i went to the stern of the brig and looked at the tug, far off and almost out of sight in the dusk, and at the loom of the highlands, above which shone the light-house lamps—and my heart went down into my boots, and for a while stayed there. for a moment the thought came into my head to cut away the buoy lashed to the rail and to take my chances with it overboard—trusting to being picked up by some passing vessel and so set safe ashore. but the night was closing down fast and a lively sea was running, and i had sense enough to perceive that leaving the brig that way would be about the same as getting out of the frying-pan into the fire.
fortunately, in a little while i began to get wholesomely angry; which always is a good thing, i think, when a man gets into a tight place—if he don't carry it too far—since it rouses the fighting spirit in him and so helps him to pull through. in reason, i ought to have been angry with myself, for the trouble that i was in was all of my own making; but, beyond giving myself a passing kick or two, all my anger was turned upon captain luke for taking advantage of my greenness to land me in such a pickle when his gain from it would be so small. i know now that i did captain luke injustice. his subsequent conduct showed that he did not want me aboard with him any more than i wanted to be there. had i not taken matters into my own hands by boarding the brig in such a desperate hurry—just as i had hurried to close with his offer and to clinch it by paying down my passage-money—he would have gone off without me. and very likely he would have thought that the lesson in worldly wisdom he had given me was only fairly paid for by the fifty dollars which had jumped so easily out of my pocket into his.
but that was not the way i looked at the matter then; and in my heart i cursed captain luke up hill and down dale for having, as i fancied, lured me aboard the brig and so into peril of my skin. and my anger was so strong that i went by turns hot and cold with it, and itched to get at captain luke with my fists and give him a dressing—which i very well could have done, had we come to fighting, for i was a bigger man than he was and a stronger man, too.
it is rather absurd as i look back at it, considering what a taking i was in and how strong was my desire just then to punch captain luke's head for him, that while i was at the top of my rage he came aft to where i was leaning against the rail and put his hand on my shoulder as friendly as possible and asked me to come down into the cabin to supper. i suppose i had a queer pale look, because of my anger, for he said not to mind if i did feel sickish, but to eat all the same and i would feel better for it; and he really was so cordial and so pleasant that for a moment or two i could not answer him. it was upsetting, when i was so full of fight, to have him come at me in that friendly way; and i must say that i felt rather sheepish, and wondered whether i had not been working myself up over a mare's-nest as i followed him below.
we had the mate to supper with us, at a square table in the middle of the cabin, and at breakfast the next morning we had the second mate; and so it went turn and turn with them at meals—except that they had some sort of dog-watch way about the saturday night and sunday morning that always gave the mate his sunday dinner with the captain, as was the due of his rank.
the mate was a surly brute, and when captain chilton said, in quite a formal way, "mr. roger stetworth, let me make you acquainted with mr. george hinds," he only grunted and gave me a sort of a nod. he did not have much to say while the supper went on, speaking only when the captain spoke to him, and then shortly; but from time to time he snatched a mighty sharp look at me—that i pretended not to notice, but saw well enough out of the tail of my eye. it was plain enough that he was taking my measure, and i even fancied that he would have been better pleased had i been six inches or so shorter and with less well-made shoulders and arms. when he did speak it was in a growling rumble of a voice, and he swore naturally.
captain luke evidently tried to make up for the mate's surliness; and he really was very pleasant indeed—telling me stories about the coast, and giving me good advice about guarding against sickness there, and showing such an interest in my prospects with the palm-oil people, and in my welfare generally, that i was still more inclined to think that my scare about the shackles was only foolishness from first to last. he seemed to be really pleased when he found that i was not seasick, and interested when i told him how well i knew the sea and the management of small craft from my sailing in the waters about nantucket every summer for so many years; and then we got to talking about the coast again and about my outfit for it, which he said was a very good one; and he especially commended me—instead of laughing at me, as i was afraid he would—for having brought along such a lot of quinine. indeed, the quinine seemed to make a good deal of an impression on him, for he turned to the mate and said: "do you hear that, george? mr. stetworth has with him a whole case of quinine—enough to serve a ship's company through a cruise." and the mate rumbled out, as he got up from the table and started for the deck, that quinine was a damned good thing.
we waited below until the second mate came down, to whom the captain introduced me with his regular formula: "mr. roger stetworth, let me make you acquainted with mr. martin bowers." he was a young fellow, of no more than my own age, and i took a fancy to him at sight—for he not only shook my hand heartily but he looked me squarely in the eyes, and that is a thing i like a man to do. it seemed to me that my being there was a good deal of a puzzle to him; and he also took my measure, but quite frankly—telling me when he had looked me over that if i knew how to steer i'd be a good man to have at the wheel in a gale.
the captain brought out a bottle of his favorite arrack, and he and i had a glass together—in which, as i thought rather hard, bowers was not given a chance to join us—and then we went on deck and walked up and down for a while, smoking our pipes and talking about the weather and the prospects for the voyage. and it all went so easily and so pleasantly that i couldn't help laughing a little to myself over my scare.
i turned in early, for i was pretty well tired after so lively a day; but when i got into my bunk i could not get to sleep for a long while—although the bunk was a good one and the easy motion of the brig lulled me—for the excitement i was in because my voyage fairly was begun. i slipped through my mind all that had happened to me that day—from my meeting with captain luke in the forenoon until there i was, at nine o'clock at night, fairly out at sea; and i was so pleased with the series of lucky chances which had put me on my way so rapidly that my one mischance—my scare about the shackles—seemed utterly absurd.
it was perfectly reasonable, i reflected, for captain luke to carry out a lot of shackles simply as "trade." it was pretty dirty "trade," of course, but so was the vile so-called brandy he was carrying out with him; and so, for that matter, were the arms—which pretty certainly would be used in slaving forays up from the coast. and even supposing the very worst—that captain luke meant to ship a cargo of slaves himself and had these irons ready for them—that worst would come after i was out of the brig and done with her; the captain having told me that loango, which was my landing-place, would be his first port of call. when i was well quit of the golden hind she and her crew and her captain, for all that i cared, might all go to the devil together. it was enough for me that i should be well treated on the voyage over; and from the way that the voyage had begun—unless the surly mate and i might have a bit of a flare-up—it looked as though i were going to be very well treated indeed. and so, having come to this comforting conclusion, i let the soft motion of the brig have its way with me and began to snooze.
a little later i was partly aroused by the sound of steps coming down the companion-way; and then by hearing, in the mate's rumble, these words: "i guess you're right, captain. as you had to run for it to-day before you could buy our quinine, it's a damn good thing he did get aboard, after all!"
i was too nearly asleep to pay much attention to this, but in a drowsy way i felt glad that my stock of quinine had removed the mate's objections to me as a passenger; and i concluded that my purchase of such an absurd lot of it—after getting worked up by my reading about the west coast fevers—had turned out to be a good thing for me in the long-run.
after that the talk went on in the cabin for a good while, but in such low tones that even had i been wide awake i could not have followed it. but i kept dozing off, catching only a word or two now and then; and the only whole sentence i heard was in the mate's rumble again: "well, if we can't square things, there's always room for one more in the sea."
it all was very dream-like—and fitted into a dream that came later, in the light sleep of early morning, i suppose, in which the mate wore the uniform of a street-car conductor, and i was giving him doses of quinine, and he was asking the passengers in a car full of salt-water to move up and make room for me, and was telling them and me that in a sea-car there always was room for one more.
