perhaps an undue amount of space has been given to particularizing the western belle's crew, but my excuse must be that this was my first big ship (the steamer didn't count), as well as my first long voyage. to me it was the commencement of a new era. hitherto i had not been long enough on board any one ship to take much interest in either her or her crew. the changes had been so numerous and rapid, that while i was certainly accumulating a large stock of varied experiences, i was unable to put them to much practical use, because i remained so small and weak. but now i knew that, barring accidents, i was in for a twelve-months' voyage; i should cross the "line" four times, round the cape twice, and return a regular "sou'-spainer," looking down from a lofty height of superiority upon other sea-boys who had never sailed to the "suthard."
when the watches had been picked i found myself under the second mate, whom i dismissed rather summarily at the close of the last chapter, because i shall have a great deal to say about him later on. for the present it suffices to note that my evil genius must have been in the ascendant, for "jemmy the scrubber," as we always called mr. cottam behind his back, was a regular tyrant, who spared nobody, not even himself. the men of his watch took things easily, as usual, knowing full well that he was unable to coerce them; but i was helpless in his hands, and he did not fail to let me know the fact. there was some compensation for me in having bill smith, the sturdy apprentice before mentioned, as my watch-mate, for he was both able and willing to lend me a helping hand whenever possible, although of course he could not shield me from the amiable weaknesses of jemmy the scrubber. still, his friendship was very valuable to me, and it has endured unto this day.
at the outset of the voyage i found, that if i had never earned my pay in my life before, i was going to do so now. when there was one hand at the wheel and one on the look-out, there were four a.b.'s, bill and myself, available to make or shorten sail. consequently it became the practice to send me up alone to loose whatever sail was going to be set during the night, and i would go up and down from one masthead to the other while the men did the hauling on deck. then when the job was finished the men retired to their several corners, more often than not into their bunks in the fo'lk'sle, leaving me to coil up all the ropes and then return to my post aft in front of the poop, ready to carry jemmy's orders when he gave any. she was a very heavy-working ship, as before noted, making the ordinary duties of trimming sail for such a handful of men most exhaustive; but, in addition to that, the food was so bad that it reminded me strongly of the arabella. yet so usual, so universal, was this shameful condition of things, that there was no more than the ordinary quantity of "growling"; no complaints brought aft; and things went on pretty comfortably. of course she leaked—"made a good drop o' water," as sailors say—but still in fine weather the pumps would "suck" in ten minutes at four-hour intervals. but sail she couldn't. a rochester barge would have given her two miles in ten, and as to "turning to windward"—that is, zig-zagging against a contrary wind—it was a mere farce. she made so much leeway that she just sailed to and fro on the same old track till the wind freed. therefore it was a weary time before we got down as far as that dreaded stretch of stormy sea known to seamen as the "bay," although it extends many a league atlantic-wards from the bay of biscay. here we battered about for several days, against a persistent south-westerly wind that refused to let us get south, until at last it freshened into a bitter gale, accompanied by the ugly cross sea that gives this region such unenviable notoriety. under two lower topsails and reefed foresail we wallowed and drifted, watching with envious gaze the "flyers" gliding homeward under enormous clouds of canvas, steady and dry, while we were just like a half-tide rock, swept fore and aft by every comber that came hissing along. here i got a narrow squeak for my life. i was coiling up the gear in the waist when she lurched heavily to windward, just as a green mass of water lifted itself like a hill on that side. before she could rise to it, hundreds of tons of foaming water rolled on board, sweeping me blindly off my feet and over the lee rail. clinging desperately to the rope i held, i waited, swollen almost to bursting with holding my breath, but quite unconscious of the fact that i was overboard. at last she rolled to windward again, and i was swept back by another wave, which flung me like a swab into the tangle of gear surrounding the mainmast, little the worse for my perilous journey. and thus she behaved all that night, never free from a roaring mass of water that swept fore and aft continually, leaving not a dry corner anywhere. sundry noises beneath the fore-hatch warned us that something heavy among the stores had broken adrift; but it was impossible to go down and see, not only for fear of the water getting below, but because of the accumulated gas from the coal, which, unventilated for days, would only have needed a spark to have blown the ship sky-high. towards morning, however, the weather fined down. as soon as possible the fore-hatch was taken off, and there we found in the 'tween decks a mess awful to contemplate. the whole of our sea-stock of salt beef and pork in tierces had broken adrift, together with two casks of stockholm tar, and had been hurled backwards and forwards across the ship until every barrel was broken in pieces. there lay the big joints of meat like miniature islands in a sea of tar, except that, with every roll of the ship, they swam languidly from side to side in the black flood. all hands were set to work to collect the food—it was all we had—hoist it on deck, and secure it there in such fashion as we could. then it was scraped clear of the thickest of the tar, the barrels were set up again and refilled with the filthy stuff, into the midst of which freshly-made pickle was poured. it was not good food before, but now, completely saturated with tar, it was nauseous beyond the power of words to describe. yet it was eaten, and before long we got so used to the flavour that it passed unnoticed. this diversion kept all hands busy for two or three days, during which the weather was kind to us, and we gradually stole south, until the steady trade took hold of us and helped us along into settled fine weather.
