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CHAPTER XV.

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the walk with constance, though he had set out upon it reluctantly, had done waring great good. he was comparatively rehabilitated in his own eyes. between her and him there was no embarrassment, no uneasy consciousness. she had paid him the highest compliment by taking refuge with him, flying to his protection from the tyranny of her mother, and giving him thus a victory as sweet as unexpected over that nearest yet furthest of all connections, that inalienable antagonist in life. he had been painfully put out of son assiette, as the french say. instead of the easy superiority which he had held not only in his own house, but in the limited society about, he had been made to stand at the bar, first by his own child, after{v1-276}wards by the old clergyman, for whom he entertained a kindly contempt. both of these simple wits had called upon him to account for his conduct. it was the most extraordinary turning of the tables that ever had occurred to a man like himself. and though he had spoken the truth when in that moment of melting he had taken his little girl into his arms and bidden her stay with him, he was yet glad now to get away from frances, to feel himself occupying his proper place with her sister, and to return thus to a more natural state of affairs. the intercourse between him and his child-companion had been closer than ever could, he believed, exist between him and any other human being whatsoever; but it had been rent in twain by all the concealments which he was conscious of, by all the discoveries which circumstances had forced upon her. he could no longer be at his ease with her, or she regard him as of old. the attachment was too deep, the interruption too hard, to be reconcilable with that calm which is necessary to ordinary existence. constance had restored him to herself by her{v1-277} pleasant indifference, her easy talk, her unconsciousness of everything that was not usual and natural. he began to think that if frances were but away—since she wished to go—a new life might begin—a life in which there would be nothing below the surface, no mystery, which is a mistake in ordinary life. it would be difficult, no doubt, for a brilliant creature like constance to content herself with the humdrum life which suited frances; and whether she would condescend to look after his comforts, he did not know. but so long as mariuccia was there, he could not suffer much materially; and she was a very amusing companion, far more so than her sister. as he came back to the palazzo, he was reconciled to himself.

this comfortable state of mind, however, did not last long. frances met them at the door with her face full of excitement. “did you meet him?” she said. “you must have met him. he has not been gone ten minutes.”

“meet whom? we met no one but the general.”

“i think i know,” cried constance. “i have been expecting him every day—markham.{v1-278}”

“he says he has come to fetch me, papa.”

“markham!” cried waring. his face clouded over in a moment. it is not easy to get rid of the past. he had accomplished it for a dozen years; and after a very bad moment, he thought he was about to shuffle it off again; but it was evident that in this he was premature. “i will not allow you to go with markham,” he said. “don’t say anything more. your mother ought to have known better. he is not an escort i choose for my daughter.”

“poor old markham! he is a very nice escort,” said constance, in her easy way. “there is no harm in him, papa. but never mind till after dinner, and then we can talk it over. you are ready, fan? oh, then i must fly. we have had a delightful walk. i never knew anything about fathers before; they are the most charming companions,” she said, kissing her hand to him as she went away. but this did not mollify the angry man. there rose up before him the recollection of a hundred contests in which markham’s voice had come in to make everything{v1-279} worse, or of which markham’s escapades had been the cause.

“i will not see him,” he said; “i will not sanction his presence here. you must give up the idea of going altogether, till he is out of the way.”

“i think, papa, you must see him.”

“must—there is no must. i have not been in the habit of acknowledging compulsion, and be assured that i shall not begin now. you seem to expect that your small affairs are to upset my whole life!”

“i suppose,” said frances, “my affairs are small; but then they are my life too.”

she ought to have been subdued into silence by his first objection; but, on the contrary, she met his angry eyes with a look which was deprecating, but not abject, holding her little own. it was a long time since waring had encountered anything which he could not subdue and put aside out of his path. but, he said to himself—all that long restrained and silent temper which had once reigned and raged within him, springing up again unsubdued—he might have{v1-280} known! the moment long deferred, yet inevitable, which brought him in contact once more with his wife, could bring nothing with it but pain. strife breathed from her wherever she appeared. he had never been a match for her and her boy, even at his best; and now that he had forgotten the ways of battle—now that his strength was broken with long quiet, and the sword had fallen from his hand—she had a pull over him now which she had not possessed before. he could have done without both the children a dozen years ago. he was conscious that it was more from self-assertion than from love that he had carried off the little one, who was rather an embarrassment than a pleasure in those days—because he would not let her have everything her own way. but now, frances was no longer a creature without identity, not a thing to be handed from one to another. he could not free himself of interest in her, of responsibility for her, of feeling his honour and credit implicated in all that concerned her. ah! that woman knew. she had a hold upon him that she never had before; and the first use she made of it was to insult{v1-281} him—to send her son, whom he hated, for his daughter, to force him into unwilling intercourse with her family once more.

