as she followed in angry silence, hilda had a glimpse through a half-open door of a cosey sitting-room; while another door, standing fully open at the other end of the little hall, showed, by a blaze of scarlet tiger-lilies and yellow marigolds, where the garden lay. and now the farmer opened a door and set down the trunk with a heavy thump; and dame hartley, taking the girl's hand, led her forward, saying: "here, my dear, here is your own little room,—the same that your dear mamma slept in when she was here! and i hope you'll be happy in it, hilda dear, and get all the good we wish for you while you're here!" hilda bowed slightly, feeling unable to speak; and the good woman continued: "you must be hungry as well as tired, travelling since morning. it's near our dinner-time. or shall i bring ye up something now,—a cup o' tea and a cooky, eh? or would you like solid victuals better?"
"thank you!" said hilda. "i am not at all hungry; i could not possibly eat anything. my head aches badly!" she added, nervously forestalling her hostess's protestations. "perhaps a cup of tea later, thank you! i should like to rest now. and i shall not want any dinner."
"oh! you'll feel better, dear, when you have rested a bit," said dame hartley, smoothing the girl's fair hair with a motherly touch, and not seeming to notice her angry shrinking away. "it's the best thing you can do, to lie down and take a good nap; then you'll wake up fresh as a lark, and ready to enjoy yourself. good-by, dearie! i'll bring up your tea in an hour or so." and with a parting nod and smile, the good woman departed, leaving hilda, like the heroine of a three-volume novel, "alone with her despair."
very tragic indeed the maiden looked as she tossed off her hat and flung herself face downward on the bed, refusing to cast even a glance at the cell which was to be her hateful prison. "for of course i shall spend my time here!" she said to herself. "they may send me here, keep me here for years, if they will; but they cannot make me associate with these people." and she recalled with a shudder the gnarled, horny hand which she had touched in jumping from the cart,—she had never felt anything like it; the homely speech, and the nasal twang with which it was delivered; the uncouth garb (good stout butternut homespun!) and unkempt hair and beard of the "odious old savage," as she mentally named farmer hartley.
after all, however, hilda was only fifteen; and after a few minutes, curiosity began to wake; and after a short struggle with despair, it conquered, and she sat up on the bed and looked about her.
it was not a very dreadful cell. a bright, clean, fresh little room, all white and blue. white walls, white bedstead, with oh! such snowy coverings, white dimity curtains at the windows, with old-fashioned ball fringes, a little dimity-covered toilet-table, with a quaint looking-glass framed with fat gilt cherubs, all apparently trying to fold their wings in such a way as to enable them to get a peep at themselves in the mirror, and not one succeeding. then there was a low rocking-chair, and another chair of the high-backed order, and a tall chest of drawers, all painted white, and a wash-hand-stand with a set of dark-blue crockery on it which made the victim of despair open her eyes wide. hilda had a touch of china mania, and knew a good thing when she saw it; and this deep, eight-sided bowl, this graceful jug with the quaint gilt dragon for a handle, these smaller jugs, boxes, and dishes, all of the same pattern, all with dark-blue dragons (no cold "canton" blue, but a rich, splendid ultramarine), large and small, prancing and sprawling on a pale buff ground,—what were these things doing in the paltry bedroom of a common farm-house? hilda felt a new touch of indignation at "these people" for presuming to have such things in their possession.
when her keen eyes had taken in everything, down to the neat rag-carpet on the floor, the girl bethought her of her trunk. she might as well unpack it. her head could not ache worse, whatever she did; and now that that little imp curiosity was once awake, he prompted her to wonder what the trunk contained. none of the dresses she had been wearing, she was sure of that; for they were all hanging safely in her wardrobe at home. what surprise had mamma been planning? well, she would soon know. hastily unlocking the trunk, she lifted out one tray after another and laid them on the bed. in the first were piles of snowy collars and handkerchiefs, all of plain, fine linen, with no lace or embroidery; a broad-brimmed straw hat with a simple wreath of daisies round it; another hat, a small one, of rough gray felt, with no trimming at all, save a narrow scarlet ribbon; a pair of heavy castor gloves; a couple of white aprons, and one of brown holland, with long sleeves. the next tray was filled with dresses,—dresses which made hilda's eyes open wide again, as she laid them out, one by one, at full length. there was a dark blue gingham with a red stripe, a brown gingham dotted with yellow daisies, a couple of light calicoes, each with a tiny figure or flower on it, a white lawn, and a sailor-suit of rough blue flannel. all these dresses, and among them all not an atom of trimming. no sign of an overskirt, no ruffle or puff, plaiting or ruching, no "hamburg" or lace,—nothing! plain round waists, neatly stitched at throat and wrists; plain round skirts, each with a deep hem, and not so much as a tuck by way of adornment.