by this time all hands had settled down into their several grooves, determined to make the best of a bad bargain. one thing was agreed upon—that, except for her short-handedness and starvation, she was a pretty comfortable ship. there was no driving, no rows; while the feminine influence aft made itself felt in the general freedom from bad language that prevailed on deck. but we were not yet low enough in numbers, apparently. the old man, peter burn, who shook so much that he was never allowed aloft, became perfectly useless. he had been an old man-o'-war's man, living, whenever possible, a life of riot and debauchery, for which he was now called upon to pay the penalty. at a time of life when many men are not long past their prime, he was reduced to childishness—a very picture of senile decay. his body, too, in consequence, i suppose, of the foul feeding, became a horrible sight upon the opening of more than forty abscesses, from which, however, he seemed to feel no pain. strange to say, his rough shipmates, who of course had to make good his deficiency, showed no resentment at the serious addition to their labours. with a gentleness and care that could hardly have been expected of them, they endeavoured to make the ancient mariner's declining days as comfortable as the circumstances would allow, and i am sure that nowhere could the old fellow have been more carefully looked after.
she was an unlucky ship. her slow gait, even with favouring winds, was something to wonder at; but, as if even that were not delay enough, we met with a most abnormal amount of calms and light airs—hindrances that would have made some skippers i have known unbearable to live with. but captain smith was one of a thousand. nothing seemed to ruffle his serene good-humour. it must have been infectious, for the conditions of food and work were so bad that a little ugly temper added thereto would certainly have caused a mutiny. as usual i, unluckiest of urchins, was about the worst-off person on board. jemmy the scrubber, unable to imbue the rest of his watch with his own restless activity, gave me no peace night or day. woe betide me, if, overcome by sleep in my watch on deck at night, i failed to hear his first call. with a bull's-eye lantern in one hand, and a piece of ratline stuff in the other, he would prowl around until he found me, and then—well, i was wide-awake enough for the rest of that watch. in the half-deck i was treated fairly well, except in the matter of food, and even that got put right in time. i have often wondered since how four men of good standing, like our petty officers, could deliberately cheat two boys out of their scanty share of the only eatable food we had; but they certainly did. every other day except saturday was "duff" day, when the modicum of flour allowed us was made into a plain pudding by the addition of yeast and fat. the portion due to each made a decent-sized plateful, and, with a spoonful of questionable molasses, furnished the best meals we got. now the duff for the half-deck was boiled in a conical bag, and turned out very similar in shape and size to a sugar-loaf. it was brought into the house in a tin pan not wide enough to allow it to lay flat, so it stuck up diagonally. the sailmaker always "whacked it out," marking off as many divisions as there were candidates. so far so good. but when he cut off his portion, instead of cutting fair across the duff, he used to cut straight down, thus taking off half the next portion as well, owing to the diagonal position of the duff. then came the bo'sun, who of course followed suit, and the others likewise, until the last two "whacks" falling to the share of the boys was really only the size of one. for a long time this hardship was endured in silence, until one day, at the weekly apportionment of the sugar, much the same sort of thing took place. then bill smith broke out, and there was a rare to-do. our seniors were dreadfully indignant at his daring to hint at the possibility of their being unfair, and, for some time, i feared a combined assault upon the sturdy fellow. all their tall talk, however, only served to stiffen his back, and, in the result, we got our fair share of what was going.
