meanwhile julia, sheltered in the obscure recesses of st augustin, endeavoured to attain a degree of that tranquillity which so strikingly characterized the scenes around her. the abbey of st augustin was a large magnificent mass of gothic architecture, whose gloomy battlements, and majestic towers arose in proud sublimity from amid the darkness of the surrounding shades. it was founded in the twelfth century, and stood a proud monument of monkish superstition and princely magnificence. in the times when italy was agitated by internal commotions, and persecuted by foreign invaders, this edifice afforded an asylum to many noble italian emigrants, who here consecrated the rest of their days to religion. at their death they enriched the monastery with the treasures which it had enabled them to secure.
the view of this building revived in the mind of the beholder the memory of past ages. the manners and characters which distinguished them arose to his fancy, and through the long lapse of years he discriminated those customs and manners which formed so striking a contrast to the modes of his own times. the rude manners, the boisterous passions, the daring ambition, and the gross indulgences which formerly characterized the priest, the nobleman, and the sovereign, had now begun to yield to learning—the charms of refined conversation—political intrigue and private artifices. thus do the scenes of life vary with the predominant passions of mankind, and with the progress of civilization. the dark clouds of prejudice break away before the sun of science, and gradually dissolving, leave the brightening hemisphere to the influence of his beams. but through the present scene appeared only a few scattered rays, which served to shew more forcibly the vast and heavy masses that concealed the form of truth. here prejudice, not reason, suspended the influence of the passions; and scholastic learning, mysterious philosophy, and crafty sanctity supplied the place of wisdom, simplicity, and pure devotion.
at the abbey, solitude and stillness conspired with the solemn aspect of the pile to impress the mind with religious awe. the dim glass of the high-arched windows, stained with the colouring of monkish fictions, and shaded by the thick trees that environed the edifice, spread around a sacred gloom, which inspired the beholder with congenial feelings.
as julia mused through the walks, and surveyed this vast monument of barbarous superstition, it brought to her recollection an ode which she often repeated with melancholy pleasure, as the composition of hippolitus.
superstition
an ode
high mid alverna's awful steeps,
eternal shades, and silence dwell.
save, when the gale resounding sweeps,
sad strains are faintly heard to swell:
enthron'd amid the wild impending rocks,
involved in clouds, and brooding future woe,
the demon superstition nature shocks,
and waves her sceptre o'er the world below.
around her throne, amid the mingling glooms,
wild—hideous forms are slowly seen to glide,
she bids them fly to shade earth's brightest blooms,
and spread the blast of desolation wide.
see! in the darkened air their fiery course!
the sweeping ruin settles o'er the land,
terror leads on their steps with madd'ning force,
and death and vengeance close the ghastly band!
mark the purple streams that flow!
mark the deep empassioned woe!
frantic fury's dying groan!
virtue's sigh, and sorrow's moan!
wide—wide the phantoms swell the loaded air
with shrieks of anguish—madness and despair!
cease your ruin! spectres dire!
cease your wild terrific sway!
turn your steps—and check your ire,
yield to peace the mourning day!
she wept to the memory of times past, and there was a romantic sadness in her feelings, luxurious and indefinable. madame behaved to julia with the tenderest attention, and endeavoured to withdraw her thoughts from their mournful subject by promoting that taste for literature and music, which was so suitable to the powers of her mind.
but an object seriously interesting now obtained that regard, which those of mere amusement failed to attract. her favorite nun, for whom her love and esteem daily increased, seemed declining under the pressure of a secret grief. julia was deeply affected with her situation, and though she was not empowered to administer consolation to her sorrows, she endeavoured to mitigate the sufferings of illness. she nursed her with unremitting care, and seemed to seize with avidity the temporary opportunity of escaping from herself. the nun appeared perfectly reconciled to her fate, and exhibited during her illness so much sweetness, patience, and resignation as affected all around her with pity and love. her angelic mildness, and steady fortitude characterized the beatification of a saint, rather than the death of a mortal. julia watched every turn of her disorder with the utmost solicitude, and her care was at length rewarded by the amendment of cornelia. her health gradually improved, and she attributed this circumstance to the assiduity and tenderness of her young friend, to whom her heart now expanded in warm and unreserved affection. at length julia ventured to solicit what she had so long and so earnestly wished for, and cornelia unfolded the history of her sorrows.
'of the life which your care has prolonged,' said she, 'it is but just that you should know the events; though those events are neither new, or striking, and possess little power of interesting persons unconnected with them. to me they have, however, been unexpectedly dreadful in effect, and my heart assures me, that to you they will not be indifferent.
