hetty niles, with a sudden distaste for her lonely kitchen, its bare cleanliness the more revealed by the february sun, caught her shawl from the nail and threw it over her head. she spoke aloud, in a way she had taken up within the last week, while her solitude was still vocal with notes out of the living past:—

"i'll go over an' see still lucy."

her dry face, hardened to all weathers, wore a look of anguish, an emotion that smoldered in the hollows about the eyes, and was tensely drawn around the mouth. she was like one of the earth-forces, or an earth-servitor, scarred by work and trouble, and yet so unused to patience that when it was forced upon her she felt suffocated by it. she hurried out into the fitful weather, and closed her door behind her. with her shawl hugged closely, she took the path across the fields, a line of dampness in the spongy turf, and, head down, made her way steadily to the little white house where still lucy, paralyzed for over thirty years, lay on the sofa, knitting lace. hetty walked into this kitchen with as little ceremony as she had used [172]in leaving her own. she withdrew the shawl from her head, saying, in the act,—

"how do, lucy?"

the woman looked up from her work, and nodded brightly. to the casual eye she was not of a defined age. her face was unwrinkled and its outline delicate, and her blue eyes were gay with even a childish pleasure. she looked invitingly at the world, as if it could give her nothing undesired. yet the soft hair rising in a crown from her forehead was white as silver, and her little hands were old. she was covered to the waist with a cheerful quilt. her fingers went in and out unceasingly upon her work, while her bright glance traveled about the room. the stove gave out the moist heat of a kitchen fire where the pot is boiling, and the cat cocked a sleepy eye in the sun. hetty seated herself by the stove, and stretched her hand absently toward its warmth.

"parson's be'n in," she said abruptly.

"caroline said so," returned lucy, in her sweet, husky old voice. "i thought likely."

"he says i must be resigned," continued hetty, with the same brusque emphasis.

"oh, yes!" said lucy. she spoke as if it were a task to be accepted gratefully.

"to the will o' god. 'parson,' says i, 'i don't believe in god.'"

[173]lucy's fingers caught out a tangle in her thread, while her delicate brow knotted itself briefly.

"ain't that hard!" she breathed.

hetty was brooding over the fire.

"that's what i told him," she went on. "an' i don't. i don't know 's ever i did, to speak of. it never really come up till now. he repeated texts o' scriptur'. 'parson,' says i, 'you ain't a woman that had one son, as good a boy as ever stepped, an' then lost him. 'tain't a week,' says i, 'sence he was carried out o' this house. don't you talk to me about god.'"

lucy was looking at her with eloquent responses in her face. hetty glanced up, and partly understood them.

"nor you neither, lucy," she made haste to say. "you're terrible pious, an' you've had your troubles, an' they've be'n heavy; but you ain't had an' lost. if i could take it on me to-day to lay there as you be, knowin' i shouldn't get up no more, i'd jump at it if i could have willard back, whistlin' round an' cuttin' up didos. yes, i would."

"i guess you would," murmured lucy to herself. "it's too bad—too bad."

there was a step on the doorstone, and caroline came in. she was lucy's sister, gaunt and dark-eyed, with high cheek-bones, and the red [174]of health upon them. she regarded hetty piercingly.

"you got company over to your house?" she asked at once.

"no," hetty answered. she added bitterly, "it's stiller'n the grave. i don't expect company no more."

"well," commented caroline.

she had laid aside her shawl, and began fruitful sallies about the kitchen, putting in a stick of wood, catching off the lid from the pot, to regard the dinner with a frowning brow, and then sitting down to extricate from her pocket a small something rolled in her handkerchief.

"i've be'n into mis' flood's," she said, "an' she gi'n me this." she walked over to her sister, bearing the treasure with a joyous pride. "it's as nice a slip o' rose geranium as ever i see."

hetty's face contracted sharply.

"i've throwed away the flowers," she said.

both sisters glanced at her in sympathetic knowledge. caroline was busily setting out the slip in a side of the calla pot, and she got a tumbler to cover it.

"them parson's wife sent over?" she asked.

hetty nodded. "there was a dozen of 'em," she continued, with pride, "white carnation pinks."

"she sent way to fairfax for 'em," said caroline. [175]"her girl told me. handsome, wa'n't they?"

