that night i slept soundly, heedless of to-morrow; but when the day dawned the problem of what i was to do confronted me, and a very awkward question it was. for i was still so puny in size and so delicate-looking that i knew it would be no easy matter to persuade any one to employ me. besides, i was penniless. i had little clothes but what i was wearing, and i felt sure no boarding-master would take me in on the chance of my paying him out of my advance-note here. my only hope was that i might be allowed to work by the ship, at a small weekly wage, until i had earned enough to pay for a week's board, either in the sailors' home or some boarding-house where they would try and get me a ship. that hope was soon dashed when the chief steward appeared. with unnecessary gruffness, as i thought, he told me that i was not wanted, and the sooner i got ashore "out of it" the better. hadji was kinder. he gave me a cheerful smile, a hearty shake of the hand, and half a crown, besides wishing me luck. in a few minutes i stood outside the dock gates with all the town before me, but not a friend or even an acquaintance, as far as i knew, within its limits. conscious that i had no time to lose, i wandered about the docks until i was weary, speaking to every likely looking officer on board the various ships i visited, and getting nothing but plenty of good-natured chaff as well as outspoken comments upon my childish appearance. yes, i got one good meal; so that when night fell, and i sought a great heap of hay in the cobourg dock that i had noted as a promising place to spend the night, my precious piece of silver was still unbroken. i slept soundly, though none too warm, my long stay in the tropics having thinned my blood. at daylight i crept stealthily from my nest and recommenced my tramp, but it was fruitless. then i remembered the wood-carver, and thought i would look him up again. but there was another name over the shop, and i saw that another business was being carried on there. i did not like to go into my old boarding-house next door, feeling sure that i should be unwelcome with only two shillings and sixpence in my pocket and no prospects. i went to the sailors' home and told my story, but they refused to take me in—as indeed i had fully expected they would.
for the next week i roamed about those wretched docks, getting more and more discouraged every day, until, at last, i was afraid to ask for a berth in case i got a cuff as well as a refusal. finally, when i had been reduced to picking scraps out of the gutter, i resolved to go to the workhouse. how such an idea entered my head i can't imagine, but it did, and seemed feasible too. so off i started up brownlow hill, but the strains of a german band arrested my none too eager progress, and, all hungry as i was, i stayed to listen. perhaps the music cheered me up; at any rate, while listening, i determined to go to my old boarding-mistress and offer my services to her in return for a shelter and such scraps as she could spare. she received me ungraciously enough; but i pleaded hard, having learned well the hard lesson of not to take "no" for an answer without a struggle, and eventually she agreed. the place was a poor kind of cookshop, the staples of which were penny bowls of broth and tea for the poverty-stricken dock labourers, with twopenny plates of potato-pie for the better-off. i honestly earned my keep, and more; but business getting slack, she told me plainly that she could not afford to keep me much longer, and she would allow me a couple of hours a day for a week to look for a ship, at the end of which time i must shift for myself again. i was not altogether sorry at this chance, slender though it was. every day i hunted diligently about during the time allotted me, and, after four days, i succeeded in getting a job as cabin-boy on board a german barque, the greif of rostock. the captain had his wife and little daughter on board, neither of whom spoke a word of english; but the captain said he had just discharged an english boy, who had pleased them very well, and whose name of "dan" i was in future to answer to. i took up my new duties with zest, doing my best, not only to give satisfaction in my work, but to master the (to me) awful difficulties of the german language. for a time i succeeded admirably, except that the ladies called me "schoufskopf" (sheep's-head) far more frequently than dan, being irritated, i suppose, by what they considered my stupidity in not being able to understand them. the only person on board who seemed inclined to be hard upon me was the mate, a huge north german, who never missed an opportunity of giving me a blow, apparently by way of keeping his hand in. therefore, i exercised all the ingenuity i possessed in keeping out of his way—no easy task—for, as soon as my work in the cabin was finished, i was always called on deck to lend such a hand as i was able. and i could not help noticing that, in spite of the difficulty i had always found in getting a berth, whenever i did succeed in finding one there was never any trouble in keeping me fully employed. so matters progressed in fairly even fashion for three weeks, while the greif, which lay in the huskisson dock, was taking in a general cargo for demerara. i made fair progress with the language, and was certainly something of a favourite with the bo'sun, the cook, and the sailors. i began to hope that i should succeed at last in making myself comfortable, as well as necessary, in some way, to the comfort of others; and only my dread of the mate gave me any uneasiness. but one morning the cook took advantage of some brief leisure i had to get me to chop some firewood for him. gaily i started to obey him, using one large piece for a block, and was halfway through my task, when the axe struck a knot, glanced