i was very much disgusted at the present state of affairs. three days had elapsed, and i did not know what sort of a human being my secretary was. i might as well dictate into a speaking-tube. a phonograph would be better; for although it might seem ridiculous to sit in my room and talk aloud to no one, what was i doing now? that nun was the same as no one.
the next day was sunday, and there would be no work, and no chance to solve the problem, which had become an actual annoyance to me; but i did not intend that this problem should continue to annoy me and interfere with my work. i am open and aboveboard myself, and if my secretary did not choose to be open and aboveboard, and behave like an ordinary human being, she should depart, and i would tell walkirk to get me an ordinary human being, capable of writing from dictation, or depart himself. if he could not provide me with a suitable secretary, he was not the efficient man of business that he claimed to be. as to the absurdity of dictating to a mystery in a barrow bonnet, i would have no more of it.
i do not consider myself an ill-tempered person, and my grandmother asserts that i have a very good temper indeed; but i must admit that on monday morning i felt a little cross, and when sister sarah and the nun entered my antechamber i bade them a very cold good-morning, and allowed the former to go without attempting any conversation whatever. the nun having arrived, i would not send her away; but when the sub-mother came at noon, i intended to inform her that i did not any longer desire the services of the writing sister, and if she wished to know why i should tell her plainly. i would not say that i would as soon dictate to an inanimate tree-stump, but i would express that idea in as courteous terms as possible.
for fifteen minutes i let the nun sit and wait. if her principles forbade idleness, i was glad to have a crack at her principles. then i began to dictate steadily and severely. i found that the dismissal from my mind of all conjectures regarding the personality of my secretary was of great service to me, and i was able to compose much faster than she could write.
it was about half past ten, i think, and the morning was warm and pleasant, when there gently sailed into the secretary's room, through the open window, a wasp. i saw him come in, and i do not think i ever beheld a more agreeable or benignant insect. his large eyes were filled with the light of a fatherly graciousness. his semi-detached body seemed to quiver with a helpful impulse, and his long hind legs hung down beneath him as though they were outstretched to assist, befriend, or succor. with wings waving blessings and a buzz of cheery greeting, he sailed around the room, now dipping here, now there, and then circling higher, tapping the ceiling with his genial back.
the moment the nun saw the wasp, a most decided thrill ran down the back of her shawl. then it pervaded her bonnet, and finally the whole of her. as the beneficent insect sailed down near the table, she abruptly sprang to her feet and pushed back her chair. i advanced to the grating, but what could i do? seeing me there, and doubtless with the desire immediately to assure me of his kindly intentions, my friend vespa made a swoop directly at the front of the nun's bonnet.
with an undisguised ejaculation, and beating wildly at the insect with her hands, the nun bounded to one side and turned her face full upon me. i stood astounded. i forgot the wasp.
i totally lost sight of the fact that a young woman was in danger of being badly stung. i thought of nothing but that she was a young woman, and a most astonishingly pretty one besides.
the state of terror she was in opened wide her lovely blue eyes, half crimsoned her clear white skin, and threw her rosy lips and sparkling teeth into the most enchanting combinations.
"make it go away!" she cried, throwing up one arm, and thereby pushing back her gray bonnet, and exhibiting some of the gloss of her light brown hair. "can't you kill it?"
most gladly would i have rushed in, and shed with my own hands the blood of my friend vespa, for the sake of this most charming young woman, suddenly transformed from a barrow-bonneted principle. but i was powerless. i could not break through the grating; the other door of the secretary's room was locked.
"don't strike at it," i said; "remain as motionless as you can, then perhaps it will fly away. striking at a wasp only enrages it."
"i can't stay quiet," she cried; "nobody could!" and she sprang behind the table, making at the same time another slap at the buzzing insect.
"you will surely be stung," i said, "if you act in that way. if you will slap at the wasp, don't use your hand; take something with which you can kill it."
"what can i take?" she exclaimed, now running round the table, and stopping close to the grating. "give me something."
i hurriedly glanced around my study. i saw nothing that would answer for a weapon but a whisk broom, which i seized, and endeavored to thrust through the meshes of the grating.
"oh!" she cried, as the wasp made a desperate dive close to her face, "give me that, quick!" and she stretched out her hand to me.