frances took the opportunity to steal away while her father gloomily pursued these thoughts. what a change from the tranquillity which nothing disturbed! now one day after another, there was some new thing that stirred up once more the original pain. there was no end to it. the mother’s letters at one moment, the brother’s arrival at another, and no more quiet whatever could be done, no more peace.

nevertheless, dinner and the compulsory decorum which surrounds that great daily event, had its usual tranquillising effect. waring could not shut out from his mind the consciousness that to refuse to see his wife’s son, the brother of his own children, was against all the decencies of life. it is easy to say that you will not acknowledge social compulsion, but it is not so easy to carry out that determination. by the time that dinner was over, he had begun to perceive that it was impossible. he took no part, indeed, in the{v1-282} conversation, lightly maintained, by constance, about her brother, made short replies even when he was directly addressed, and kept up more or less the lowering aspect with which he had meant to crush frances. but frances was not crushed, and constance was excited and gay. “let us send for him after dinner,” she said. “he is always amusing. there is nothing markham does not know. i have seen nobody for a fortnight, and no doubt a hundred things have happened. do send for markham, frances. oh, you must not look at papa. i know papa is not fond of him. dear! if you think one can be fond of everybody one meets—especially one’s connections. everybody knows that you hate half of them. that makes it piquant. there is nobody you can say such spiteful things to as people whom you belong to, whom you call by their christian names.”

“that is a charming christian sentiment—entirely suited to the surroundings you have been used to, con; but not to your sister’s.”

“oh, my sister! she has heard plenty of hard things said of that good little tasie, who{v1-283} is her chief friend. frances would not say them herself. she doesn’t know how. but her surroundings are not so ignorant. you are not called upon to assume so much virtue, papa.”

“i think you forget a little to whom you are speaking,” said waring, with quick anger.

“papa!” cried constance, with an astonished look, “i think it is you who forget. we are not in the middle ages. mamma failed to remember that. i hope you have not forgotten too, or i shall be sorry i came here.”

he looked at her with a sudden gleam of rage in his eyes. that temper which had fallen into disuse was no more overcome than when all this trouble began; but he remained silent, putting force upon himself, though he could not quite conceal the struggle. at last he burst into an angry laugh: “you will train me, perhaps, in time to the subjection which is required from the nineteenth-century parent,” he said.

“you are charming,” said his daughter, with a bow and smile across the table. “there is only this lingering trace of medievalism in respect to markham. but you know, papa, really a feud{v1-284} can’t exist in these days. now, answer me yourself; can it? it would subject us all to ridicule. my experience is that people as a rule are not fond of each other; but to show it is quite a different thing. oh no, papa; no one can do that.”

she was so certain of what she said, so calm in the enunciation of her dogmas, that he only looked at her and made no other reply. and when constance appealed to frances whether domenico should not be sent to the hotel to call markham, he avoided the inquiring look which frances cast at him. “if papa has no objection,” she said with hesitation and alarm. “oh, papa can have no objection,” constance cried; and the message was sent; and markham came. frances, frightened, made many attempts to excuse herself; but her father would neither see nor hear the efforts she made. he retired to the bookroom, while the girls entertained their visitor on the loggia; or rather, while he entertained them. waring heard the voices mingled with laughter, as we all hear the happier intercourse of others when we are ourselves in gloomy opposition, nursing our wrath.{v1-285} he thought they were all the more lively, all the more gay, because he was displeased. even frances. he forgot that he had made up his mind that frances had better go (as she wished to go), and felt that she was a little monster to take so cordially to the stranger whom she knew he disliked and disapproved. nevertheless, in spite of this irritation and misery, the little lecture of constance on what was conventionally necessary had so much effect upon him, that he appeared on the loggia before markham went away, and conquered himself sufficiently to receive, if not to make much response to the salutations which his wife’s son offered. markham jumped up from his seat with the greatest cordiality, when this tall shadow appeared in the soft darkness. “i can’t tell you how glad i am to see you, sir, after all these years. i hope i am not such a nuisance as i was when you knew me before—at the age when all males should be kept out of sight of their seniors, as the sage says.”

“what sage was that? ah! his experience was all at second-hand.”

“not like yours, sir,” said markham. and{v1-286} then there was a slight pause, and constance struck in.

“markham is a great institution to people who don’t get the ‘morning post.’ he has told me a heap of things. in a fortnight, when one is not on the spot, it is astonishing what quantities of things happen. in town one gets used to having one’s gossip hot and hot every day.”

“the advantage of abstinence is that you get up such an appetite for your next meal. i had only a few items of news. my mother gave me many messages for you, sir. she hopes you will not object to trust little frances to my care.”