hitherto i had not seen any deep-sea fishing; so, when one day a school of bonito came leaping round the bows, and the mate went out on the jibboom end with a line, my curiosity was at fever-heat. how ever i endured until eight bells i don't know. once or twice the wrath of jemmy was kindled against me for inattention, and i got a sharp reminder of my duties. at last eight bells struck. i had the dinner in the house in a twinkling, and in another minute was rushing out along the boom to where the mate had left his line while he went in to "take the sun." the tackle was simplicity itself, consisting solely of a stout line about the thickness of blind-cord, with an inch hook firmly seized to its end, baited with a shred of white rag. my fingers trembled so that i could hardly loose the neat coil the mate had left, for below me, gambolling in the sparkling foam beaten forward from the bluff bows, were quite a large number of splendid fish, although they did not seem nearly as large as they were in reality. at last i got the line free, and, bestriding the boom-end with my legs firmly locked between the jib guys, i allowed the lure to flutter away to leeward, jerking it gently so as to imitate a leaping squid or bewildered flying-fish. splash! and the graceful curve of my line suddenly changed into a straight; i had hooked one. in a perfect frenzy of excitement i hauled madly, scarcely daring to look below where my prize dangled, his weight fairly cut[191]ting my hands. at last i had him in my arms, but such was the tremendous vibration of his massive body that, although i plunged my thumbs through his gills, i was benumbed from head to heel. all feeling left me, and my head was beginning to swim, when i bethought me of plunging him into the folds of the jib, which was furled on the boom. with a flash of energy i accomplished this, falling across the quivering carcase half dead myself. but before he was quite dead i had recovered, and, prouder than any victorious warrior returning from the hard-won field, i bore him inboard. i was received in the half-deck as a benefactor to my species, for had i not provided twenty pounds of fresh food. how welcome my catch was can hardly be comprehended by those who have never known what it means to subsist upon beef and pork, which when dry turns white and hard as salt itself, with the flavour of tar superadded, and that for many weeks. the first flush of excitement over, attention was called to my gory appearance. i had not noticed it before, but now i found that i was literally drenched in blood, black-red from the chin downwards. what of that? i had caught my first big fish, and nothing else mattered. out i went again, succeeding in a few minutes in hooking another. but one of my watchmates must needs come interfering, and take it away from me, in spite of my protests. i was actually bold enough to tell him that the way he was carrying it was unsafe—the idea of me, with my five minutes' experience, dictating to an old "shellback" like bradley. i was right though, for, when half way in, the fish gave a convulsive plunge and fell, leaving his gills in bradley's fist. i didn't say anything, but, like the parrot, i did some tall thinking. all the fish left us instanter, attracted doubtless by the blood of their mutilated fellow; so, sulkily coiling up the line, i came in. there was a plentiful supper at four bells, and, though i should now pronounce the flesh of a bonito as dry and tasteless, then it was sweeter to me than i could express. while it was yet in my mouth, yea! ere it was chewed, retribution overtook me. i heard the watch on deck setting sail forward, and more conversation ensuing upon the performance than usual. suddenly a shock-head thrust itself into the half-deck. the voice of cæsar said ominously, "tom, th' mate wanse yer!" with a thrill of dread crawling up the roots of my hair i obeyed, following the messenger forrard. there stood the port watch, grouped round the mate, gazing upward at the sail they had just been setting, the jib. well they might. from head to tack down its whole length ran ghastly streaks and patches of gore, a sight that made my flesh creep. "did you do that?" said the mate in an awful tone. there was no need for any answer; my guilt was manifest. vengeance lingered not, and, in a few minutes, the manes of my first fish were propitiated. lamely i retired to complete my supper with what appetite i could muster, and to vow that the next fishing i did i would take a sack out with me. but the evidence of my offence was permanent, surviving the bleaching of sun, rain, and spray throughout the whole of the voyage. my waspish little tyrant, the second mate, could hardly rope's-end me again for the same fault; but he made it an excuse for robbing me of a goodly portion of each day-watch below, keeping me on deck sorting the carpet-thrums of which he was for ever making hearthrugs. oh, how i did hate his fancy-work and him too. but i dared not complain or refuse, although at night i was always getting into trouble for going to sleep, which i really couldn't help.
