the fire — come in, and tell mother all about it.”
he was as anxious to tell as she was to hear; for it had been his hope, all the way home, that his mother, with her quicker capacity and superior knowledge, might be able to throw some light on the mystery which he could not clear up for himself. his memory of the dream was still mechanically vivid, though his thoughts were entirely confused by it.
his mother’s face grew paler and paler as he went on. she never interrupted him by so much as a single word; but when he had done, she moved her chair close to his, put her arm round his neck, and said to him:
“isaac, you dreamed your ill dream on this wednesday morning. what time was it when you saw the fair woman with the knife in her hand?” isaac reflected on what the landlord had said when they had passed by the clock on his leaving the inn; allowed as nearly as he could for the time that must have elapsed between the unlocking of his bedroom door and the paying of his bill just before going away, and answered:
“somewhere about two o’clock in the morning.”
his mother suddenly quitted her hold of his neck, and struck her hands together with a gesture of despair.
“this wednesday is your birthday, isaac, and two o’clock in the morning was the time when you were born.”
isaac’s capacities were not quick enough to catch the infection of his mother’s superstitious dread. he was amazed, and a little startled, also, when she suddenly rose from her chair, opened her old writing-desk, took pen, ink and paper, and then said to him:
“your memory is but a poor one, isaac, and, now i’m an old woman, mine’s not much better. i want all about this dream of yours to be as well known to both of us, years hence, as it is now. tell me over again all you told me a minute ago, when you spoke of what the woman with the knife looked like.”
isaac obeyed, and marveled much as he saw his mother carefully set down on paper the very words that he was saying.
“light gray eyes,” she wrote, as they came to the descriptive part, “with a droop in the left eyelid; flaxen hair, with a gold-yellow streak in it; white arms, with a down upon them; little lady’s hand, with a reddish look about the finger nails; clasp-knife with a buck-horn handle, that seemed as good as new.” to these particulars mrs. scatchard added the year, month, day of the week, and time in the morning when the woman of the dream appeared to her son. she then locked up the paper carefully in her writing-desk.
neither on that day nor on any day after could her son induce her to return to the matter of the dream. she obstinately kept her thoughts about it to herself, and even refused to refer again to the paper in her writing-desk. ere long isaac grew weary of attempting to make her break her resolute silence; and time, which sooner or later wears out all things, gradually wore out the impression produced on him by the dream. he began by thinking of it carelessly, and he ended by not thinking of it at all.
the result was the more easily brought about by the advent of some important changes for the better in his prospects which commenced not long after his terrible night’s experience at the inn. he reaped at last the reward of his long and patient suffering under adversity by getting an excellent place, keeping it for seven years, and leaving it, on the death of his master, not only with an excellent character, but also with a comfortable annuity bequeathed to him as a reward for saving his mistress’s life in a carriage accident. thus it happened that isaac scatchard returned to his old mother, seven years after the time of the dream at the inn, with an annual sum of money at his disposal sufficient to keep them both in ease and independence for the rest of their lives.
the mother, whose health had been bad of late years, profited so much by the care bestowed on her and by freedom from money anxieties, that when isaac’s birthday came round she was able to sit up comfortably at table and dine with him.
on that day, as the evening drew on, mrs. scatchard discovered that a bottle of tonic medicine which she was accustomed to take, and in which she had fancied that a dose or more was still left, happened to be empty. isaac immediately volunteered to go to the chemist’s and get it filled again. it was as rainy and bleak an autumn night as on the memorable past occasion when he lost his way and slept at the road-side inn.
on going into the chemist’s shop he was passed hurriedly by a poorly-dressed woman coming out of it. the glimpse he had of her face struck him, and he looked back after her as she descended the door-steps.
