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CHAPTER XXI.

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mr. penrose, however, was not a man of very lively feelings, and bore no malice against winnie for her defiance, nor even against mary, to whom he had been so cruel, which was more difficult. he was up again, cheerful and full of energy in the morning, ready for his mission. if winnie began the world without something to live upon, or with any prospect of ever being a burden on her friends, at all events it would not be his fault. as it happened, aunt agatha received at the breakfast-table the usual invariable letter containing a solemn warning against captain percival, and she was affected by it, as she could not help always being affected; and the evident commotion it excited in the party was such that mr. penrose could not but notice it. when he insisted upon knowing what it was, he was met by what was, in reality, very skilful fencing on miss seton’s part, who was not destitute altogether of female skill and art; but aunt agatha’s defence was made useless by the impetuosity of winnie, who scorned disguise.

“oh, let us hear it, please,” she said, “let us hear. we know what it is about. it is some new story—some lie, about my poor edward. they may save themselves the trouble. i would not believe one of them, if it was written on the wall like belshazzar’s feast; and if i did believe them i would not care,” said winnie, vehemently; and she looked across, as she never could help looking, to where her sister sat.

“what is it?” said mr. penrose, “something about your captain? miss agatha, considering my interest in the matter, i hope you will let me hear all that is said.”

“it is nothing, absolutely nothing,” said aunt agatha, faltering. “it is only some foolish gossip, you know—garrison stories, and that sort of thing. he was a very young man, and was launched upon life by himself—and—and—i think i may say he must have been imprudent. winnie, my dear love, my heart bleeds to say it, but he must have been imprudent. he must have entangled himself and—and—— and then there are always so many designing people about to lead poor young men astray,” said aunt agatha, trembling for the result of her explanation; while winnie divided her attention between mr. penrose, before whom this new view of the subject was unfolded for the first time, and mary, whom she regarded as a natural enemy and the probable origin of it all.

“wild, i suppose?” said mr. penrose, with sublime calm. “they’re all alike, for that matter. so long as he doesn’t bet or gamble—that’s how those confounded young fellows ruin themselves.” and then he dismissed the subject with a wave of the hand. “i am going up to the hall to talk it all over with sir edward, and see what can be done. this sort of penniless nonsense makes me sick,” the rich man added; “and you women are the most unreasonable creatures—one might as well talk to a stone wall.”

thus it was that for once in their lives the two miss setons, agatha and winnie, found uncle penrose for the moment half divine; they looked at him with wide open eyes, with a wondering veneration. they were only women after all, and had been giving themselves a great deal of trouble about captain percival’s previous history; but it all sank in mere contemptible gossip under the calm glance of mr. penrose. he was not enthusiastic about edward, and therefore his impartial calm was all the more satisfying. he thought nothing of it at all, though it had been driving them distracted. when he went away on his mission to the hall, winnie, in her enthusiasm, ran into aunt agatha’s arms.

“you see he does not mind,” said winnie,—though an hour before she had been far from thinking mr. penrose an authority. “he thinks it is all gossip and spite, as i always said.”

and aunt agatha for her part was quite overcome by the sudden relief. it felt like a deliverance, though it was only mr. penrose’s opinion. “my dear love, men know the world,” she said; “that is the advantage of having somebody to talk to; and i always said that your uncle, though he is sometimes disagreeable, had a great deal of sense. you see he knows the world.”

“yes, i suppose he must have sense,” said winnie; and in the comfort of her heart she was ready to attribute all good gifts to mr. penrose, and could have kissed him as he walked past the window with his hand in his pocket. she would not have forsaken her edward whatever had been found out about him, but still to see that his wickedness (if he had been wicked) was of no consequence in the eyes of a respectable man like uncle penrose, was such a consolation even to winnie as nothing can express. “we are all a set of women, and we have been making a mountain out of a molehill,” she said, and the tears came to her bright eyes; and then, as mary was not moved into any such demonstrations of delight, winnie turned her arms upon her sister in pure gaiety of heart.

“everybody gets talked about,” she said. “edward was telling me about mary even—that she used to be called madonna mary at the station; and that there was some poor gentleman that died. i supposed he thought she ought to be worshipped like our lady. didn’t you feel dreadfully guilty and wretched, mary, when he died?”

“poor boy,” said mrs. ochterlony, who had recovered her courage a little with the morning light. “it had nothing to do with our lady as you say; it was only because he had been brought up in italy, poor fellow, and was fond of the old italian poets, and the soft italian words.”

“then perhaps it was madonna mary he was thinking of,” said winnie, with gay malice, “and you must have felt a dreadful wretch when he died.”