off, and entered the deck, making an ugly mark. the next moment i received a blow under the ear from behind which stretched me bleeding and senseless on the deck. when i came to i felt very sick; but there was such an uproar around me that i speedily forgot my own trouble in my anxiety to know what was the matter. the mate stood, white as chalk, the centre of an angry little crowd of the men, one of whom, a tall, fair swede, was fairly raving with excitement, and seemed by his threatening motions to be hard put to it to keep his hands to himself. gradually it dawned upon me that all this row was about me. the mate had struck me brutally and unjustly for what was a pure accident, and his cruelty had actually caused the whole crew to resent his action. this was really one of the strangest experiences i ever had. i have been beaten innumerable times in all sorts of vessels, but only once was a voice ever raised on my behalf besides this occasion, and that was by joe, the yorkshireman, against my uncle in my first ship. that a mixed crew of germans and scandinavians, on board a german vessel, should raise a protest against the ill-treatment of an english boy, was an unheard-of thing, especially when it is remembered that in those days brutality to boys at sea, except in american ships, was the almost invariable rule.
i was more frightened at the consequences of the mate's action than anything else, especially as it looked as if there would be a regular riot directly. before, however, any blows were exchanged, the captain arrived. his presence acted like magic. he made no noise, but just pushed his way into the centre of the disturbance, speaking quietly to the men, who at once dispersed to their several duties. then he turned to me, and said, in the same passionless voice, "ashore mit you. if i findt you hier in den minutes more, i schlings you oferbordt." i did not linger. in less than five minutes i was out of the ship, and again in the unenviable position of being masterless. there was a change in my hitherto persistent bad luck, however. strolling dejectedly round the dock, i came to the very biggest sailing-ship i had ever yet seen. when i had done admiring her enormous proportions, my attention was caught by a new spar, which lay upon the quay nearly ready for going aloft. i walked round it wondering, with all my might, whatever kind of mast it could be. at last i stopped, and, according to a lifelong habit of mine, began thinking aloud. "t'aint a schooner's topmast, 'cause there's three sheave-holes in it; nor yet a barque's mizzen-topmast, for the same reason. n'ther ain't a ship afloat as 'ud carry sech a stick fur a to'-gallanm'st, nor yet fur a jibboom. i never see sech a spar 'n my life." "you give it up, then, i suppose?" said a grave voice behind me. turning sharp round i confronted a tall, distinguished-looking gentleman, who was regarding me with an amused smile. "yes, sir," i said, "i thought i knew all about ships' masts; but i can't think what this one can be for." "well," he replied, "i'll enlighten you. it's my ship's foreto'-gallanmast, and that third sheavehole that puzzled you so much is for the skys'le-halliards. now do you see?" i thanked him and said i did; but i was none the less surprised that any ship could carry such a mighty spar so high up. and then, by a happy inspiration, i told him my story, right down to the last episode. he heard me in silence, and, as soon as i had finished, turned and went on board, telling me to follow him. gladly enough i obeyed, until we reached the quarter-deck, where we found the shipkeeper. telling him to find me something to do, the captain then turned to me, saying, "i shan't be able to take you to sea with me, for all our gear is so heavy that we never carry any boys; but while the ship is in liverpool you may stay on board doing what you can, and i will pay you twelve shillings a week, out of which you must keep yourself. now, be a good boy, and i'll see what i can do for you when we sail." i was hard put to it to express my gratitude; but he cut me short by walking away, and leaving me to realize my extraordinary good fortune. as soon as he was gone, i hunted up the shipkeeper, who had taken himself off somewhere, and asked him for a job. he was an easy-going individual, not over fond of work himself, or given to expecting much from any one else. so he said, "oh, i can't be bothered just now. you scull round a bit 'n have a look at the ship, 'n i'll fine yer sutthin to do bimeby." that was good enough for me. for the next two or three hours i exhausted all my powers of admiration over this magnificent vessel. she was called the jorawur of london, and built frigate-fashion, with imitation quarter galleries, which added to her already great appearance of size. she belonged to a school that has now departed, whereof the superb, calcutta, lady jocelyn, and hydaspes (the last two converted steamships), were conspicuous examples. she carried thirty-two a.b.'s and six petty officers, so that she was well manned, even taking her great size and enormous spars into account. but alas! years after, i saw her bought by a firm of jewish ship-knackers, who razeéd her taunt spars, sold the yards off her mizzenmast, turning her into a barque, and finally sent her to sea with seven a.b.'s forrard. no one was surprised when she took entire charge of the poor handful of men before she got clear of the channel. god help them! they could hardly get her yards round, much less shorten sail. she was eventually picked up, almost derelict, and towed into falmouth, where the ill-used crew promptly refused to do any more in her, and were, of course, clapped in gaol therefor, with that steady application of the rights of owners so characteristic of our seaport magistrates. but this is digression.