“you’re noticing that woman?” said the chemist’s apprentice behind the counter. “it’s my opinion there’s something wrong with her. she’s been asking for laudanum to put to a bad tooth. master’s out for half an hour, and i told her i wasn’t allowed to sell poison to strangers in his absence. she laughed in a queer way, and said she would come back in half an hour. if she expects master to serve her, i think she’ll be disappointed. it’s a case of suicide, sir, if ever there was one yet.”
these words added immeasurably to the sudden interest in the woman which isaac had felt at the first sight of her face. after he had got the medicine-bottle filled, he looked about anxiously for her as soon as he was out in the street. she was walking slowly up and down on the opposite side of the road. with his heart, very much to his own surprise, beating fast, isaac crossed over and spoke to her.
he asked if she was in any distress. she pointed to her torn shawl, her scanty dress, her crushed, dirty bonnet; then moved under a lamp so as to let the light fall on her stern, pale, but still most beautiful face.
“i look like a comfortable, happy woman, don’t i?” she said, with a bitter laugh.
she spoke with a purity of intonation which isaac had never heard before from other than ladies’ lips. her slightest actions seemed to have the easy, negligent grace of a thoroughbred woman. her skin, for all its poverty-stricken paleness, was as delicate as if her life had been passed in the enjoyment of every social comfort that wealth can purchase. even her small, finely-shaped hands, gloveless as they were, had not lost their whiteness.
little by little, in answer to his questions, the sad story of the woman came out. there is no need to relate it here; it is told over and over again in police reports and paragraphs about attempted suicides.
“my name is rebecca murdoch,” said the woman, as she ended. “i have nine-pence left, and i thought of spending it at the chemist’s over the way in securing a passage to the other world. whatever it is, it can’t be worse to me than this, so why should i stop here?”
besides the natural compassion and sadness moved in his heart by what he heard, isaac felt within him some mysterious influence at work all the time the woman was speaking which utterly confused his ideas and almost deprived him of his powers of speech. all that he could say in answer to her last reckless words was that he would prevent her from attempting her own life, if he followed her about all night to do it. his rough, trembling earnestness seemed to impress her.
“i won’t occasion you that trouble,” she answered, when he repeated his threat. “you have given me a fancy for living by speaking kindly to me. no need for the mockery of protestations and promises. you may believe me without them. come to fuller’s meadow to-morrow at twelve, and you will find me alive, to answer for myself — no! — no money. my ninepence will do to get me as good a night’s lodging as i want.”
she nodded and left him. he made no attempt to follow — he felt no suspicion that she was deceiving him.
“it’s strange, but i can’t help believing her,” he said to himself, and walked away, bewildered, toward home.
on entering the house, his mind was still so completely absorbed by its new subject of interest that he took no notice of what his mother was doing when he came in with the bottle of medicine. she had opened her old writing-desk in his absence, and was now reading a paper attentively that lay inside it. on every birthday of isaac’s since she had written down the particulars of his dream from his own lips, she had been accustomed to read that same paper, and ponder over it in private.
the next day he went to fuller’s meadow.
he had done only right in believing her so implicitly. she was there, punctual to a minute, to answer for herself. the last-left faint defenses in isaac’s heart against the fascination which a word or look from her began inscrutably to exercise over him sank down and vanished before her forever on that memorable morning.
when a man, previously insensible to the influence of women, forms an attachment in middle life, the instances are rare indeed, let the warning circumstances be what they may, in which he is found capable of freeing himself from the tyranny of the new ruling passion. the charm of being spoken to familiarly, fondly, and gratefully by a woman whose language and manners still retained enough of their early refinement to hint at the high social station that she had lost, would have been a dangerous luxury to a man of isaac’s rank at the age of twenty. but it was far more than that — it was certain ruin to him — now that his heart was opening unworthily to a new influence at that middle time of life when strong feelings of all kinds, once implanted, strike root most stubbornly in a man’s moral nature. a few more stolen interviews after that first morning in fuller’s meadow completed his infatuation. in less than a month from the time when he first met her, isaac scatchard had consented to give rebecca murdoch a new interest in existence, and a chance of recovering the character she had lost by promising to make her his wife.
she had taken possession, not of his passions only, but of his faculties as well. all the mind he had he put into her keeping. she directed him on every point — even instructing him how to break the news of his approaching marriage in the safest manner to his mother.
