by henry mackenzie.
ore than forty years ago an english philosopher, whose works have since been read and admired by all europe, resided at a little town in france. some disappointments in his native country had first driven him abroad, and he was afterward induced to remain there from having found, in this retreat, where the connections even of nation and language were avoided, a perfect seclusion and retirement highly favorable to the development of abstract subjects, in which he excelled all the writers of his time.
perhaps, in the structure of such a mind as mr. ——’s, the finer and more delicate sensibilities are seldom known to have place, or, if originally implanted there, are in a great measure extinguished by the exertions of intense study and profound investigation. hence the idea of philosophy and unfeelingness being united has become proverbial, and, in common language, the former word is often used to express the latter. our philosopher had been censured by some as deficient in warmth and feeling; but the mildness of his manners has been allowed[166] by all, and it is certain that, if he was not easily melted into compassion, it was at least not difficult to awaken his benevolence.
one morning, while he sat busied in those speculations which afterward astonished the world, an old female domestic, who served him for a housekeeper, brought him word that an elderly gentleman and his daughter had arrived in the village the preceding evening, on their way to some distant country, and that the father had been suddenly seized in the night with a dangerous disorder, which the people of the inn where they lodged feared would prove mortal; that she had been sent for, as having some knowledge of medicine, the village surgeon being then absent; and that it was truly piteous to see the good old man, who seemed not so much afflicted by his own distress as by that which it caused to his daughter. her master laid aside the volume in his hand, and broke off the chain of ideas it had inspired. his nightgown was exchanged for a coat, and he followed his gouvernante to the sick man’s apartment.
it was the best in the inn where they lay, but a paltry one notwithstanding. mr. —— was obliged to stoop as he entered it. it was floored with earth, and above were the joists not plastered, and hung with cobwebs. on a flock-bed, at one end, lay the old man he came to visit; at the foot of it sat his daughter. she was dressed in a clean white bedgown; her dark locks hung loosely over it as she bent forward, watching the languid looks of her father. mr. —— and his housekeeper had stood some moments in the room without the young lady’s being sensible of their entering it.
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“mademoiselle!” said the old woman at last, in a soft tone.
she turned and showed one of the finest faces in the world. it was touched, not spoiled, with sorrow; and when she perceived a stranger, whom the old woman now introduced to her, a blush at first, and then the gentle ceremonial of native politeness, which the affliction of the time tempered but did not extinguish, crossed it for a moment and changed its expression. it was sweetness all, however, and our philosopher felt it strongly. it was not a time for words; he offered his services in a few sincere ones.
“monsieur lies miserably ill here,” said the gouvernante; “if he could possibly be moved anywhere.”
“if he could be moved to our house,” said her master. he had a spare bed for a friend, and there was a garret room unoccupied, next to the gouvernante’s.
it was contrived accordingly. the scruples of the stranger, who could look scruples though he could not speak them, were overcome, and the bashful reluctance of his daughter gave way to her belief of its use to her father. the sick man was wrapped in blankets, and carried across the street to the english gentleman’s. the old woman helped his daughter to nurse him there. the surgeon, who arrived soon after, prescribed a little, and nature did much for him; in a week he was able to thank his benefactor.
by that time his host had learned the name and character of his guest. he was a protestant clergyman of switzerland, called la roche, a widower, who had lately buried his wife, after a long and lingering illness, for[168] which travelling had been prescribed, and was now returning home, after an ineffectual and melancholy journey, with his only child, the daughter we have mentioned.
he was a devout man, as became his profession. he possessed devotion in all its warmth, but with none of its asperity,—i mean that asperity which men, called devout, sometimes indulge in.
mr. ——, though he felt no devotion, never quarrelled with it in others. his gouvernante joined the old man and his daughter in the prayers and thanksgivings which they put up on his recovery; for she too was a heretic, in the phrase of the village. the philosopher walked out, with his long staff and his dog, and left them to their prayers and thanksgivings.
“my master,” said the old woman, “alas! he is not a christian; but he is the best of unbelievers.”
“not a christian!” exclaimed mademoiselle la roche, “yet he saved my father! heaven bless him for it! i would he were a christian.”
