she awoke at dawn, and rose at once, remembering that she had not had a walk since leaving the ship. no wonder these three long days of bodily inactivity and mental turmoil had played havoc with her nerves. she would walk for hours and then return and write to tay, telling him that she would marry him on the day the next american steamer arrived, but begging him to make no attempt to see her until then. it was her duty to devote the few intervening days to her mother, as well as to prepare her by degrees for the staggering information that she intended to marry an american and desert her country. but if she could convince the old lady that the planets had reckoned with the united states of america, she should, if not reconcile her to a son-in-law of a race she despised, at least leave her with unbroken faith in a science full of compensations.
she went out to the kitchen and brewed herself a cup of coffee, then started for a brisk walk round the island. the night’s refreshing sleep, the strong drink, the awakening tropic morning, the peace of mind that follows a momentous and final decision, made her feel as if dancing on ether, almost as happy as if tay were beside her. the sea was as blue as liquid sapphire, save near the shore, where it was as green as the beryl stone. the cloud that descends the slopes of nevis at nightfall had rolled itself upward and floated lightly above the cone. in the distance were the outlines of other islands; and everywhere the royal palms with their long bladelike leaves rattling in the rising trade-wind that gives lightness to nevis air on the hottest day, the bright green cane fields, the heavy dark groves of banana trees, the lime and shaddock orchards. even the ruins of the deserted old estates, splendid masses of masonry in their day, a day of coaches, and knee-breeches, and gay brocades, had a new and more pictorial lease of life, for brilliant foliage burst from every crevice.
the negroes began to sing in the cane fields, women in bright cotton frocks, with brighter handkerchiefs about their heads, came from their huts along the shore and cooked in the open, boats danced on the water. she walked halfway round the island and was hungry once more. a little black boy, tempted by a bit of silver, “skinned” up the slim shaft of a tree and threw down a young cocoanut. she refreshed herself with its “wine” and then started along the stretch of road that passed bath house, half hoping to meet tay. in a moment she heard the sound of galloping hoofs, eight at least, and averse from meeting any one else, hid behind a clump of low palms.
the horses stopped abruptly, then struck the road more lightly as if their riders had dismounted. she parted the palm leaves and looked out. a man and a maid appeared round a bend of the road, each leading a horse. the girl took the man’s arm with a little gesture of confidence and looked up into his face, speaking rapidly. the man looked down at her, smiling, admiring, indulgent. the girl’s face was flaming with nothing short of adoration. they were fanny edis and daniel tay.
julia, feeling as if she had received a blow in the pit of the stomach, sank limply to the ground and stared out over the dazzling sea. monserrat quivered in its haze, and she wondered if it were in the throes of an earthquake. it usually was. she remembered that mont pelée, after untold years of “death,” had suddenly blown the lake from her summit and suffocated thirty-five thousand people in four minutes. would that nevis would awake, pour out her boiling lava, and extinguish her wretched mortals. julia beat her brow with one of those instinctive gestures too natural for the modern stage; for perfect naturalism borders upon farce.
tay—fanny. she took it in finally. he had fallen in love with fanny, the young, beautiful, glowing girl—what was it old pirie had called her—“volcanic product”? no doubt she was far more beautiful and fascinating than any girl tay had ever met,—and quite different from american girls. julia recalled many of them; they had always seemed to her rather light; clever and charming, but scantily sexed. no wonder tay had succumbed to this gorgeous tropic flower. fanny might be selfish, soulless, brutal, but what man ever looked behind a beauty like that? she was the siren born, and men have gone down before sirens since the daughters of eve came to rule the earth and laugh to scorn the god in man.
julia felt quite sixty. no doubt tay had realized that she was all of thirty-four the moment he had seen her beside fanny. men were always fools about the mere youth in woman. hadn’t she noticed that years ago, before she had spent a week in london? no wonder nature made women brutal and wholly selfish during its brief possession. tay had loved her, oh, no doubt of that, but with his mind, with that greater half of his being which he had shown her that day in the bavarian wood; but men are primal always and spiritual incidentally, when they are men at all; and her hold had been a flimsy silken string that had snapped the moment he met this radiant mate, unspoiled, untouched, awaiting him on a tropical island. he had loved her, but he was madly in love with fanny, and that, after all, was the great passion mortals lived to experience, if only because the poets had taught them to expect it. and she—she must despise where she had almost worshipped. how did women survive the death of illusions? material death was something to pray for.