"they wa'n't no handsomer'n what come from round here," said hetty jealously, "not a mite. there you sent over your calla, an' mis' flood cut off that long piece o' german ivy, an' the little ballard gal,—nothin' would do but she must pick all them gloxinias an' have 'em for willard's funeral. i didn't hardly know there was so many flowers in the world, in winter time." she mused a moment, her face fallen into grief. then she roused herself. "what'd you mean by askin' if i had company?" she interrogated caroline.

"nothin', on'y they say susan's boy's round here."

"susan's boy? from out west?"

caroline nodded.

"he was into mis' flood's yesterday," she said, "inquirin' all about you. said he hadn't seen you sence he was a little feller. said he shouldn't hardly dast to call, now you an' his mother wa'n't on terms. seems 's if he knew all about that trouble over the land."

hetty's face lighted scornfully.

"trouble over the land!" she echoed. "who made the trouble? that's what i want to know—who made it? susan hill may, that's who made it. you needn't look at me, lucy. i ain't [176]pious, as you be, an' i don't care if she is my step-sister. you know how 'twas, as well as i do. mother left me the house because i was a widder an' poor as poverty, an' she left susan the pastur'. 'twas always understood i was to pastur' my cow in that pastur', susan livin' out west an' all, an' i always had, sence benjamin died; but the minute mother left me the house, susan may set up her ebenezer i shouldn't have the use o' that pastur'. she's way out west there, an' she don't want it; but she'd see it sunk ruther'n i should have the good on 't."

"well," said lucy soothingly, "you ain't pastur'd there sence she forbid it."

"no, i guess i ain't," returned hetty, rising to go. "nor i ain't set foot in it. what's mis' flood say about susan's boy?" she asked abruptly, turning to caroline.

"well,"—caroline hesitated,—"she said he was in liquor when he called, an' she heard he'd be'n carryin' on some over to the street."

hetty nodded grimly. she spoke with an exalted sadness.

"i ain't surprised. susan drove her husband to drink, an' she'd drive a saint. well, my willard was as good a boy as ever stepped. that's all i got to say."

the sisters had exchanged according glances, and caroline asked:—

[177]"stay an' set down with us? it's b'iled dish. i guess you can smell it."

hetty was drawing her shawl about her. she shook her head.

"no," said she. "'bleeged to ye. i'll pick up suthin'."

but later, entering her own kitchen, she stopped and drew a sharp breath, like an outcry against the desolation there. the room was in its homely order, to be broken, she felt, no more. she was childless. all the zest of work had gone. she threw off her shawl then, with a savage impatience at her own grief, and began her tasks. in the midst of them she paused, laid down her cooking-spoon, and sank into a chair.

"o lord!" she moaned. "my lord!" this was the worst of all the days since he had died. she understood it now. the flowers were gone. they had formed a link between the present and that day when they made the sitting-room so sweet. even the fragrance of that last sad hour had fled. suddenly she laughed, a bitter note. she spoke aloud:—

"if the lord'll send me some flowers afore to-morrer night, i'll believe in him. if he'll send me one flower or a sprig o' green, i'll believe in him, an' hold up my head rejoicin', like still lucy."

[178]she repeated the words, as if to one who heard. thereafter a quickened energy possessed her. she got her dinner alertly, and with some vestige of the interest she had been used to feel when she cooked for two. all the afternoon it was the same. her mind dwelt passionately upon the compact she had offered the unseen. over and over she repeated the terms of it, sometimes with eager commentary.

"it can't hurt nobody," she reasoned, in piteous argument. her gnarled hands trembled as she worked, and now, with nobody to note her weakness, tears fell unregarded down her face. "there's things i wouldn't ask for, whether or no. mebbe they'd have to be took away from somebody else; an' i never was one to plead up poverty. but there's plenty o' flowers in the world. 'twouldn't upset nothin' for me to have jest one afore to-morrer night. if i can have one flower afore to-morrer night, i shall know there's a god in heaven."

the day began with a sense of newness and exaltation at which she wondered. until this hour, death had briefly ruled the house and chilled the air in it. her son's overthrow had struck at the heart of her vitality and presaged her own swift doom. all lesser interests had dwindled and grown poor; her life seemed flickering out like a taper in the breeze. now [179]grief had something to leaven it. something had set up a screen between her and the wind of unmerciful events. there was a possibility, not of reprieve, but of a message from the unseen good, and for a moment the candle of her life burned steadily. since the dead could not return, stricken mortality had one shadowy hope: that it should go, in its course, to them, and find them living. again she vowed her belief to the god who would send one sign of his well-wishing toward her.