"i cannot," i replied; "i can't push it through. it won't go through. take your bonnet."
at this, my nun seized her bonnet by a sort of floating hood which hung around the bottom of it and jerked it from her head, bringing with it certain flaps and ligatures and combs, which, being thus roughly removed, allowed a mass of wavy hair to fall about her shoulders.
waving her bonnet in her hand, like a slung-shot, she sprang back and waited for the wasp. when the buzzing creature came near enough, she made a desperate crack at him, missing him; she struck again and again, now high, now low; she dashed from side to side of the room, and with one of her mad sweeps she scattered a dozen pages of manuscript upon the floor.
the view of this combat was enrapturing to me; the face of my nun, now lighted by a passionate determination to kill that wasp, was a delight to my eyes. if i could have assured myself that the wasp would not sting her, i would have helped him to prolong the battle indefinitely. but my nun was animated by very different emotions. she was bound to be avenged upon the wasp, and avenged she was. almost springing into the air, she made a grand stroke at him, as he receded from her, hit him, and dashed him against the wall. he fell to the floor, momentarily disabled, but flapping and buzzing. then down she stooped, and with three great whacks with her bonnet she finished the battle. the wasp lay motionless.
"now," she said, throwing her bonnet upon the table, "i will close that window;" and she walked across the room, her blue eyes sparkling, her face glowing from her violent exercise, and her rich brown hair hanging in long waves upon her shoulders.
"don't do that," i said; "it will make your room too warm. there is a netting screen in the corner there. if you put that under the sash, it will keep out all insects. i wish i could do it for you."
she took the frame and fitted it under the sash.
"i am sorry i did not know that before," she said, as she returned to her table; "this is a very bad piece of business."
i begged her to excuse me for not having informed her of the screen, but i did not say that i was sorry for what had occurred. i merely expressed my gratification that she had not been stung. her chair had been pushed away from the table, its back against the wall, opposite to me. she seated herself upon it, gently panting. she looked from side to side at the sheets of manuscript scattered upon the floor.
"i will pick them up presently and go to work, but i must rest a minute." she did not now seem to consider that it was of the slightest consequence whether i saw her face or not.
"never mind the papers," i said; "leave them there; they can be picked up any time."
"i wish that were the worst of it;" and as she spoke she raised her eyes toward me, and the least little bit of a smile came upon her lips, as if, though troubled, she could not help feeling the comical absurdity of the situation.
"it is simply dreadful," she continued. "i don't believe such a thing ever before happened to a sister."
"there is nothing dreadful about it," said i; "and do you mean to say that the sisters of the house of martha, who go out to nurse, and do all sorts of good deeds, never speak to the people they are befriending, nor allow them to look upon their faces?"
"of course," said she, "you have to talk to sick people; otherwise how could you know what they need? but this is a different case;" and she began to gather up her hair and twist it at the back of her head.
"i do not understand," i remarked; "why is it a different case?"
"it is as different as it can be," said she, picking up her comb from the floor and thrusting it through her hastily twisted knot of hair. "i should not have come here at all if your grandmother had not positively asserted that there would be nothing for me to do but to listen and to write. and mother anastasia and sister sarah both of them especially instructed me that i was not to speak to you nor to look at you, but simply to sit at the table and work for the good of the cause. that was all i had to do; and i am sure i obeyed just as strictly as anybody could, except once, when you forgot the name of eza, and i was so anxious to have you go on with the incident that i could not help mentioning it. and now, i am sure i don't know what i ought to do."
"do?" i asked. "there is nothing to do except to begin writing where you left off. the wasp is dead."
"i wish it had never been born," she said. "i have no doubt that the whole affair should come to an end now, and that i ought to go home; but i can't do that until sister sarah comes to unlock the door, and so i suppose we had better go to work."
"we"! i would not have dared to use that word, but it fell from her lips in the easiest and most conventional manner possible. it was delightful to hear it. i never knew before what a pleasant sound the word had. she now set herself to work to gather up the papers from the floor, and, having arranged them in their proper order, she took up her bonnet.
"do you have to wear that?" i asked.
"certainly," she answered, clapping it on and pulling it well forward.
"i should think it would be very hot and uncomfortable," i remarked.
"it is," she admitted curtly; and, seating herself at the table, she took up her pen.
i now perceived that if i knew what was good for myself i would cease from speaking on ordinary topics, and go on with my dictation. this i did, giving out my sentences as rapidly as possible, although i must admit i took no interest whatever in what i was saying, nor do i believe that my secretary was interested in the subject-matter of my work. she wrote rapidly, and, as well as i could judge, appeared excited and annoyed. i was excited also, but not in the least disturbed. my emotions were of a highly pleasing character. we worked steadily for some twenty minutes, when suddenly she stopped and laid down her pen.
