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XX. TOMASO AND I.

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the next day my amanuensis bade me good-morning in her former pleasant manner, but without turning toward me seated herself quickly at the table, and took the manuscript from the drawer. "oh, ho!" i thought, "then you can speak; and it was not the rules which made you behave in that way, but your own pique, which has worn off a little." i glanced at her as she intently looked over the work of the day before, and i was considering whether or not it would be fitting for me to show that there might be pique on one side of the grating as well as on the other, when suddenly my thoughts were interrupted by a burst of laughter,—girlish, irrepressible laughter. with the manuscript in her hands, my nun actually leaned back in her chair and laughed so heartily that i wonder my grandmother did not hear her.

"i declare," she said, turning to me, her eyes glistening with tears of merriment, "this is the funniest thing i ever saw. why, you have actually separated those poor lovers for life, and crushed every hope in the properest way. and then all the rest about commerce! i wouldn't have believed you could do it."

"what do you mean?" i exclaimed. "you showed no surprise when you wrote it."

again she laughed.

"wrote it!" she cried. "i never wrote a line of it. it was sister sarah who was your secretary yesterday. didn't you know that?"

i stood for a moment utterly unable to answer; then i gasped, "sister sarah wrote for me yesterday! what does it mean?"

"positively," said she, pushing back her chair and rising to her feet, "this is not only the funniest, but the most wonderful thing in the world. do you mean truly to say that you did not know it was sister sarah who wrote for you yesterday?"

"i did not suspect it for an instant," i answered.

"it was, it was!" she exclaimed, clasping her hands in her earnestness, and stepping closer to the grating. "when we came here yesterday, and found you were not in your room, a sudden idea struck her. 'i will stay here myself, this morning,' she said, 'and do his writing. i want to know what sort of a story this is that is being dictated to a sister of our house;' and so she simply turned me out and told me to go home. you don't know how frightened i was. i was afraid that, as we dress exactly alike, you might not at first notice that sister sarah was sitting at the table, and that you might begin with an awfully affectionate speech by tomaso; for i knew that something of that kind was just on the point of breaking out, and i knew too that if you did it there would be lively times in the house of martha, and perhaps here also. i fairly shivered the whole morning, and my only hope was that she would begin to snap at you as soon as you came in, and you would then know whom you had to deal with, and that you would have to put a lot of water into your love-making if you wanted any more help from the sisters. but if i had known that you would not find out that she was writing for you, i should certainly have died. i couldn't have stood it. but how in the world could you have kept on thinking that that woman was i? she is shorter and fatter, and not a bit like me, except in her clothes; and if you thought i was writing for you, why did you dictate that ridiculous stuff?"

i stood confounded. here were answers to devise.

"of course the dress deceived me," i said presently, "and not once did she turn her face toward me; besides, i did not imagine for a moment that any one but you could be sitting at that table."

"but i cannot understand why," she pursued, "if you didn't know it was sister sarah, you made that sudden change in your story."

for a moment i hesitated, and then i saw i might as well speak out honestly. when a man sees before him a pair of blue eyes like those which were then fixed upon me, the chances are that he will speak out honestly.

"the fact is," i said, "that i'm a little—well, sensitive; and when you, or the person i thought was you, did not speak to me, nor look at me, nor pay any more heed to me than if i had been a talking-machine worked with a crank, i was somewhat provoked, and determined that if you suddenly chose to freeze in that way i would freeze too, and that you should have no more of that story in which you were so interested; and so i smashed the loves of tomaso and lucilla and took up commerce, which i was sure you would hate."

at this there was a quick flash in her eyes, and the first tremblings of a smile at the corners of her mouth.

"oh!" she said, and that was all she did say, as she returned to the table and took her seat.

"is my explanation satisfactory?" i asked.

"oh, certainly," she answered; "and if you will excuse me for saying so, i think you are a very fortunate man. in trying to punish me you protected yourself,—that is, if you care to have secretaries from our institution."

as i could not see her face, i could not determine what answer i should make to this remark, and she continued, as she turned over the sheets:—

"what are you going to do with the pages which were written yesterday?"

"tear them up," i replied, "and throw them into the basket. i wish to annihilate them utterly."

she obeyed me, and tore sister sarah's work into very small pieces.

"now we will go on with the original and genuine story," i said. "and as the occurrences of yesterday are entirely banished from my mind, and as all recollection of the point where we left off has gone, will you kindly read two or three pages of what you last wrote?"

several times i had perceived, or thought i had perceived, symptoms of emotion in the back of my secretary's shawl, and these symptoms, if such they were, were visible now. she occupied some minutes in selecting a suitable point at which to begin, but when she had done this she read without any signs of emotion, either in her shawl or in her face.

the story of the sicilian young people progressed slowly, not because of any lack of material, but because i was anxious to portray the phases as clearly and as effectively as i could possibly do it; and whenever i could prevent myself from thinking of something else, i applied my mind most earnestly to this object. i flatter myself that i did the work very well, and i am sure there were passages the natural fervor of which would have made sister sarah bounce at least a yard from her chair, had they been dictated to her, but my nun did not bounce in the least.

before the hour at which we usually stopped work i arose from my chair, and stated that that would be all for the day. my secretary looked at me quickly.

"all for to-day?" she asked, a little smile of disapprobation upon her brow. "it cannot be twelve o'clock yet."

"no," i answered, "it is not; but it is not easy to work out the answer which lucilla ought now to make to tomaso, and i shall have to take time for its consideration."

"i shouldn't think it would be easy," said she, "but i hoped you had it already in your mind."

"then you are interested in it?" i asked.

"of course i am," she answered,—"who wouldn't be? and just at this point, too, when everything depends on what she says; but it is quite right for you to be very careful about what you make her say," and she gathered her sheets together to lay them away.

now i wanted to say something to her. i stopped work for that purpose, but i did not know what to say. an apology for my conduct of the day before would not be exactly in order, and an explanation of it would be exceedingly difficult. i walked up and down my study, and she continued to arrange her pages. when she had put them into a compact and very neat little pile, she opened the table drawer, placed them in it, examined some other contents of the drawer, and finally closed it, and sat looking out of the window. after some minutes of this silent observation, she half turned toward me, and without entirely removing her gaze from the apple-tree outside, she asked:—

"do you still want to know my name?"

"indeed i do!" i exclaimed, stepping quickly to the grating.

"well, then," she said, "it is sylvia."

at this moment we heard the footsteps of sister sarah in the hall, at least two minutes before the usual time.

when they had gone, i stood by my study table, my arms folded and my eyes fixed upon the floor.

"horace vanderley," i said to myself, "you are in love;" and to this frank and explicit statement i answered, quite as frankly, "that is certainly true; there can be no mistake about it."

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