there are two classes that are specially liable to disease,--those who live grossly, and whose lives are spent in scenes of excitement, and those who are finely organized, so delicately constituted, that their nerves vibrate to every jar, not only of the physical but of the moral atmosphere.
there are persons whose routine of daily life is seldom if ever disturbed; whose minds are at ease on material questions. having enough, and to spare, they seek their pleasure from day to day, with scarcely an interruption of their established course. such may well be free from the ills of the flesh, and being so, they complacently attack the less fortunate, those whose lives are tumultuous and heavily-laden with their own and other's needs; applying to them such remarks as, "they might live more regular." "they work too much." "they do not work enough." "they go about too much." "they do do not go about enough;" and having delivered their opinions, these self-satisfied mortals settle themselves down in their comforts, thanking god they are not as other men.
there are lives that are shaken with convulsions; circumstances over which no mortal has control, surge their wild, tempest-waves over them, and all their wishes are of no avail; they must take what is borne to them. raying out life every moment; pressed on every side, with every faculty strained to its greatest tension, is it a matter of wonder that they become weak, that they sicken and suffer?
sickness is not a sin, neither is its presence derogatory to our nature. it implies a susceptibility to the inharmonies of life, and is complimentary than otherwise to our organization. they are not to be envied who have never known an hour of pain and languor, for they come not under the discipline and instruction of one of life's great teachers. they are apt to be harsh, and cold, and unfeeling towards their fellows; apt to be boastful of their own strength, and regardless of the delicate sensibilities of others. while we should studiously endeavor to live in harmony with the laws of our being, it is nevertheless true that with all the caution we may exercise, we cannot avoid, if we are spiritually true, the jarring of the inharmonies of this world, and from this as much if not more than from any other cause, come the ills and pains of our earthly life.
these disturbances of the spirit produce to those of fine natures a similar disturbance of their physical condition; then disease follows and makes sad havoc with the temple of the soul.
on a subject so intricate as the cause of disease, only a few hints can here be given.
people become sickly from living too long together; from pursuing continuously one branch of study or labor; from meeting too often with one class of minds; from living on one kind of food, or on food cooked by one person; besides, there are countless other causes; agitations of mind, overtasked and irregular lives are constantly generating impure magnetisms, with which the whole atmosphere is tainted, and which those who are susceptible are forced to absorb.
as there are many causes of disease, there must be many ways of cure. no one system can regulate the disturbances of the complex machinery of the human frame.
dr. franklin subjected himself to what was denominated the air bath, as a remedial agent. others believed in the direct action of the sun, placing themselves beneath glass cupolas to receive it; while still later we have the water-cure, which is thought by many to heal all diseases. these are right in combination, but no one will cure alone.
does the strong man, with steady nerves, compact muscle, and perfect arterial circulation, need the same remedy when ill, as a less vigorous person, one whose hourly suffering is from a diseased nervous organization?
one member of a family argues that because he can bathe in ice water, another, with more feeble circulation, can do the same, and realize the same results. one man will take no medicine, another swallow scarcely anything else, and thus we find extremes following each other.
one ideaism in this direction is as much to be avoided as in any other. the man of good sense says, "i will take whatever is required to restore the balance of my system."
of mental disorders we know little. asylums for their treatment have multiplied in our midst, but few of the thousands of educated physicians are qualified to minister to a mind diseased. past modes will not do for to-day. our conditions are not the same. our lives are faster, our needs greater. our grand-parents lived in the age of muscle; we exist in the nerve period, and have new demands, both in our mental and physical structure.
and new light will come in answer to the demand. the eye of clairvoyance is already penetrating beyond science, and traversing the world of causes.
eagerly florence broke the seal of her first letter from hugh. he had arrived safely, and wafted over the sea his own and dawn's love and remembrance.
"dawn desires to go to germany, first," he wrote, "and as i have business with parties in berlin, i shall gratify her wish. i thought, all along, how much i wished you were with us, but since writing i feel different. i need you at home to express myself to, when i am overflowing with thought. if you were at my side, when i am seeing all these things, we should both have the feast together, and be done. now, in rehearsing it to you, i enjoy it over again. very much we shall have to talk about, when we meet again. how i would like to transmit to your mind the vivid impressions of my own, when i first put my foot on the soil of england; but such things are not possible, and sometime i hope you will be here yourself, and feel the thrill of the old world under your feet."
this portion of the long and interesting letter so refreshed her, that miss evans, when she came in after tea, guessed at once the cause of the sparkling eye that greeted her.
"letters are wonderful tonics," said mr. temple, laughingly, as he glanced toward florence.