“there is a pride in human knowledge, my child,” said her father, “which often blinds men to the sublime truths of revelation; hence opposers of christianity are found among men of virtuous lives, as well as among those of dissipated and licentious characters. nay, sometimes i have known the latter more easily converted to the true faith than the former, because the fume of passion is more easily dissipated than the mist of false theory and delusive speculation.”
“but mr. ——,” said his daughter, “alas! my father, he shall be a christian before he dies.” she was interrupted[169] by the arrival of their landlord. he took her hand with an air of kindness. she drew it away from him in silence, threw down her eyes to the ground, and left the room.
“i have been thanking god,” said the good la roche, “for my recovery.”
“that is right,” replied his landlord.
“i would not wish,” continued the old man hesitatingly, “to think otherwise. did i not look up with gratitude to that being, i should barely be satisfied with my recovery as a continuation of life, which, it may be, is not a real good. alas! i may live to wish i had died, that you had left me to die, sir, instead of kindly relieving me,”—he clasped mr ——’s hand,—“but, when i look on this renovated being as the gift of the almighty, i feel a far different sentiment; my heart dilates with gratitude and love to him; it is prepared for doing his will, not as a duty, but as a pleasure, and regards every breach of it, not with disapprobation, but with horror.”
“you say right, my dear sir,” replied the philosopher, “but you are not yet re-established enough to talk much; you must take care of your health, and neither study nor preach for some time. i have been thinking over a scheme that struck me to-day when you mentioned your intended departure. i never was in switzerland. i have a great mind to accompany your daughter and you into that country. i will help to take care of you by the road; for as i was your first physician, i hold myself responsible for your cure.”
la roche’s eyes glistened at the proposal. his daughter was called in and told of it. she was equally pleased[170] with her father, for they really loved their landlord,—not perhaps the less for his infidelity; at least, that circumstance mixed a sort of pity with their regard for him,—their souls were not of a mould for harsher feelings; hatred never dwelt in them.
they travelled by short stages; for the philosopher was as good as his word in taking care that the old man should not be fatigued. the party had time to be well acquainted with each other, and their friendship was increased by acquaintance. la roche found a degree of simplicity and gentleness in his companion which is not always annexed to the character of a learned or a wise man. his daughter, who was prepared to be afraid of him, was equally undeceived. she found in him nothing of that self-importance which superior parts, or great cultivation of them, is apt to confer. he talked of everything but philosophy and religion; he seemed to enjoy every pleasure and amusement of ordinary life, and to be interested in the most common topics of discourse; when his knowledge of learning at any time appeared, it was delivered with the utmost plainness and without the least shadow of dogmatism.
on his part, he was charmed with the society of the good clergyman and his lovely daughter. he found in them the guileless manner of the earliest times, with the culture and accomplishment of the most refined ones; every better feeling warm and vivid, every ungentle one repressed or overcome. he was not addicted to love; but he felt himself happy in being the friend of mademoiselle la roche, and sometimes envied her father the possession of such a child.
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after a journey of eleven days, they arrived at the dwelling of la roche. it was situated in one of those valleys of the canton of berne, where nature seems to repose, as it were, in quiet, and has enclosed her retreat with mountains inaccessible. a stream, that spent its fury in the hills above, ran in front of the house, and a broken waterfall was seen through the wood that covered its sides; below it circled round a tufted plain, and formed a little lake in front of a village, at the end of which appeared the spire of la roche’s church, rising above a clump of beeches.
mr. —— enjoyed the beauty of the scene; but to his companions it recalled the memory of a wife and parent they had lost. the old man’s sorrow was silent; his daughter sobbed and wept. her father took her hand, kissed it twice, pressed it to his bosom, threw up his eyes to heaven, and, having wiped off a tear that was just about to drop from each, began to point out to his guest some of the most striking objects which the prospect afforded. the philosopher interpreted all this, and he could but slightly censure the creed from which it arose.
they had not been long arrived when a number of la roche’s parishioners, who had heard of his return, came to the house to see and welcome him. the honest folks were awkward, but sincere, in their professions of regard. they made some attempts at condolence; it was too delicate for their handling, but la roche took it in good part. “it has pleased god,” said he; and they saw he had settled the matter with himself. philosophy could not have done so much with a thousand words.
it was now evening, and the good peasants were[172] about to depart, when a clock was heard to strike seven, and the hour was followed by a particular chime. the country folks, who had come to welcome their pastor, turned their looks toward him at the sound. he explained their meaning to his guest.