"of course it isn't right to speak," she said, turning in her chair and speaking to me face to face, as one human being to another, "but as i have said so much already, i don't suppose a little more will make matters worse, and i must ask somebody's help in making up my mind what i ought to do. i suspect i have made all sorts of mistakes in this writing, but i could not keep my thoughts on my work. i have been trying my best to decide how i ought to act, but i cannot make up my mind."
"i shall be delighted to help you, if i can," i ventured. "what's the point that you cannot decide?"
"it is just this," she replied, fixing her blue eyes upon me with earnest frankness: "am i to tell the sisters what has happened or not? if i tell them, i know exactly what will be the result: i shall come here no more, and i shall have to take sister hannah's place at the measles refuge. there's nothing in this world that i hate like measles. i've had them, but that doesn't make the slightest difference. sister hannah has asked to be relieved, and i know she wants this place dreadfully."
"she cannot come here!" i exclaimed. "i don't believe i ever had the measles, and i will not have them."
"she is a stenographer," said she, "and she will most certainly be ordered to take my place if i make known what i have done to-day."
"supposing you were sure that you were not obliged to go to the measles refuge," i asked, "should you still regret giving up this position?"
"of course i should," she answered promptly. "i must work at something, or i cannot stay in the house of martha; and there is no work which i like so well as this. it interests me extremely."
"now hear me," said i, speaking perhaps a little too earnestly, "and i do not believe any one could give you better advice than i am going to give you. what has occurred this morning was strictly and absolutely an accident. a wasp came in at the window and tried to sting you; and there is no woman in the world, be she a sister or not, who could sit still and let a wasp sting her."
"no," she interrupted, "i don't believe mother anastasia could do it."
"and what followed," i continued, "was perfectly natural, and could not possibly be helped. you were obliged to defend yourself, and in so doing you were obliged to act just as any other woman would act. nothing else would have been possible, and the talking and all that came in with the rest. you couldn't help it."
"that's the way the matter appeared to me," said she; "but the question would arise, if it were all right, why should i hesitate to tell the sisters?"
"hesitate!" i exclaimed. "you should not even think of such a thing. no matter what the sisters really thought about it, i am sure they would not let you come here any more, and you would be sent to the measles institution, and thus actually be punished for the attempted wickedness of a wasp."
"but there is the other side of the matter," said she; "would it not be wicked in me not to tell them?"
"not at all," i replied. "you do not repeat to the sisters all that i tell you to write?"
"of course not," she interrupted.
"and you do not consider it your duty," i continued, "to relate every detail of the business in which you are employed?"
"no," she said. "they ask me some things, and some things i have mentioned to them, such as not having a gold pen."
"very good," said i. "you should consider that defending yourself against wasps is just as much your business here as anything else. if you are stung, it is plain you can't write, and the interests of your employer and of the house of martha must suffer."
"yes," she assented, still with the steady gaze of her blue eyes.
"now your duty is clear," i went on. "if the sisters ask you if a wasp flew into your room and tried to sting you, and you had to jump around and kill it, and speak, before you could go on with your work, why, of course you must tell them; but if they don't ask you, don't tell them. it may seem ridiculous to you," i continued hurriedly, "to suppose that they would ask such a question, but i put it in this way to show you the principle of the thing."
she withdrew her eyes from my face, and fixed them upon the floor.
"the truth of the matter is," she said presently, "that i haven't done anything wrong; at least i didn't intend to. i might have crouched down in the corner, with my face to the wall, and have covered my head and hands with my shawl, but i should have been obliged to stay there until sister sarah came, and i should have been smothered to death; and besides, i didn't think of it; so what i did do was the only thing i could do, and i do not think i ought to be punished for it."
"now it is settled," i said. "your duty is to work here for the benefit of your sisterhood, and you should not allow a wasp or any insect to interfere with it."
she looked at me, and smiled a little abstractedly. then she turned to the table.
"i will go on with my work," she said, "and i will not say anything to the sisters until i have given the matter most earnest and careful consideration. i can do that a great deal better at home than i can here."
it was very well that she stopped talking and applied herself to her work, for i do not believe it was ten minutes afterward when sister sarah unlocked the door, and came in to take her away.