“we felt very sad when he died,” said mary,—“he was only twenty, poor boy; but, winnie dear, uncle penrose is not an angel, and i think now i will say my say. captain percival is very fond of you, and you are very fond of him, and i think, whatever the past may have been, that there is hope if you will be a little serious. it is of consequence. don’t you think that i wish all that is best in the world for you, my only little sister? and why should you distrust me? you are not silly nor weak, and i think you might do well yet, very well, my dear, if you were really to try.”

“i think we shall do very well without trying,” said winnie, partly touched and partly indignant; “but it is something for you to say, mary, and i am sure i am much obliged to you for your good advice all the same.”

“winnie,” said mrs. ochterlony, taking her hands, “i know the world better than you do—perhaps even better than uncle penrose, so far as a woman is concerned. i don’t care if you are rich or poor, but i want you to be happy. it will not do very well without trying. i will not say a word about him, for you have set your heart on him, and that must be enough. and some women can do everything for the people they love. i think, perhaps, you could, if you were to give your heart to it, and try.”

it was not the kind of address winnie had expected, and she struggled against it, trying hard to resist the involuntary softening. but after all nature was yet in her, and she could not but feel that what mary was saying came from her heart.

“i don’t see why you should be so serious,” she said; “but i am sure it is kind of you, mary. i—i don’t know if i could do—what you say; but whatever i can do i will for edward!” she added hastily, with a warmth and eagerness which brought the colour to her cheek and the light to her eye; and then the two sisters kissed each other as they had never done before, and winnie knelt down by mary’s knee, and the two held each other’s hands, and clung together, as it was natural they should, in that confidence of nature which is closer than any other except that between mother and daughter—the fellow-feeling of sisters, destined to the same experience, one of whom has gone far in advance, and turning back can trace, step by step, in her own memory, the path the other has to go.

“don’t mistrust me, winnie,” said mrs. ochterlony. “i have had a little to bear, though i have been very happy, and i could tell you many things—though i will not, just now; but, winnie dear, what i want is, that you should make up your mind to it; not to have everything you like, and live in a fairy tale, but to keep right, and to keep him right. if you will promise to think of this, and to take it bravely upon you, i will still hope that all may be well.”

her look was so serious that for the first time winnie’s heart forgave her. neither jealousy, nor ill-temper, nor fear of evil report on her own side could have looked out of mary’s eyes at her little sister with such a wistful longing gaze. winnie was moved in spite of herself, and thrilled by the first pang of uncertainty that had yet touched her. if mary had no motive but natural affection, was it then really a hideous gulf of horrible destruction, on the verge of which she was herself tripping so lightly? something indefinable came over winnie’s face as that thought moved her. should it be so, what then? if it was to save him, if it was to perish with him, what did it matter? the only place in the world for her was by his side. she had made her choice, and there was no other choice for her, no alternative even should see the gulf as curtius did, and leap conscious into it in the eye of day. all this passed through her mind in a moment, as she knelt by mary’s side holding her hands—and came out so on her face that mary could read something like it in the sudden changing of the fair features and expansion of the eyes. it was as if the soul had been startled, and sprang up to those fair windows, to look out upon the approaching danger, making the spectator careless of their beauty, out of regard to the nobler thing that used them for the moment. then winnie rose up suddenly, and gave her sister a hearty kiss, and threw off her sudden gravity as if it had been a cloud.

“enough of that,” she said; “i will try and be good, and so i think will—we all. and mary, don’t look so serious. i mean to be happy, at least as long as i can,” cried winnie. she was the same winnie again—gay, bold, and careless, before five minutes had passed; and mary had said her say, and there was now no more to add. nothing could change the destiny which the thoughtless young creature had laid out for herself. if she could have foreseen the distinctest wretchedness it would have been all the same. she was ready to take the plunge even into the gulf—and nothing that could be said or done could change it now.

in the meantime, mr. penrose had gone up to the hall to talk it over with sir edward, and was explaining his views with a distinctness which was not much more agreeable in the hall than it had been in the cottage. “i cannot let it go on unless some provision can be made,” he said. “winnie is very handsome, and you must all see she might have done a great deal better. if i had her over in liverpool, as i have several times thought of doing, i warrant you the settlements would have been of a different description. she might have married anybody, such a girl as that,” continued mr. penrose, in a regretful business way. it was so much capital lost that might have brought in a much greater profit; and though he had no personal interest in it, it vexed him to see people throwing their chances away.

“that may be, but it is edward percival she chooses to marry, and nobody else,” said sir edward testily; “and she is not a girl to do as you seem to think, exactly as she is told.”