"that depends from whom they come," she answered, and repented of it as soon as said. she looked up after a while, but there was no shadow on his face. she saw that he was sharing her joy, and then she knew that not a ripple of doubt would ever disturb their smoothly flowing life.
miss evans left at an early hour, and reaching her home, wrote till nearly midnight. her nature was one that was most elastic at night; her brilliancy seemed to come with the stars.
page after page fell from her desk to the floor; thought followed thought, till the mortal light seemed to give place to the divine. at length the theme grew so mighty, and words seemed so feeble to portray it, that she laid down the pen and wept,--wept not tears of exhaustion, but of joy at the soul's prospective. sublime was the scene before her vision; enrapturing the prospect opening before earth's pilgrims, and she felt truly thankful that she was privileged to point out the way to those whose faith was weak, and who walked tremblingly along the road.
she gathered her pages, laid them in order, and then wrote the following in her journal:
"night, beautiful night; dark below but brilliant above. i am not alone. these stars, some of them marking my destiny, know well my joys and my griefs. they are shining on me now. the waters are darkest nearest the shore, and perchance i am near some haven of rest. i have been tossed for many a year, yet, cease my heart to mourn, for my joys have been great. the world looks on me, and calls me strong. heaven knows how weak i am, for this heart has had its sorrows, and these eyes have wept bitter tears. the warm current of my love has not departed; it has turned to crystals around my heart, cold, but pure and sparkling. there is a voice that can melt them, as the sun dissolves the frost.-i turn a leaf. this shall not record so much of self, or be so tinged with my own heart's pulsations,--this page now fair and spotless.
"i thought, a month ago, this feeling would never come again. i hold my secret safe; why will my nerves keep trembling so, when down, far down in my soul, i feel so strong?
"to-night i must put around my heart a girdle of strong purpose, and bid these useless thoughts be gone. i must not pulsate so intensely with feeling. my fate is to stand still and weave my thoughts into garlands for others. i must lay a heavy mantle on my breast, and wrap fold after fold upon my heart, that its beating may not be heard. why have we hearts? heads are better, and guide us to safer ports.
"'t is past the midnight hour. what scratches of the pen i have put upon this virgin page. so does time mark us o'er and o'er. we must carry the marks of his hand to the shore of the great hereafter. beyond, we shall drink from whatever fount will best suffice us. here, we must take the cup as 't is passed to us, bitter or sweet-'t is not ours to choose. these boundaries of self are good. where should we roam if left to our inclinations? let me trust and wait god's own time and way."
"dear florence," wrote dawn, some months after they had been away, "i have seen gay, smiling france, and beautiful italy with its wealth of sunlight, and its treasures of art. i have seen classic greece,--of which we have talked so many hours,--and its fairy islands nestling in the blue archipelago,--isles where sappho sang. i have been among the alps, and have seen the sunset touch with its last gleam, the eternal waste of snow; but more than all, i love dear germany, the land of music and flowers, scholarship and mystic legends.
"now, my good friend and teacher, how shall i describe to you my state amid all this new life? at first i felt as though my former existence had been one long sleep, or as i suppose the mineral kingdom might feel in passing to the vegetable order, as some one has expressed it.
"it was an awakening that thrilled my being with intensest delight; a fullness which left nothing to hope for. a new revelation of life has arisen within me, as sudden and grand as the appearing of those mysterious isles which are upheaved in a single night from the depths of the ocean.
"a deeper pulsation than i have ever known, now stirs my blood. i feel the claims of humanity calling me to labor. my purpose is strong; i shall return with this thrill in my heart, and become one of god's willing instruments. that he will own me, i feel in every heart-beat. my mission is to erring women, and you, my friend, will smile, i know, on my purpose.
"the other night i dreamed that a beautiful being stood by my side, while a light, such as i have never seen on earth, shone about her.
"'tell me,' i said, 'why this heavenly halo is around you? and if i, too, may become like you?'
"'listen.' she answered. 'years ago, i lived on earth and passed through much suffering. i seemed to be placed in a close, high building, into which all the light that could enter came from above. i could only look up, with no power to turn to the right or left. after being years in this state, the rays coming thus directly from above, cleansed my soul, whitened my garment, and made it spotless. this light became a part of myself; it followed me to the other world, and now, when i approach earth, it enables me to see all the errors and virtues of humanity. wouldst thou be willing to become a light by which pilgrims can see the way to heaven?'
"'i would. my only desire is to do good,' i replied.
"'it is easy to desire this,' she remarked, sadly.
"'but wouldst thou be willing to be almost annihilated, were it by that only you might become a lamp to the pilgrim's feet?'
"i looked into my heart, and think i spoke truthfully, when i answered that i would.
"'then thou art accepted,' the angel said. 'it shall not be literal annihilation, although akin to it, for all your earthly desires must be swept away; all ambition, fame, learning, friends, must be sacrificed upon this altar. the light you will bear is fed alone from heavenly sources. think again, child, if all these things can be as naught.'
"i searched my soul once more. one answer, one word broke from my lips,--'amen.'
"'t is well,' the angel visitant said; 'thy being shall be turned to light.'
"i awoke. the morning sun shone in my windows, and laid in golden bars upon my bed. i thought long of the vision of the night, and then sat down to pen it to you. to me it is significant. write and tell me if it seems but a dream to you. i should like to be permitted to glorify my name, and be the 'dawn' of light to some of earth's weary pilgrims."
