since walter went out early in the morning, came back at tiffin only for half an hour, and did not then return till dinner was just ready, kitty found herself much alone. for some days she did not stir from the bungalow. it was very hot and for the most part she lay in a long chair by the open window, trying to read. the hard light of midday had robbed the magic palace of its mystery and now it was no more than a temple on the city wall, garish and shabby, but because she had seen it once in such an ecstasy it was never again quite commonplace; and often at dawn or at dusk, and again at night, she found herself able to recapture something of that beauty. what had seemed to her a mighty bastion was but the city wall and on this, massive and dark, her eyes rested continually. behind its crenellations lay the city in the dread grip of the pestilence.
vaguely she knew that terrible things were happening there, not from walter who when she questioned him (for otherwise he rarely spoke to her) answered with a humorous nonchalance which sent a shiver down her spine; but from waddington and from the amah. the people were dying at the rate of a hundred a day, and hardly any of those who were attacked by the disease recovered from it; the gods had been brought out from the abandoned temples and placed in the streets; offerings were laid before them and sacrifices made, but they did not stay the plague. the people died so fast that it was hardly possible to bury them. in some houses the whole family had been swept away and there was none to perform the funeral rights. the officer commanding the troops was a masterful man and if the city was not given over to riot and arson it was due to his determination. he forced his soldiers to bury such as there was no one else to bury and he had shot with his own hand an officer who demurred at entering a stricken house.
kitty sometimes was so frightened that her heart sank within her and she would tremble in every limb. it was very well to say that the risk was small if you took reasonable precautions: she was panic-stricken. she turned over in her mind crazy plans of escape. to get away, just to get away, she was prepared to set out as she was and make her way alone, without anything but what she stood up in, to some place of safety. she thought of throwing herself on the mercy of waddington, telling him everything and beseeching him to help her to get back to tching-yen. if she flung herself on her knees before her husband, and admitted that she was frightened, frightened, even though he hated her now he must have enough human feeling in him to pity her.
it was out of the question. if she went, where could she go? not to her mother; her mother would make her see very plainly that, having married her off, she counted on being rid of her; and besides she did not want to go to her mother. she wanted to go to charlie, and he did not want her. she knew what he would say if she suddenly appeared before him. she saw the sullen look of his face and the shrewd hardness behind his charming eyes. it would be difficult for him to find words that sounded well. she clenched her hands. she would have given anything to humiliate him as he had humiliated her. sometimes she was seized with such a frenzy that she wished she had let walter divorce her, ruining herself if only she could have ruined him too. certain things he had said to her made her blush with shame when she recalled them.