"i'll set till twelve o'clock this night," she said grimly, laying her morning fire. "that's eighteen hours. if he can't do suthin' in eighteen hours, he can't ever do it."

at ten o'clock her work was done, and she established herself by the sitting-room window, her knitting in hand, to watch for him who was to come. a warm excitement flooded through her veins.

"how my heart beats!" she said aloud. it had hurried through the peril of willard's illness and the disaster of his death. it was hurrying now, as if it meant to gallop with her from the world.

at half-past ten there was the sound of wheels. she dropped her knitting and put her hand up to her throat. a carriage turned the bend in the road and passed the clump of willows. [180]it was the minister's wife, driving at a good pace and leaning out to bow. hetty rose, trembling, her hand on the window-sill. but the minister's wife gave another smiling nod and flicked the horse. she was not the messenger.

hetty sank back to her work, and knit with trembling fingers. the forenoon wore on. it was candlemas, and cloudy, and she remembered that the badger would not go back into his hole. there would be an early spring. then grief caught her again by the throat, at the thought that spring might come, and summer greaten, but she was a stricken woman whose joy would not return. she rose from her chair and called out passionately,—

"only one flower, jest one sprig o' suthin', an' i'll be contented!"

that day she had no dinner. she made it ready, with a scrupulous exactitude, but she could not eat. she went back to her post at the window. nobody went by. of all the neighbors who might have driven to market, not one appeared. life itself seemed to be stricken from her world. at four o'clock she caught her shawl from its nail, and ran across the field to lucy. both sisters were at home, in the still tranquillity of their pursuits, lucy knitting and caroline binding shoes. hetty came in upon them as if a wind had blown her.

[181]"law me!" said caroline, looking up. "anything happened?"

"no," said hetty, "nothin' 's happened. i don't know as 't ever will."

she sat down and talked recklessly about nothing. a calla bud, yesterday a roll of white, had opened, and the sun lay in its heart. hetty set her lips grimly, and refused to look at it. yet, as her voice rang on, the feverish will within her kept telling her what she might say. she might ask for the well-being of the slip set out yesterday, or she might even venture, "i should think you'd move your calla out o' the sun. won't it wilt the bloom?" then lucy might tell caroline to snip off the bloom and give it to her. but no one spoke of plants. her breath quickened chokingly, and her heart swelled and made her sick. suddenly she rose and threw her shawl about her in wild haste.

"i must go," she trembled; but at the door lucy stayed her.

"hetty," she called. her voice faltered, and her eyes looked soft under wistful brows. "hetty!"

hetty was waiting, in a tremor of suspense.

"well," she answered, her voice beating upon the word. "what is it?"

still lucy spoke with diffidence, as she always did when she touched upon her faith.

[182]"i was only thinkin'—i dunno 's i can tell you, hetty—but what you said yesterday, you know, about not believin' there's any god—i was goin' to ask you who you think made the trees an' flowers."

hetty did not answer. she stood there, her hands trembling underneath her shawl. she gripped them, one upon the other, to keep from stretching them for alms.

"well," she answered harshly. "well!"

"well," said lucy gently, "that's all."

hetty laughed out stridently.

"i'm goin' over to mis' flood's," said she, her hand upon the latch.

"they've driv' over to fairfax to spend the day," volunteered caroline. "better by half set here."

"then i'm goin' over to ballard's." she fled down the road so fast that caroline, watching her compassionately, remarked that she "looked, as if she's sent for," and lucy said, like a charm, a phrase of the lord's prayer.

hetty looked up at the floods' and groaned, remembering there were plants within. she spoke aloud, satirically:—

"mebbe i could be the instrument o' the lord. mebbe if i climbed into the winder, an' stole a bloom, i could say he give it to me."

but she went on, and hurried up the path to [183]the little one-story house where the ballards lived. grandsir was by the fire, pounding walnuts in a little wooden mortar, to make a paste for his toothless jaws, and little 'melia, a bowl of nuts before her, sat in a high chair at the table, lost in reckless greed. her doll, forgotten, lay across a corner of the table, in limp abandon, the buttonholed eyes staring nowhere. grandsir spoke wheezingly:—

"we're keepin' house, 'melia an' me. we thought we'd crack us a few nuts. help yourself, hetty."