“that is the signal,” said he, “for our evening exercise. this is one of the nights of the week in which some of my parishioners are wont to join in it; a little rustic saloon serves for the chapel of our family and such of the good people as are with us. if you choose rather to walk out, i will furnish you with an attendant; or here are a few old books that may afford you some entertainment within.”
“by no means,” answered the philosopher; “i will attend mademoiselle at her devotions.”
“she is our organist,” said la roche. “our neighborhood is the country of musical mechanism, and i have a small organ fitted up for the purpose of assisting our singing.”
“’tis an additional inducement,” replied the other; and they walked into the room together.
at the end stood the organ mentioned by la roche; before it was a curtain, which his daughter drew aside, and, placing herself on a seat within and drawing the curtain close so as to save her the awkwardness of an exhibition, began a voluntary, solemn and beautiful in the highest degree. mr. —— was no musician, but he was not altogether insensible to music; and this fastened on his mind more strongly from its beauty being unexpected. the solemn prelude introduced a hymn, in which such of the audience as could sing immediately[173] joined. the words were mostly taken from holy writ; it spoke the praises of god, and his care of good men. something was said of the death of the just, of such as die in the lord. the organ was touched with a hand less firm; it paused; it ceased; and the sobbing of mademoiselle la roche was heard in its stead. her father gave a sign for stopping the psalmody, and rose to pray. he was discomposed at first, and his voice faltered as he spoke; but his heart was in his words, and its warmth overcame his embarrassment. he addressed a being whom he loved, and he spoke for those he loved. his parishioners caught the ardor of the good old man; even the philosopher felt himself moved, and forgot, for a moment, to think why he should not.
la roche’s religion was that of sentiment, not theory, and his guest was averse from disputation; their discourse, therefore, did not lead to questions concerning the belief of either; yet would the old man sometimes speak of his, from the fulness of a heart impressed with its force and wishing to spread the pleasure he enjoyed in it. the ideas of a god and a saviour were so congenial to his mind, that every emotion of it naturally awakened them. a philosopher might have called him an enthusiast; but, if he possessed the fervor of enthusiasts, he was guiltless of their bigotry. “our father, which art in heaven!” might the good man say, for he felt it, and all mankind were his brethren.
“you regret, my friend,” said he to mr. ——, “when my daughter and i talk of the exquisite pleasure derived from music,—you regret your want of musical powers and musical feelings; it is a department of soul, you[174] say, which nature has almost denied you, which, from the effects you see it have on others, you are sure must be highly delightful. why should not the same thing be said of religion? trust me, i feel it in the same way,—an energy, an inspiration, which i would not lose for all the blessings of sense, or enjoyments of the world; yet, so far from lessening my relish of the pleasures of life, methinks i feel it heighten them all. the thought of receiving it from god adds the blessing of sentiment to that of sensation in every good thing i possess; and when calamities overtake me,—and i have had my share,—it confers a dignity on my affliction, so lifts me above the world. man, i know, is but a worm; yet, methinks, i am then allied to god!”
it would have been inhuman in our philosopher to have clouded, even with a doubt, the sunshine of this belief. his discourse, indeed, was very remote from metaphysical disquisition or religious controversy. of all men i ever knew, his ordinary conversation was the least tinctured with pedantry, or liable to dissertation. with la roche and his daughter, it was perfectly familiar. the country round them, the manners of the villagers, the comparison of both with those of england, remarks on the works of favorite authors, on the sentiments they conveyed and the passions they excited, with many other topics in which there was an equality or alternate advantage among the speakers, were the subjects they talked on. their hours, too, of riding and walking were many, in which mr. ——, as a stranger, was shown the remarkable scenes and curiosities of the country. they would sometimes make little expeditions[175] to contemplate, in different attitudes, those astonishing mountains, the cliffs of which, covered with eternal snows, and sometimes shooting into fantastic shapes, form the termination of most of the swiss prospects. our philosopher asked many questions as to their natural history and productions. la roche observed the sublimity of the ideas which the view of their stupendous summits, inaccessible to mortal foot, was calculated to inspire, which naturally, said he, leads the mind to that being by whom their foundations were laid.
