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CHAPTER VII SCRUPLES

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captain campion gave a large dinner party on all-hallows-eve. it is a ghostly time; and, in ireland, every one, even the most advanced and materialistic, feels that the air is full of strange beings, who cannot be accounted for either by the microscope or the scalpel. father letheby was invited and went. i was rather glad he did go, for i felt that the village was rather dull for such a brilliant young fellow; and i had a kind of pardonable pride in thinking that he would be fully competent to meet on their own level any pretentious people that might stray hither from more civilized centres. there is hardly, indeed, any great risk of meeting too intellectual people in ireland just now. the anatomy of a horse is about the term and end of the acquired knowledge of the stronger sex; and the latest ball—well, this won't do! i must suspend this criticism, otherwise i shall wound, and that does not suit an old priest, who is beginning to hear the murmurs of the eternal seas.

father letheby walked over across the moor to the "great house." it was growing dark when he left home, and he allowed himself a full hour, as he had to make some calls by the way. one of these calls led him to a house where an old woman was bedridden. her son, a strong man of thirty years or more, was doing something strange when the priest unexpectedly entered. he was suffering from a scrofulous ulcer in the neck, and it was a hideous disfigurement. he had just been standing before a broken piece of looking-glass, stuck in the rough plaster of the wall; and he hastily hid something as the priest entered. father letheby's suspicions were instantly aroused. and he said hastily,—for he detested anything like concealment,—

"what have you been doing?"

"nothing, your reverence," said the peasant, nervously.

"then, what are you hiding?" said father letheby.

"nothing, your reverence," said the poor fellow.

"tell the priest, ned, alanna," said the old woman from her bed. "sure, 't is only a charm which the good 'oman has set, father. and it's cured him already."

the young man scowled at his aged mother; and in response to an emphatic gesture from the priest, he pulled out a little coil of rope, partly worn at the end into a little wisp of flax.

"and are you such an utter fool," said the priest, angrily, holding the rope gingerly between his fingers, "as to believe that that wretched thing could cure you?"

"it has cured me," said the young man. "look here!"

father letheby looked; and sure enough, there was but a faint scar, as of a burn, on the place where he knew well there had been a hideous running ulcer a few days ago. he was struck dumb.

"i am not surprised," he said, recovering himself rapidly; "i know satan possesses supernatural power. but you, unhappy man, do you not know that it is to the devil you owe your cure?"

"i told him so, your reverence," whimpered the poor mother. "i said, better be sick forever, ned, than break god's law. sure, nothing good can come from it."

"thin why did god allow it?" said the young man, angrily.

"if you knew anything of your religion," said the priest, "you might know that god permits evil things to happen. so much the worse for evil doers. you have committed grave sin."

"but, sure, this is good," said the poor fellow, feebly groping after theological lights, "and whatever is good comes from god."

"the effect may be good," said the priest, "the instrument is bad. what is that?" and he pointed to the rope that was dangling in his hand.

the young man was silent.

"you are afraid to tell? now what is it? there's something uncanny about it?"

he fumbled with his vest, and looked sullenly into the darkening night.

"then, as you won't answer, i'll take it with me," said the priest, folding the rope into a coil, and preparing to put it in his pocket.

there was a sullen smile around the young man's mouth.

"the owner will be looking for it," said he.

"tell the owner that father letheby has it, and she can come to me for it," said the priest. he put the rope in his pocket and moved to the door.

"don't! don't! father dear," said the old woman. "it isn't good. give it back, and ned will give it to the good 'oman to-morrow."

"no! i shall give it myself," said the priest, "and a bit of my mind with it."

the young man moved to the door, and stood beside the priest.

"you would not touch it if you knew what it was," he whispered.

"what?" said father letheby.

"do you remember old simmons, the pinsioner, down at lougheagle?"

"who destroyed himself?"

"yes! he hanged himself to a rafter in the barn."

"i remember having heard of it."

"he hanged himself with a rope."

"i presume so."

"your reverence has the rope in your pocket."

the priest stepped back as if stung. the thing was so horrible that he lost his self-possession. then a great flood of anger swept his soul; and taking the hideous instrument from his pocket, he passed over to the open hearth; with one or two turns of the wheel, that answers the purpose of a bellows in ireland, he kindled the smouldering ashes into flame, buried the rope deep down in the glowing cinders, and watched it curl into a white ash, that bent and writhed like a serpent in pain. the old woman told her beads, and then blessed the priest, with, however, a tremor of nervous fear in her voice. the young man lifted his hat, as the priest, without a word, passed into the darkness.

"she'll be after asking for the rope, your reverence?" he said at length, when the priest had gone a few yards.