'melia lifted her bowl with two fat hands, and held it out, tiltingly. her round blue eyes shone in a painstaking hospitality. she was a good little 'melia.

"no, dear, you set it down. i don't want none," said hetty tenderly. she steadied the bowl on its way back, and 'melia, relinquishing the claims of entertainment, picked into her small mouth with a swift avidity.

"clever little creatur'!" hetty continued, in a frank aside.

but grandsir had not heard.

"how old was willard?" he inquired, pausing to test the mass his mortar held.

the tears came into her eyes.

"thirty-four," she answered.

"how old?"

[184]after she had repeated it, 'melia turned suddenly, and made a solemn statement.

"i picked off my gloxinias and gave 'em all to willard." she lisped on the name, and made it a funny flower.

hetty was trembling.

"yes, dear, yes," she responded prayerfully. "they were real handsome blooms. i was obleeged to ye." she wondered if the lisping mouth would say, "there's another one open," and the fat hand pluck it for her. she shut her lips and tried to seal her mind, lest the child should be prompted and the test should fail.

"i dunno 's i remember what year willard's father died?" grandsir was inquiring.

"o lord!" breathed hetty, "i can't bear no more."

she threw her shawl over her head, and hurried out.

"come again," the childish voice called after her.

grandsir had begun to eat his nuts. he scarcely knew she had been there.

hetty went swiftly homeward through the dusk. the damp air was clogging to the breath, and for a moment her warm kitchen seemed a refuge to her. but only for a moment. it was very still.

"i'll give it up," she said. "there's flowers [185]in the world, an' not one for me. i might 'a' had 'em if he'd took the trouble to send. that proves it. there ain't anybody to send,—nor care."

she walked about in a grim scorn of everything: the world, the way it was made, and herself for trusting it. when she had made a cup of tea and broken bread, the warmth came back to her chilled heart, and suddenly her scorn turned against herself.

"i said i'd wait till twelve o'clock to-night," she owned. "i'm the one that's petered out. this is the last word i speak till arter twelve."

she fortified herself with stronger tea, and sat grimly down to knit. the minutes and the half-hours passed. she rose, from time to time, and fed the fire, and once, at eleven, when a cold rain began, she put her face to the pane.

"dark as pitch!" she muttered. "if anybody's comin', they couldn't see their way."

then she lighted another lamp and set it in the window. it was a quarter before twelve when her trembling hands failed her, and she laid down her knitting and walked to the front door. the northeast wind whipped her in the face, and she could hear the surf at breakers' edge. the pathway of light from the window lay upon a figure by the gate. a voice came out of the stillness. it was young and frank.

[186]"i'm holdin' up your fence, to rest a spell. i've given my ankle a twist somehow."

hetty ran out into the storm, and the wind lashed strands of hair into her eyes. she stretched a hand over the fence, and laid it on the man's shoulder.

"who be you?" she demanded.

he laughed.

"i'll tell you, if you won't bat me for it. i'm your own nephew, near as i can make out."

"susan's son?"

"yes. much as my life's worth, ain't it? never saw anything like you an' mother when you get fightin',—reg'lar old barnyard fowls."

she gripped his shoulder tightly. her voice had a sob in it, and a prayer.

"you got anything for me?"

he answered wonderingly.

"why, no, i don't know 's i have. my ankle's busted, that's all. i guess i can crawl along in a minute."

she remembered how fast the clock was getting on toward midnight, and spoke in dull civility.

"you come in. i'll bandage ye up. mebbe 'twill save ye a sprain."

later, when he was by the fire and she had done skillful work with water and cotton cloth, and the pain would let him, he looked at her again.

[187]"you an' mother ain't no more alike than a black an' a maltee," he said. "hullo! what you cryin' for?"

the tears were splashing her swift hands.