"knock-off" time came, and with it the exodus of all the motley crowd of riggers, painters, and stevedores who had been busy about the ship all day. seeing them depart homewards i remembered, with some misgivings, that i too could only be considered a day-worker, and might also be required to clear out, but whither? so i sought the shipkeeper, and timidly approached the question whether i might be allowed to stay on board. i found him very glad to have some one who would relieve him of the necessity of keeping so close to the ship as he had been doing. he at once gave me the free run of the cabin, and hastened to "clean himself" preparatory to a cruise down town. i busied myself in hunting up such odds and ends as lay about the staterooms available for bedding, and before long had rigged myself quite a cosy nook, near the glowing stove, which, as the weather was cold, was very comforting. my friend having departed, i was left quite alone on board the huge vessel; but this, so far from giving me any uneasiness, was just in my line—i was more than contented. i found the keys of the pantry and store-room, where my eager search soon discovered plenty of cuddy bread (biscuits), half a chest of tea, sugar, oatmeal, sago, and arrowroot. there was nothing else eatable or drinkable. this find, however, gave me great delight. i felt no apprehensions now that i should have to spend much in food—a fear which had somewhat daunted me before, seeing how badly i wanted to save all my wages to get myself a few clothes and pay for a week's board in the sailors' home when the jorawur sailed. another expedition to the galley provided me with a saucepan, with which i at once proceeded to make myself a mighty bowl of arrowroot, thinking, in my ignorance, that not only was it very nice to eat, but that it must be most strengthening as well. how could i know that it was only starch? a couple of biscuits and the half-gallon of arrowroot (plenty of sugar in it) made me feel at peace with all the world, if even i was in rather an inflated condition. fed and warmed, with a good roof over my head, and a fairly comfortable bed (if it was composed of rags), i only wanted one thing more to be perfectly happy. and even that was forthcoming—a book. "bleak house" lay in one of the pantry drawers waiting for me, i felt. putting the lamp handy and replenishing the fire, i settled down luxuriously into my nest, all my troubles forgotten in present bliss.
when the shipkeeper came on board i don't know, for when i awoke it was morning—five o'clock. i jumped up, hustled my bed out of sight, and lit the fire. while it was burning up i went on deck for a wash, returning sharp-set to a good breakfast of tea and biscuit, after which i felt ready for anything that might come along. by the look of the shipkeeper when at last he appeared, his last night's excursion had been anywhere but in the paths of virtue. but his amiability was unimpaired, and it was in quite a deprecatory tone that he requested me to "pop across the road" and get him a drop of rum, as he didn't feel very well. whether it was my alacrity in obeying his request, or the speed with which i afterwards got him a cup of tea, i don't know, but thenceforth our relations were of the pleasantest kind. i wished, though, that he hadn't found me quite such a miserably cold job; for that forenoon he set me to clean out the row of 400-gallon tanks in which the sea-stock of fresh water was carried, my slender body being easily able to slip in through the "man-hole"—a feat that was really impossible to him. now, some of these tanks had over eighteen inches of water in them: all had enough to come well above my ankles. as it was late autumn i got chilled to the marrow, for, as i must needs bale all the water into buckets and pass it up to him through the man-hole, i soon got wet through. then i had to scrub and sluice vigorously to get the thick coating of rust off, in which process i became very much like a piece of rusty old iron myself. as each tank was thoroughly cleansed, a pail of limewash was handed in to me with a big brush, and i gave top, bottom, and sides a liberal coating of it. in consequence of this occupation my appearance was filthy beyond words; but i did not mind that, until, one day, having come on deck for something, i met the captain. looking at me with an expression of the liveliest disgust, he said, "dirty little beast!" this cut me to the quick, as being both unkind as well as utterly undeserved. however, i made no defence. one of the earliest lessons inculcated on board ship is "no back answers," and the boy of gumption loses no time in understanding that the less he says, by way of excuse, the better for his welfare. much injustice is thus suffered, of course, but there is apparently no help for it. from that day forward i carefully avoided the captain, lest he should discharge me—a fate which i dreaded.