“we should have seen about that,” said mr. penrose; “but in the meantime, he has his pay and she has a hundred a year. if mrs. percival will settle three hundred on him, and you, perhaps, two——”

“i, two!” cried sir edward, with sudden terror; “why should i settle two? you might as well tell me to retire from the hall, and leave them my house. and pray, mr. penrose, when you are so liberal for other people, what do you mean to give yourself?”

“i am a family man,” said uncle penrose, taking his other hand out of his pocket, “and what i can give must be, in justice to my family, very limited. but mrs. percival, who has only four sons, and yourself who have none, are in very different circumstances. if he had had a father, the business might have been entered into more satisfactorily—but as you are his godfather, i hear——”

“i never understood before, up to this minute,” said sir edward, with great courtesy, “that it was the duty of a godfather to endow his charge with two hundred a year.”

“i beg your pardon, sir edward,” said mr. penrose; “i am a plain man, and i treat things in a business way. i give my godchildren a silver mug, and feel my conscience clear: but if i had introduced a young man, not otherwise very eligible, to a handsome girl, who might have done a great deal better for herself, that would make a great difference in the responsibility. winnie seton is of very good family by her father’s side, as you know, i suppose, better than i do; and of very good business connexions by her mother’s; and her beauty is first rate—i don’t think there can be any doubt about that. if she had been an ordinary pretty girl, i would not have said so much; but with all her advantages, i should say that any fair equivalent in the shape of a husband should be worth at least five thousand a year.”

mr. penrose spoke with such seriousness that sir edward was awed out of his first feeling of amusement. he restrained his smile, and acknowledged the logic. “but i did not introduce him in any special way,” he said. “if i can negotiate with mrs. percival for a more liberal allowance, i will do it. she has an estate of her own, and she is free to leave it to any of her sons: but edward, i fear, has been rather unsatisfactory——”

“ah, wild?” said mr. penrose: “all young men are alike for that. i think, on the whole, that it is you who should negotiate with the mother. you know her better than i do, and have known all about it from the beginning, and you could show her the state of the case better. if such a mad thing could be consented to by anybody in their senses, it must at least be apparent that winnie would bring twice as much as the other into the common stock. if she were with me in liverpool she would not long be winnie seton; and you may trust me she should marry a man who was worthy of her,” the rich uncle added, with a confirmatory nod of his head. when he spoke of a man who would be worthy of winnie, he meant no sentimental fitness such as aunt agatha would have meant, had she said these words, nor was it even moral worth he was thinking of. what mr. penrose meant, was a man who would bring a fair equivalent in silver and gold to winnie’s beauty and youth, and he meant it most seriously, and could not but groan when he contemplated the possibility of so much valuable capital being thrown away.

and he felt that he had made a good impression when he went back to the cottage. he seemed to himself to have secured mrs. percival’s three hundred a-year, and even sir edward’s more problematical gift to the young people; and he occupied the interval in thinking of a silver tea-service which had rather caught his fancy, in a shop window, and which he thought if his negotiations succeeded, he would give to his niece for a wedding present. if they did not succeed it would be a different question—for a young woman who married upon a captain’s pay and a hundred a-year of her own, would have little occasion for a silver tea-service. so mr. penrose mused as he returned to the cottage. under the best of circumstances it was now evident that there could be nothing to “settle” upon winnie. the mother and the friends might make up a little income, but as for capital—which after all was what mr. penrose prized most—there was none in the whole matter, except that which winnie had in her face and person, and was going to throw so lamentably away. mr. penrose could not but make some reflections on aunt agatha’s feminine idiocy and the cruel heedlessness of sir edward, as he walked along the rural road. a girl who had so many advantages, whose husband, to be worthy of her, should have had five thousand a-year at the least, and something handsome to “settle”—and yet her natural guardians had suffered her to get engaged to a captain in a marching regiment, with only his pay! no wonder that mr. penrose was sad. but he went home with a sense that, painful as the position was, he had done his duty, at least.