"i dunno," she answered shortly. "yes, i do, too. you speak some like willard."

the clock was striking two when she went to bed, and she slept at once. it was necessary, she told herself. there was a man in the west room, and his ankle was hurt, and she must get up early to call the doctor.

the next day and the next went like moments of a familiar dream. the doctor came, and the boy—he was twenty-six, but he seemed only a boy—joked while he winced, and owned he had nothing to do, and could easily lie still a spell, if aunt het would keep him. she was sorry over the hurt, and, knowing no other compensation for a man's idleness, began to cook delicate things for his eating. he laughed at everything, even at her when she was too solicitous. but he was sorry for her, and when she spoke of willard his face softened. she thought sometimes of what she had heard about him before he came; and one april day, when they were out in the yard together, he leaning on his cane and she sweeping the grass, she spoke involuntarily:—

"i can't hardly believe it."

"what?" he asked.

[188]"folks said"—she hesitated—"folks said you was a drinkin' man."

he laughed out.

"i did get overtaken," he owned. "i was awful discouraged, the night i struck here. i didn't care whether school kept or not. but 'twas lew parker's whiskey," he added, twinkling at her. "that whiskey'd poison a rat."

she paused, with a handful of chips gathered from the clean grass.

"what was you discouraged about?" she asked kindly.

"well,"—he hesitated,—"i may as well tell you. i've invented somethin'. it goes onto a reaper. mother never believed in it, an' she turned me down. so i came east. i couldn't get anybody to look at it, an' i was pretty blue. then the same day i busted my ankle i heard from another man, an' he'll buy it an' take all the risk, an'—george! i guess mother'll sing small when johnnie comes marchin' home!"

he looked so strong and full of hope that her own sorrow cried, and her face worked piteously.

"you goin' back?" she faltered.

"sometime, aunt het. 'long towards fall, maybe, to get things into shape. then i'm comin' back again, to put it through. who's that?"

[189]it was a neighbor, stopping his slumberous horse to leave a letter.

"that's susan's hand," said hetty, as she gave it to him.

he read it and laughed a little. his eyes were moist.

"see here, aunt het," he said, "mother's had a change of heart because i busted my ankle an' you took care of me an' all,—an' look here! she says she wants you should use the long pastur'."

hetty dropped her apron and the chips it held. she stood silent for a moment, looking out over the meadow and wishing willard knew. then she said practically,—

"soon 's your ankle'll bear ye, we'll poke down there an' see how things seem."

in a week's time they went slowly down to look over the fences, preparatory to turning in the cow. hetty glanced at the sky, with its fleece of flying cloud, and then at the grass, so bright that the eyes marveled at it. the old ache was keen within her. the earth bereft of her son would never be the same earth again, but some homely comforting had reached her with the springing of the leaf. she looked at the boy by her side. he was a pretty boy, she thought, and she was glad susan had him. and suddenly it came to her that he had been lent her for a little while, and she was glad of that, [190]too. his hurt had kept her busy. his ways about the house, even the careless ones, had strengthened the grief in her, but in a human, poignant way that had no bitterness.

they went about, testing the fence-lengths, and then, before they left the pasture, stood, by according impulse, and looked back into its trembling green. the boy had let down the bars, but he was loath to go.

"stop a minute," he said, pointing to an upland bank where the sun lay warm. "i'm tired."

"lazy, more like," said hetty. but he knew she said it fondly.

he lay down at full length, and she sank stiffly on the bank and leaned her elbow there. she looked at the sky and then at the bank. it was blue with violets. there were so many of them that, as they traveled up the sod, they made a purple stain.

"well, aunt het," said he, "you've got the pastur'."

she nodded.

"don't make much difference how long you wait," he continued, "if it comes at last." he was thinking of his patent, and hetty knew it.

"mebbe we can't have things when we expect to," she answered comprehendingly. "still lucy's great on that. 'don't do no good to set up your ebenezer,' says she. 'you got to wait [191]for things to grow.' lucy's dretful pious." she passed her brown hands over the violet heads, as gently as a breeze, caressing but not bending them. "i dunno 's ever i see so many vi'lets afore."

"like 'em, aunt het?" he asked her kindly.

"i guess i do!" but as she spoke, her eyes widened in awe and wonder. "my lord!" she breathed. "they're flowers."

the boy laughed.

"what'd you think they were?" he asked, with the same indulgent interest. "herd's grass?"

he turned over and buried his sleepy visage in the new leaves. but hetty was communing with herself. her old face had a look of hushed solemnity. her eyes were lighted from within.

"sure enough," she murmured reverently. "they're flowers."