the peculiar diet beginning to pall, even upon my palate, i hit upon a plan which, however indefensible morally, gave me then no qualms, while the results were extremely gratifying. the gang of painters who were re-decorating the cabin brought their meals with them, and i supplied them with tea out of the half-chest in the storeroom, receiving in return a portion of their food. by this means i still kept my wages intact. the only money i spent while on board was on one unlucky saturday. fired by the description of a savoury dumpling, filled with bacon and kidney, which i read in the late steward's cookery book, i slipped ashore and bought the necessary ingredients. on sunday morning i tried my hand, and, having succeeded in making the dumpling, dropped it clothless into a saucepan of boiling water, made up a roaring fire under, and hungrily awaited the result. rigidly repressing an eager desire to peep into the pot, i watched the clock until the specified time had elapsed. then, my fingers trembling with excitement, i lifted the lid and peered through the dense steam. a greyish soup with a villainous burnt smell greeted my sight; my dumpling had melted. crying with vexation and disappointment, i turned the mess out into a dish, but i couldn't eat it. it was too bad even for me. so i fell back upon sago, and made no more experiments in cookery.
the inevitable day drew near when the ship was to sail. her cargo of salt (for calcutta) was nearly all in, the riggers had bent the sails, and a smart steward took charge of the cabin, ejecting me summarily. i took refuge in the forecastle that night, and the next morning, having made myself as presentable as i could (i was a queer-looking little scarecrow), i waylaid the captain and besought him to ship me for the voyage. giving me a half-laughing, half-pitying look, he said, "no, my boy, there is no duty here light enough for you; i cannot take you to sea with me. but i will take you up to the home, and tell them to get you a ship. you shan't have to prowl the docks again if i can help it." i thanked him, but ventured to say that i should have liked much better to sail in such a splendid ship as the jorawur. he seemed pleased, but shook his head decidedly, and in a few minutes we were ashore, making for the sailors' home. arriving at the great building, the captain immediately made for the office, and sought an interview with the superintendent. as soon as that gentleman appeared i was brought forward, and introduced to him, with a brief summary of my adventures and present position. my good friend the captain concluded his remarks by paying down a fortnight's board for me, at the same time expressing a hope that they would find me a berth as speedily as possible in some outward-bound ship, so that i should for some time at least be beyond the reach of homeless destitution. the superintendent readily promised his aid, and, bidding me good-bye, the kindly captain returned to his duties, happier, i hope, for the knowledge that he had done me a really good turn, for which it was highly improbable i could ever repay him.
i was at once handed over to the care of one of the stewards, who led the way up a seemingly interminable series of staircases to a cubicle on the fourth floor. the place was built in tiers of galleries, running right round a large central space lighted from above, and paved at the bottom. this covered-in quadrangle was used as a promenade, smoking-room, and lounge by the inmates, while it was, of course, possible to take in a complete view of the whole interior from any one of the seven galleries. before we arrived at my berth, the steward was in possession of most of my story, and began to regard me with more friendly interest than i looked for, seeing that no "tip" was to be expected from me. he seemed surprised when, in answer to his inquiry for my "dunnage," i told him i had none but what i stood in; and at once promised that he would see what he could do by way of beating up a few duds for me—a promise he faithfully kept. then he ushered me into the snug little chamber, with its clean bed and handy lockers, and, giving me a key of it, left me to my own devices.