'i am the unfortunate descendant of an ancient and illustrious italian family. in early childhood i was deprived of a mother's care, but the tenderness of my surviving parent made her loss, as to my welfare, almost unfelt. suffer me here to do justice to the character of my noble father. he united in an eminent degree the mild virtues of social life, with the firm unbending qualities of the noble romans, his ancestors, from whom he was proud to trace his descent. their merit, indeed, continually dwelt on his tongue, and their actions he was always endeavouring to imitate, as far as was consistent with the character of his times, and with the limited sphere in which he moved. the recollection of his virtue elevates my mind, and fills my heart with a noble pride, which even the cold walls of a monastery have not been able to subdue.
'my father's fortune was unsuitable to his rank. that his son might hereafter be enabled to support the dignity of his family, it was necessary for me to assume the veil. alas! that heart was unfit to be offered at an heavenly shrine, which was already devoted to an earthly object. my affections had long been engaged by the younger son of a neighbouring nobleman, whose character and accomplishments attracted my early love, and confirmed my latest esteem. our families were intimate, and our youthful intercourse occasioned an attachment which strengthened and expanded with our years. he solicited me of my father, but there appeared an insuperable barrier to our union. the family of my lover laboured under a circumstance of similar distress with that of my own—it was noble—but poor! my father, who was ignorant of the strength of my affection, and who considered a marriage formed in poverty as destructive to happiness, prohibited his suit.
'touched with chagrin and disappointment, he immediately entered into the service of his neapolitan majesty, and sought in the tumultuous scenes of glory, a refuge from the pangs of disappointed passion.
'to me, whose hours moved in one round of full uniformity—who had no pursuit to interest—no variety to animate my drooping spirits—to me the effort of forgetfulness was ineffectual. the loved idea of angelo still rose upon my fancy, and its powers of captivation, heightened by absence, and, perhaps even by despair, pursued me with incessant grief. i concealed in silence the anguish that preyed upon my heart, and resigned myself a willing victim to monastic austerity. but i was now threatened with a new evil, terrible and unexpected. i was so unfortunate as to attract the admiration of the marquis marinelli, and he applied to my father. he was illustrious at once in birth and fortune, and his visits could only be unwelcome to me. dreadful was the moment in which my father disclosed to me the proposal. my distress, which i vainly endeavoured to command, discovered the exact situation of my heart, and my father was affected.
'after along and awful pause, he generously released me from my sufferings by leaving it to my choice to accept the marquis, or to assume the veil. i fell at his feet, overcome by the noble disinterestedness of his conduct, and instantly accepted the latter.
'this affair removed entirely the disguise with which i had hitherto guarded my heart;—my brother—my generous brother! learned the true state of its affections. he saw the grief which prayed upon my health; he observed it to my father, and he nobly—oh how nobly! to restore my happiness, desired to resign apart of the estate which had already descended to him in right of his mother. alas! hippolitus,' continued cornelia, deeply sighing, 'thy virtues deserved a better fate.'
'hippolitus!' said julia, in a tremulous accent, 'hippolitus, count de vereza!'—'the same,' replied the nun, in a tone of surprize. julia was speechless; tears, however, came to her relief. the astonishment of cornelia for some moment surpassed expression; at length a gleam of recollection crossed her mind, and she too well understood the scene before her. julia, after some time revived, when cornelia tenderly approaching her, 'do i then embrace my sister!' said she. 'united in sentiment, are we also united in misfortune?' julia answered with her sighs, and their tears flowed in mournful sympathy together. at length cornelia resumed her narrative.
'my father, struck with the conduct of hippolitus, paused upon the offer. the alteration in my health was too obvious to escape his notice; the conflict between pride and parental tenderness, held him for some time in indecision, but the latter finally subdued every opposing feeling, and he yielded his consent to my marriage with angelo. the sudden transition from grief to joy was almost too much for my feeble frame; judge then what must have been the effect of the dreadful reverse, when the news arrived that angelo had fallen in a foreign engagement! let me obliterate, if possible, the impression of sensations so dreadful. the sufferings of my brother, whose generous heart could so finely feel for another's woe, were on this occasion inferior only to my own.
'after the first excess of my grief was subsided, i desired to retire from a world which had tempted me only with illusive visions of happiness, and to remove from those scenes which prompted recollection, and perpetuated my distress. my father applauded my resolution, and i immediately was admited a noviciate into this monastery, with the superior of which my father had in his youth been acquainted.
'at the expiration of the year i received the veil. oh! i well remember with what perfect resignation, with what comfortable complacency i took those vows which bound me to a life of retirement, and religious rest.