“i object—to trust my child to any one’s care,” said waring, quickly.

“i beg your pardon. you intend, then, to take my sister to england yourself,” the stranger said.

it was dark, and their faces were invisible to each other; but the girls looking on saw a momentary swaying of the tall figure towards the smaller one, which suggested something like a blow. frances had nearly sprung from her seat; but constance put out her hand and{v1-287} restrained her. she judged rightly. passion was strong in waring’s mind. he could, had inclination prevailed, have seized the little man by the coat, and pitched him out into the road below. but bonds were upon him more potent than if they had been made of iron.

“i have no such intention,” he said. “i should not have sent her at all. but it seems she wishes to go. i will not interfere with her arrangements. but she must have some time to prepare.”

“as long as she likes, sir,” said markham, cheerfully. “a few days more out of the east wind will be delightful to me.”

and no more passed between them. waring strolled about the loggia with his cigarette. though frances had made haste to provide a new chair as easy as the other, he had felt himself dislodged, and had not yet settled into a new place; and when he joined them in the evening, he walked about or sat upon the wall, instead of lounging in indolent comfort, as in the old quiet days. on this evening he stood at the corner, looking down upon the lights of the marina in the distance, and the grey{v1-288} twinkle of the olives in the clear air of the night. the poor neighbours of the little town were still on the punto, enjoying the coolness of the evening hours; and the murmur of their talk rose on one side, a little softened by distance; while the group on the loggia renewed its conversation close at hand. waring stood and listened with a contempt which he partially knew to be unjust. but he was sore and bitter, and the ease and gaiety seemed a kind of insult to him, one of many insults which he was of opinion he had received from his wife’s son. “confounded little fool,” he said to himself.

but constance was right in her worldly wisdom. it would make them all ridiculous if he made objections to markham, if he showed openly his distaste to him. the world was but a small world at bordighera; but yet it was not without its power. the interrupted conversation went on with great vigour. he remarked with a certain satisfaction that frances talked very little; but constance and her brother—as he called himself, the puppy!—never paused. there is no such position for seeing the worst of{v1-289} ordinary conversation. waring stood looking out blankly upon the bewildering lines of the hills towards the west, with the fresh breeze in his face, and his cigarette only kept alight by a violent puff now and then, listening to the lively chatter. how vacant it was—about this one and that one; about so-and-so’s peculiarities; about things not even made clear, which each understood at half a word, which made them laugh. good heavens! at what? not at the wit of it, for there was no wit—at some ludicrous image involved, which to the listener was dull, dull as the village chatter on the other side; but more dull, more vapid in its artificial ring. how they echoed each other, chiming in; how they remembered anecdotes to the discredit of their friends; how they ran on in the same circle endlessly, with jests that were without point even to frances, who sat listening in an eager tension of interest, but could not keep up to the height of the talk, which was all about people she did not know—and still more without point to waring, who had known, but knew no longer, and who was angry and mortified and{v1-290} bitter, feeling his supremacy taken from him in his own house, and all his habits shattered: yet knew very well that he could not resist, that to show his dislike would only make him ridiculous; that he was once more subject to society, and dare not show his contempt for its bonds.

after a while, he flung his half-finished cigarette over the wall, and stalked away, with a brief, “excuse me, but i must say good-night.” markham sprang up from his chair; but his step-father only waved his hand to the little party sitting in the evening darkness, and went away, his footsteps sounding upon the marble floor through the salone and the ante-room, closing the doors behind him. there was a little silence as he disappeared.

“well,” said markham, with a long-drawn breath, “that’s over, con; and better than might have been expected.”

“better! do you call that better? i should say almost as bad as could be. why didn’t you stand up to him and have it out?”

“my dear, he always cows me a little,” said markham. “i remember times when i stood{v1-291} up to him, as you say, with that idiotcy of youth in which you are so strong, con; but i think i generally came off second-best. our respected papa has a great gift of language when he likes.”

“he does not like now, he is too old; he has given up that sort of thing. ask frances. she thinks him the mildest of pious fathers.”

“if you please,” said the little voice of frances out of the gloom, with a little quiver in it, “i wish you would not speak about papa so, before me. it is perhaps quite right of you, who have no feeling for him, or don’t know him very well; but with me it is quite different. whether you are right or wrong, i cannot have it, please.”

“the little thing is quite right, con,” said markham. “i beg your pardon, little fan. i have a great respect for papa, though he has none for me. too old! he is not so old as i am, and a much more estimable member of society. he is not old enough—that is the worst of it—for you and me.{v1-292}”

“i am not going to encourage her in her nonsense,” said constance, “as if one’s father or mother was something sacred, as if they were not just human beings like ourselves. but apart from that, as i have told frances, i think very well of papa.

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