“if you tell her how you met me and who i am at first,” said the cunning woman, “she will move heaven and earth to prevent our marriage. say i am the sister of one of your fellow-servants — ask her to see me before you go into any more particulars — and leave it to me to do the rest. i mean to make her love me next best to you, isaac, before she knows anything of who i really am.” the motive of the deceit was sufficient to sanctify it to isaac. the stratagem proposed relieved him of his one great anxiety, and quieted his uneasy conscience on the subject of his mother. still, there was something wanting to perfect his happiness, something that he could not realize, something mysteriously untraceable, and yet something that perpetually made itself felt; not when he was absent from rebecca murdoch, but, strange to say, when he was actually in her presence! she was kindness itself with him. she never made him feel his inferior capacities and inferior manners. she showed the sweetest anxiety to please him in the smallest trifles; but, in spite of all these attractions, he never could feel quite at his ease with her. at their first meeting, there had mingled with his admiration, when he looked in her face, a faint, involuntary feeling of doubt whether that face was entirely strange to him. no after familiarity had the slightest effect on this inexplicable, wearisome uncertainty.
concealing the truth as he had been directed, he announced his marriage engagement precipitately and confusedly to his mother on the day when he contracted it. poor mrs. scatchard showed her perfect confidence in her son by flinging her arms round his neck, and giving him joy of having found at last, in the sister of one of his fellow-servants, a woman to comfort and care for him after his mother was gone. she was all eagerness to see the woman of her son’s choice, and the next day was fixed for the introduction.
it was a bright sunny morning, and the little cottage parlor was full of light as mrs. scatchard, happy and expectant, dressed for the occasion in her sunday gown, sat waiting for her son and her future daughter-in-law.
punctual to the appointed time, isaac hurriedly and nervously led his promised wife into the room. his mother rose to receive her — advanced a few steps, smiling — looked rebecca full in the eyes, and suddenly stopped. her face, which had been flushed the moment before, turned white in an instant; her eyes lost their expression of softness and kindness, and assumed a blank look of terror; her outstretched hands fell to her sides, and she staggered back a few steps with a low cry to her son.
“isaac,” she whispered, clutching him fast by the arm when he asked alarmedly if she was taken ill, “isaac, does that woman’s face remind you of nothing?”
before he could answer — before he could look round to where rebecca stood, astonished and angered by her reception, at the lower end of the room, his mother pointed impatiently to her writing-desk, and gave him the key.
“open it,” she said, in a quick breathless whisper.
“what does this mean? why am i treated as if i had no business here? does your mother want to insult me?” asked rebecca, angrily.
“open it, and give me the paper in the left-hand drawer. quick! quick, for heaven’s sake!” said mrs. scatchard, shrinking further back in terror.
isaac gave her the paper. she looked it over eagerly for a moment, then followed rebecca, who was now turning away haughtily to leave the room, and caught her by the shoulder — abruptly raised the long, loose sleeve of her gown, and glanced at her hand and arm. something like fear began to steal over the angry expression of rebecca’s face as she shook herself free from the old woman’s grasp. “mad!” she said to herself; “and isaac never told me.” with these few words she left the room.
isaac was hastening after her when his mother turned and stopped his further progress. it wrung his heart to see the misery and terror in her face as she looked at him.
“light gray eyes,” she said, in low, mournful, awe-struck tones, pointing toward the open door; “a droop in the left eyelid; flaxen hair, with a gold-yellow streak in it; white arms, with a down upon them; little lady’s hand, with a reddish look under the finger nails — the dream–woman, isaac, the dream–woman!”
that faint cleaving doubt which he had never been able to shake off in rebecca murdoch’s presence was fatally set at rest forever. he had seen her face, then, before — seven years before, on his birthday, in the bedroom of the lonely inn.
“be warned! oh, my son, be warned! isaac, isaac, let her go, and do you stop with me!”
something darkened the parlor window as those words were said. a sudden chill ran through him, and he glanced sidelong at the shadow. rebecca murdoch had come back. she was peering in curiously at them over the low window-blind.
“i have promised to marry, mother,” he said, “and marry i must.”
the tears came into his eyes as he spoke and dimmed his sight, but he could just discern the fatal face outside moving away again from the window.
his mother’s head sank lower.
“are you faint?” he whispered.
“broken-hearted, isaac.”
he stooped down and kissed her. the shadow, as he did so, returned to the window, and the fatal face peered in curiously once more.