'the high importance of the moment, the solemnity of the ceremony, the sacred glooms which surrounded me, and the chilling silence that prevailed when i uttered the irrevocable vow—all conspired to impress my imagination, and to raise my views to heaven. when i knelt at the altar, the sacred flame of pure devotion glowed in my heart, and elevated my soul to sublimity. the world and all its recollections faded from my mind, and left it to the influence of a serene and, holy enthusiasm which no words can describe.
'soon after my noviciation, i had the misfortune to lose my dear father. in the tranquillity of this monastery, however, in the soothing kindness of my companions, and in devotional exercises, my sorrows found relief, and the sting of grief was blunted. my repose was of short continuance. a circumstance occurred that renewed the misery, which, can now never quit me but in the grave, to which i look with no fearful apprehension, but as a refuge from calamity, trusting that the power who has seen good to afflict me, will pardon the imperfectness of my devotion, and the too frequent wandering of my thoughts to the object once so dear to me.'
as she spoke she raised her eyes, which beamed with truth and meek assurance to heaven; and the fine devotional suffusion of her countenance seemed to characterize the beauty of an inspired saint.
'one day, oh! never shall i forget it, i went as usual to the confessional to acknowledge my sins. i knelt before the father with eyes bent towards the earth, and in a low voice proceeded to confess. i had but one crime to deplore, and that was the too tender remembrance of him for whom i mourned, and whose idea, impressed upon my heart, made it a blemished offering to god.
'i was interrupted in my confession by a sound of deep sobs, and rising my eyes, oh god, what were my sensations, when in the features of the holy father i discovered angelo! his image faded like a vision from my sight, and i sunk at his feet. on recovering i found myself on my matrass, attended by a sister, who i discovered by her conversation had no suspicion of the occasion of my disorder. indisposition confined me to my bed for several days; when i recovered, i saw angelo no more, and could almost have doubted my senses, and believed that an illusion had crossed my sight, till one day i found in my cell a written paper. i distinguished at the first glance the handwriting of angelo, that well-known hand which had so often awakened me to other emotions. i trembled at the sight; my beating heart acknowledged the beloved characters; a cold tremor shook my frame, and half breathless i seized the paper. but recollecting myself, i paused—i hesitated: duty at length yielded to the strong temptation, and i read the lines! oh! those lines prompted by despair, and bathed in my tears! every word they offered gave a new pang to my heart, and swelled its anguish almost beyond endurance. i learned that angelo, severely wounded in a foreign engagement, had been left for dead upon the field; that his life was saved by the humanity of a common soldier of the enemy, who perceiving signs of existence, conveyed him to a house. assistance was soon procured, but his wounds exhibited the most alarming symptoms. during several months he languished between life and death, till at length his youth and constitution surmounted the conflict, and he returned to naples. here he saw my brother, whose distress and astonishment at beholding him occasioned a relation of past circumstances, and of the vows i had taken in consequence of the report of his death. it is unnecessary to mention the immediate effect of this narration; the final one exhibited a very singular proof of his attachment and despair;—he devoted himself to a monastic life, and chose this abbey for the place of his residence, because it contained the object most dear to his affections. his letter informed me that he had purposely avoided discovering himself, endeavouring to be contented with the opportunities which occurred of silently observing me, till chance had occasioned the foregoing interview.—but that since its effects had been so mutually painful, he would relieve me from the apprehension of a similar distress, by assuring me, that i should see him no more. he was faithful to his promise; from that day i have never seen him, and am even ignorant whether he yet inhabits this asylum; the efforts of religious fortitude, and the just fear of exciting curiosity, having withheld me from enquiry. but the moment of our last interview has been equally fatal to my peace and to my health, and i trust i shall, ere very long, be released from the agonizing ineffectual struggles occasioned by the consciousness of sacred vows imperfectly performed, and by earthly affections not wholly subdued.'
cornelia ceased, and julia, who had listened to the narrative in deep attention, at once admired, loved, and pitied her. as the sister of hippolitus, her heart expanded towards her, and it was now inviolably attached by the fine ties of sympathetic sorrow. similarity of sentiment and suffering united them in the firmest bonds of friendship; and thus, from reciprocation of thought and feeling, flowed a pure and sweet consolation.
julia loved to indulge in the mournful pleasure of conversing of hippolitus, and when thus engaged, the hours crept unheeded by. a thousand questions she repeated concerning him, but to those most interesting to her, she received no consolatory answer. cornelia, who had heard of the fatal transaction at the castle of mazzini, deplored with her its too certain consequence.