“they are not seen in flanders,” said mademoiselle with a sigh.
“that’s an odd remark,” said mr. ——, smiling.
she blushed, and he inquired no further.
it was with regret he left a society in which he found himself so happy; but he settled with la roche and his daughter a plan of correspondence, and they took his promise that, if ever he came within fifty leagues of their dwelling, he should travel those fifty leagues to visit them.
about three years after, our philosopher was on a visit at geneva; the promise he made to la roche and his daughter, on his former visit, was recalled to his mind by the view of that range of mountains on a part of which they had often looked together. there was a reproach, too, conveyed along with the recollection, for his having failed to write to either for several months past. the truth was, that indolence was the habit most natural to him, from which he was not easily roused by the claims of correspondence, either of his friends or of his enemies; when the latter drew their pens in controversy, they were[176] often unanswered as well as the former. while he was hesitating about a visit to la roche, which he wished to make, but found the effort rather too much for him, he received a letter from the old man, which had been forwarded to him from paris, where he had then fixed his residence. it contained a gentle complaint of mr. ——’s want of punctuality, but an assurance of continued gratitude for his former good offices; and, as a friend whom the writer considered interested in his family, it informed him of the approaching nuptials of mademoiselle la roche with a young man, a relation of her own, and formerly a pupil of her father’s, of the most amiable dispositions and respectable character. attached from their earliest years, they had been separated by his joining one of the subsidiary regiments of the canton, then in the service of a foreign power. in this situation he had distinguished himself as much for courage and military skill as for the other endowments which he had cultivated at home. the time of his service was now expired, and they expected him to return in a few weeks, when the old man hoped, as he expressed it in his letter, to join their hands and see them happy before he died.
our philosopher felt himself interested in this event; but he was not, perhaps, altogether so happy in the tidings of mademoiselle la roche’s marriage as her father supposed him. not that he was ever a lover of the lady’s; but he thought her one of the most amiable women he had seen, and there was something in the idea of her being another’s forever that struck him, he knew not why, like a disappointment. after some little speculation on the matter, however, he could look on it as a[177] thing fitting if not quite agreeable, and determined on this visit to see his old friend and his daughter happy.
on the last day of his journey, different accidents had retarded his progress: he was benighted before he reached the quarter in which la roche resided. his guide, however, was well acquainted with the road, and he found himself at last in view of the lake, which i have before described, in the neighborhood of la roche’s dwelling. a light gleamed on the water, that seemed to proceed from the house; it moved slowly along as he proceeded up the side of the lake, and at last he saw it glimmer through the trees, and stop at some distance from the place where he then was. he supposed it some piece of bridal merriment, and pushed on his horse that he might be a spectator of the scene; but he was a good deal shocked, on approaching the spot, to find it proceed from the torch of a person clothed in the dress of an attendant on a funeral, and accompanied by several others who, like him, seemed to have been employed in the rites of sepulture.
on mr. ——’s making inquiry who was the person they had been burying, one of them, with an accent more mournful than is common to their profession, answered,—
“then you knew not mademoiselle, sir? you never beheld a lovelier—”
“la roche!” exclaimed he in reply.
“alas! it was she indeed.”
the appearance of surprise and grief which his countenance assumed attracted the notice of the peasant with whom he talked. he came up closer to mr. ——. “i[178] perceive, sir, you were acquainted with mademoiselle la roche.”
“acquainted with her!—good god!—when—how—where did she die? where is her father?”