but julia’s brain, stunned for the first time in its active life, soon recovered its energies. she suddenly realized that she did not feel sixty, no, not by any means. she felt very young and very angry. a moment more and she sprang to her feet with a cry of fury. she fancied she heard her flame-colored locks crackle. her slim fine hands worked. they looked like steel instruments of torture one may see among old relics of the inquisition. what right had this raw silly girl to take her man from her? tay was hers and she should have him. she should hold him to his word, marry him, make him forget this passing infatuation. he would not be long discovering that she had far more to give him than any callow girl. if not! once more her fingers opened and shut. well for fanny that she was once more on her horse with a strong arm beside her. julia’s fingers were ready for the slender stem upholding that triumphant arrogant head. fanny! why, fanny was a fool. she would make tay the most miserable of men, understand not the least of his ambitions, leave him, no doubt, for another the moment her passion had cooled. he had insinuated that she was a born wanton, although he appeared to have forgotten this virtuous impression.
her next impulse was to run after fanny, denounce her as a thief, a pirate, force her to see the dishonor of her conduct. but this impulse soon passed, for never would she, julia france, make a fool of herself, no, not if they laughed in her face. but what, in heaven’s name, should she do?
she peered out. the road was clear. she darted across it, and up into a cane field. the negroes were far away by the mill. she threw herself down in the dense green silence and wept a torrent. after all, what could she do? she could only recognize that she had lost tay, the one man in the world for her; she, who had made herself so much more than mere woman, and to a girl who was her inferior in everything but beauty.
she wept stormily for her lost lover, for love, for herself. then, once more, she despised him. why should she regret a man who had proved himself weak and contemptible? why indeed? ask womankind. she did. the more convinced she grew that she had lost him, the more she wanted him. she abhorred him, she loathed him, she had never despised any mortal so utterly, and she loved him several thousand times more than ever.
she sat up and dried her eyes viciously. why was she making a fright of herself? she had always laughed at women that cried and spoiled their eyes. he was not yet married to fanny. why should she not pretend to release him, then subtly re?nter the lists and win him again? how could any girl survive in a close contest with a woman still young and beautiful, and with experience and knowledge of men? but she stirred uneasily. she had seen the automatic triumphs of girls more than once. nature was always on their side.
she fell back on the ground with a sensation of despair. “oh, what shall i do?” she thought in terror. “have i come to this? how shall i live?”
but she sat up again in a few moments and deliberately composed herself, ordering her powerful will to rise and perform its office. she must return to the house before her mother sent servants in search of her, and her eyes must not be red. nor her hair look as if she had tried to tear it out by the roots. she took down the braids, smoothed them with her hands, pinned them up, and pushed the short locks under her hat.
her mother. she had risen to her feet, but stood staring out over the waving cane. why had she given fanny this sudden liberty, and not three hours after announcing her decision, with all the force of her obstinate old will, that fanny should never marry, never be permitted even to meet, a young man? and why had she insisted that julia remain at her side throughout her entire visit? never was there a less sentimental woman. and the conversation at the dinner-table last night? it sprang vividly from her memory. she saw fanny’s face, flushed, arrogant, anxious, her aunt’s faint satiric smile, heard her covert words of warning.
what a blind fool she had been.
“so,” she thought grimly. “we are all the victims of a plot, and one quite worthy of my mother. i have been managed as easily as if i had but a teaspoonful of brains in my head. and so has he. idiots! idiots!” and she hated everybody on earth.
she walked rapidly home, slipped into the house unobserved, bathed her eyes, until the outer signs of the most tempestuous hour of her life were obliterated, powdered the black rings under her eyes, and made a satisfactory appearance at the lunch table. neither mrs. winstone nor fanny was present. mrs. edis talked of naught but suffrage.
“great heaven!” thought julia. “that i should live to hate the word!”