"refer her to me," father letheby said. "and look here, young man," he cried, coming back and putting his face close to the peasant's, "i'd advise you to go to your confession as soon as you can, lest, in the words of scripture, 'something worse happen to you.'"

it was a pleasant dinner party at the "great house." colonel campion presided. bittra sat opposite her father. captain ormsby, inspector of coast guards, was near her. there were some bank officials from a neighboring town; lord l——'s agent and his wife; a military surgeon; a widower, with two grown daughters; the new protestant rector and his wife. father letheby was very much pleased. he was again in the society that best suited his natural disposition. it was tolerably intelligent and refined. the lights, the flowers, the music, told on his senses, long numbed by the quietness and monotony of his daily life. he entered into the quiet pleasures of the evening with zest, made all around him happy, and even fascinated by the brilliancy with which he spoke, so much so that bittra campion said to him, as he was leaving about eleven o'clock:—

"father, we are infinitely obliged to you."

he returned home, filled with a pleasant excitement, that was now so unusual to him in his quiet, uneventful life. the moonlight was streaming over sea and moorland, and he thought, as he passed over the little bridge that spanned the fiord, and stepped out into the broad road:—

"a delightful evening! but i must be careful. these sybaritic banquets unfit a man for sterner work! i shall begin to hate my books and to loathe my little cabin. god forbid! but how pleasant it was all. and how campion and ormsby jumped at that idea of mine about the fishing schooner. i look on the matter now as accomplished. after all, perhaps, these irish gentry are calumniated. nothing could equal the ardor of these men for the welfare of the poor fishermen. who knows? in six months' time, the 'star of the sea' may be ploughing the deep, and a fleet of sailing boats in her wake; and then the fish-curing stores, and, at last, the poor old village will look up and be known far and wide. dear me! i must get that lovely song out of my brain, and the odor of those azaleas out of my senses. 't will never do! à kempis would shame me; would arraign me as a rebel and a traitor. what a lovely night! and how the waters sleep in the moonlight! just there at the bend we'll build the new pier. i see already the 'star of the sea' putting out, and the waters whitening in her wake."

he looked around, and saw the cottages of the peasants and the laborers gleaming against the dark background of the moor and the mountain; and the thought smote him: perhaps there some little children went to bed hungry to-night. he went home sadly, and, sitting down, he said:—

"let me see! soup, entrées, joints, sweets, fruits, wine, coffee. let me see! white roses, azaleas, chrysanthemums. let me see! waldteufel, strauss, wagner! let me see!"

he went over, and opened what appeared to be a rather highly decorated cupboard. he drew back three shutters, and revealed a triptych, sunk deep in the wall of his little parlor. it was the only thing of real value he held. it was given to him by a roman lady, who, for one reason or another, chose to reside in england. it nearly filled the entire space on the low wall. as he drew back the shutters, the lamplight fell on the figure that occupied the whole of the central panel. it was the christ. the tall shape was closely wrapped around in the jewish kethoneth,—the first of the vestes albæ of the priest, as st. john represents in the apocalypse. the capouche fell loosely over his head, and was embroidered in many colors, as was also the hem of his long white robe, which fell in folds over his sandalled feet. the hood of the capouche shaded his eyes and threw a dark shadow on the face as far as the lips. but the sacred figure also held its right hand to shelter the eyes more deeply from a strong glare of sunset. the left hand fell loosely by his side, and the first of a large flock of sheep had nestled its head comfortably in the open palm. the large, gray eyes of christ were filled with an anxious light, as they gazed over the silent desert, questing for some lost object; and the mouth, lightly fringed with beard, was querulous with pain and solicitude. it was a beautiful picture,—one worthy to be screened from indevout eyes, or revealed only to those who loved and worshipped.

the young priest gazed long and lovingly at this presentment of his divine master, whom he loved with the strongest personal affection. then he knelt down and pressed his forehead against the dust-stained feet of christ, and moaned:—

"master, if i have done wrong in aught this night, let me know it! if i have betrayed thy interests, or brought thy name to shame, teach me in the sharpest tones and flames of thy anger, for i need a monitor; and where shall i find so loving or so truthful a monitor as thou? alas! how weak and pitiful i am, and how this poor unsubdued nature of mine craves for things beyond thee! i know there is no truth but in thee,—no sincerity, no constancy. i know what men are; how deceitful in their words; how unkind in their judgments. yet this lower being within my being forever stretches out its longings to sensible things that deceive, and will not rest in thee, who art all truth. but i must be brought back to thee through the sharp pangs of trial and tears. spare me not, o master! only do not punish with the deprivation of thy love!"

he rose up strengthened, yet with a premonition in his heart of great trials awaiting him. who would dream of such tragic things under the heavy skies and the dull environments of life in ireland?

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