“she died, sir, of heart-break, i believe. the young gentleman to whom she was soon to have been married was killed in a duel by a french officer, his intimate companion, to whom, before their quarrel, he had often done the greatest favors. her worthy father bears her death as he has often told us a christian should; he is even so composed as to be now in his pulpit, ready to deliver a few exhortations to his parishioners, as is the custom with us on such occasions. follow me, sir, and you shall hear him.”
he followed the man without answering.
the church was dimly lighted, except near the pulpit, where the venerable la roche was seated. his people were now lifting up their voices in a psalm to that being whom their pastor had taught them ever to bless and to revere. la roche sat, his figure bending gently forward, his eyes half closed, lifted up in silent devotion. a lamp placed near him threw its light strong on his head, and marked the shadowy lines of age across the paleness of his brow, thinly covered with gray hairs.
the music ceased. la roche sat for a moment, and nature wrung a few tears from him. his people were loud in their grief: mr. —— was not less affected than they. la roche arose.
“father of mercies!” said he, “forgive these tears; assist thy servant to lift up his soul to thee, to lift to thee the souls of thy people. my friends, it is good so to do;[179] at all seasons it is good; but in the days of our distress, what a privilege it is! well saith the sacred book, ‘trust in the lord; at all times trust in the lord!’ when every other support fails us, when the fountains of worldly comfort are dried up, let us then seek those living waters which flow from the throne of god. ’tis only from the belief of the goodness and wisdom of a supreme being that our calamities can be borne in that manner which becomes a man. human wisdom is here of little use; for, in proportion as it bestows comfort, it represses feeling, without which we may cease to be hurt by calamity, but we shall also cease to enjoy happiness. i will not bid you be insensible, my friends. i cannot, if i would.” his tears flowed afresh. “i feel too much myself, and i am not ashamed of my feelings; but therefore may i the more willingly be heard; therefore have i prayed god to give me strength to speak to you, to direct you to him, not with empty words, but with these tears, not from speculation, but from experience, that while you see me suffer you may know also my consolation. you behold the mourner of his only child, the last earthly stay and blessing of his declining years. such a child too! it becomes not me to speak of her virtues; yet it is but gratitude to mention them, because they were exerted toward myself. not many days ago you saw her young, beautiful, virtuous, and happy. ye who are parents will judge of my felicity then; ye will judge of my affliction now. but i look toward him who struck me; i see the hand of a father amidst the chastenings of my god. oh! could i make you feel what it is to pour out the heart, when it is pressed down with many sorrows,[180] to pour it out with confidence to him in whose hands are life and death, on whose power awaits all that the first enjoys, and in contemplation of whom disappears all that the last can inflict. for we are not as those who die without hope; we know that our redeemer liveth,—that we shall live with him, with our friends, his servants, in that blessed land where sorrow is unknown, and happiness is endless as it is perfect. go, then, mourn not for me; i have not lost my child; but a little while, and we shall meet again, never to be separated. but ye are also my children: would ye that i should not grieve without comfort? so live as she lived, that, when your death cometh, it may be the death of the righteous, and your latter end like his.”
such was the exhortation of la roche: his audience answered it with their tears. the good old man had dried up his at the altar of the lord: his countenance had lost its sadness and assumed the glow of faith and hope. mr. —— followed him into his house. the inspiration of the pulpit was past; at sight of him, the scenes they had last met in rushed again on his mind; la roche threw his arms around his neck, and watered it with his tears. the other was equally affected. they went together, in silence, into the parlor, where the evening service was wont to be performed. the curtains of the organ were open; la roche started back at the sight.
“oh! my friend!” said he, and his tears burst forth again.
mr. —— had now recollected himself; he stepped forward, and drew the curtains close. the old man wiped[181] off his tears, and taking his friend’s hand, “you see my weakness,” said he, “’tis the weakness of humanity; but my comfort is not therefore lost.”
“i heard you,” said the other, “in the pulpit; i rejoice that such consolation is yours.”
“it is, my friend,” said he; “and i trust i shall ever hold it fast. if there are any who doubt our faith, let them think of what importance religion is to calamity, and forbear to weaken its force. if they cannot restore our happiness, let them not take away the solace of our affliction.”
mr. ——’s heart was smitten, and i have heard him, long after, confess that there were moments when the remembrance overcame him even to weakness; when, amidst all the pleasures of philosophical discovery and the pride of literary fame, he recalled to his mind the venerable figure of the good la roche, and wished that he had never doubted.