this was how winnie’s marriage got itself accomplished notwithstanding all opposition. captain percival was the second of his mother’s four sons, and consequently the natural heir of her personal fortune if he had not been “foolish,” as she said; and the thought that it might be the saving of him, which was suggested by sir edward, was naturally a very moving argument. a beautiful young wife whom he was very fond of, and who was ready to enter with him into all the risks of life,—if that did not keep him right, what would? and after all he was only five-and-twenty, an age at which reformation was quite possible. so his friends thought, persuading themselves with natural sophistry that the influence of love and a self-willed girl of eighteen would do what all other inducements had failed to do; and as for her friends, they were so elated to see that in the eyes of uncle penrose the young man’s faults bore only the most ordinary aspect, and counted for next to nothing, that their misgivings all but disappeared, and their acceptance of the risk was almost enthusiastic. sometimes indeed a momentary shadow would cross the mind of aunt agatha—sometimes a doubt would change sir edward’s countenance—but then these two old people were believers in love, and besides had the faculty of believing what they wished to believe, which was a still more important circumstance. and mary for her part had said her say. the momentary hope she had felt in winnie’s strength of character, and in her love—a hope which had opened her heart to speak to her sister—found but little to support it after that moment. she could not go on protesting, and making her presence a thorn in the flesh of the excited household; and if she felt throughout all a sense that the gulf was still there, though all these flowers had been strewed over it—a sense of the terrible risk which was so poorly counterbalanced by the vaguest and most doubtful of hopes—still mary was aware that this might be simply the fault of her position, which led her to look upon everything with a less hopeful eye. she was the spectator, and she saw what was going on as the actors themselves could not be expected to see it. she saw winnie’s delight at the idea of freedom from all restraint—and she saw percival’s suppressed impatience of the anxious counsels addressed to him, and the look which winnie and he exchanged on such occasions, as if assuring each other that in spite of all this they would take their own way. and then mrs. ochterlony’s own relations with the bridegroom were not of a comfortable kind. he knew apparently by instinct that she was not his friend, and he approached her with a solemn politeness under which mary, perhaps over-sensitive on that point, felt that a secret sneer was concealed. and he made references to her indian experiences, with a certain subtle implication of something in them which he knew and nobody else did—something which would be to mrs. ochterlony’s injury should it be known—which awoke in mary an irritation and exasperation which nothing else could have produced. she avoided him as much as it was possible to avoid him during the busy interval before the marriage, and he perceived it and thought it was fear, and the sneer that lay under his courtesy became more and more evident. he took to petting little wilfrid with an evident consciousness of mary’s vexation and the painful effect it produced upon her; not hugh nor islay, who were of an age to be a man’s plaything, but the baby, who was too young for any but a woman’s interest; and captain percival was not the kind of man who is naturally fond of children. when she saw her little boy on her future brother-in-law’s knee, mary felt her heart contract with an involuntary shiver, of which she could have given no clear explanation. she did not know what she was afraid of, but she was afraid.

perhaps it was a relief to them all when the marriage day arrived—which had to be shortly, for the regiment was ordered to malta, and captain percival had already had all the leave he could ask for. mr. penrose’s exertions had been crowned with such success that when he came to winnie’s wedding he brought her the silver tea-service which in his heart he had decided conditionally to give her as a marriage gift. mrs. percival had decided to settle two hundred and fifty pounds a-year upon her son, which was very near mr. penrose’s mark; and sir edward, after long pondering upon the subject, and a half-amused, half-serious, consideration of winnie’s capital which was being thrown away, had made up his mind to a still greater effort. he gave the young man in present possession what he had left him in his will, which was a sum of five thousand pounds—a little fortune to the young soldier. “you might have been my son, my boy, if your mother and i could have made up our minds,” the old baronet said, with a momentary weakness; though if anybody else had suggested such an idea no doubt sir edward would have said, “heaven forbid!” and mr. penrose pounced upon it and had it settled upon winnie, and was happy, though the bridegroom resisted a little. after that there could be no doubt about the tea-service. “if you should ever be placed in mary’s position you will have something to fall back upon,” uncle penrose said; “or even if you should not get on together, you know.” it was not a large sum, but the difficulty there had been about getting it, and the pleasant sense that it was wholly owing to his own exertions, made it sweet to the man of capital, and he gave his niece his blessing and the tea-service with a full heart.

as for winnie, she was radiant in her glow of beauty and happiness on that momentous day. a thunder-shower of sudden tears when she signed the register, and another when she was taking leave of aunt agatha, was all that occurred to overcloud her brightness; and even these did not overcloud her, but were in harmony—hot, violent, and sudden as they were—with the passionate happiness and emancipation of the married girl. she kissed over and over again her tender guardian—who for her part sat speechless and desolate to see her child go away, weeping with a silent anguish which could not find any words—and dropped that sudden shower over aunt agatha’s gown; but a moment after threw back the veil which had fallen over her face, and looked back from the carriage window upon them in a flush of joy, and pride, and conscious freedom, which, had no other sentiments been called for at the moment, it would have done one’s heart good to see. she was so happy that she could not cry, nor be sentimental, nor think of broken links, as she said—and why should she pretend to be sad about parting? which was very true, no doubt, from winnie’s point of view. and there was not the vestige of a cloud about when she waved her hand to them for the last time as she drove away. she was going away to the world and life, to see everything and enjoy everything, and have her day. why should she not show her delight? while poor old aunt agatha, whose day was so long over, fell back into mary’s arms, who was standing beside her, and felt that now at last and finally, her heart was broken, and the joy of her life gone. was it not simply the course of nature and the way of the world?

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