hildegarde drew a deep breath, and looked at the simple frocks with kindling eyes and flushing cheeks. these were the sort of dresses that her mother's servants wore at home. why was she condemned to wear them now,—she, who delighted in soft laces and dainty embroideries and the clinging draperies which she thought suited her slender, pliant figure so well? was it a part of this whole scheme; and was the object of the scheme to humiliate her, to take away her self-respect, her proper pride?
mechanically, but carefully, as was her wont, hilda hung the despised frocks in the closet, put away the hats, after trying them on and approving of them, in spite of herself ("of course," she said, "mamma could not get an ugly hat, if she tried!"), and then proceeded to take out and lay in the bureau drawers the dainty under-clothing which filled the lower part of the trunk. under all was a layer of books, at sight of which hilda gave a little cry of pleasure. "ah!" she said, "i shall not be quite alone;" for she saw at a glance that here were some old and dear friends. lovingly she took them up, one by one: "romances of the middle ages," percy's "reliques," "hereward," and "westward, ho!" and, best-beloved of all, the "adventures of robin hood," by grace of howard pyle made into so strong an enchantment that the heart thrills even at sight of its good brown cover. and here was her tennyson and her longfellow, and plutarch's lives, and the "book of golden deeds." verily a goodly company, such as might even turn a prison into a palace. but what was this, lying in the corner, with her bible and prayer-book, this white leather case, with—ah! hilda—with blue forget-me-nots delicately painted on it? hastily hilda took it up and pressed the spring. her mother's face smiled on her! the clear, sweet eyes looked lovingly into hers; the tender mouth, which had never spoken a harsh or unkind word, seemed almost to quiver as if in life. so kind, so loving, so faithful, so patient, always ready to sympathize, to help, to smile with one's joy or to comfort one's grief,—her own dear, dear mother! a mist came before the girl's eyes. she gazed at the miniature till she could no longer see it; and then, flinging herself down on the pillow again, she burst into a passion of tears, and sobbed and wept as if her heart would break. no longer queen hildegardis, no longer the outraged and indignant "prisoner," only hilda,—hilda who wanted her mother!
finally she sobbed herself to sleep,—which was the very best thing she could have done. by and by dame hartley peeped softly in, and seeing the child lying "all in a heap," as she said to herself, with her pretty hair all tumbled about, brought a shawl and covered her carefully up, and went quietly away.
"pretty lamb!" said the good woman. "she'll sleep all the afternoon now, like enough, and wake up feeling a good bit better,—though i fear it will be a long time before your girlie feels at home with nurse lucy, miss mildred, dear!"
sure enough, hilda did sleep all the afternoon; and the soft summer twilight was closing round the farm-house when she woke with a start from a dream of home.
"mamma!" she called quickly, raising herself from the bed. for one moment she stared in amazement at the strange room, with its unfamiliar furnishing; but recollection came only too quickly. she started up as a knock was heard at the door, and dame hartley's voice said:
"hilda, dear, supper is ready, and i am sure you must be very hungry. will you come down with me?"
"oh! thank you, presently," said hildegarde, hastily. "i am not—i haven't changed my dress yet. don't wait for me, please!"
"dear heart, don't think of changing your dress!" said dame hartley. "you are a country lassie now, you know, and we are plain farm people. come down just as you are, there's a dear!"
hilda obeyed, only waiting to wash her burning face and hot, dry hands in the crystal-cold water which she poured out of the blue dragon pitcher. her hair was brushed back and tied with a ribbon, the little curls combed and patted over her forehead; and in a few minutes she followed her hostess down the narrow staircase, with a tolerably resigned expression on her pretty face. to tell the truth, hilda felt a great deal better for her long nap; moreover she was a little curious, and very, very hungry,—and oh, how good something did smell!
mrs. hartley led the way into the kitchen, as the chief room at hartley farm was still called, though the cooking was now done by means of a modern stove in the back kitchen, while the great fireplace, with the crane hanging over it, and the brick oven by its side, was used, as a rule, only to warm the room. at this season the room needed no warming, and feathery asparagus crowned the huge back-log, and nodded between the iron fire-dogs. ah! it was a pleasant room, the kitchen at hartley farm,—wide and roomy, with deep-seated windows facing the south and west; with a floor of dark oak, which shone with more than a century of scrubbing. the fireplace, oven, and cupboards occupied one whole side of the room. along the other ran a high dresser, whose shelves held a goodly array of polished pewter and brass, shining glass, and curious old china and crockery. overhead were dark, heavy rafters, relieved by the gleam of yellow "crook-neck" squashes, bunches of golden corn, and long festoons of dried apples. in one window stood the good dame's rocking-chair, with its gay patchwork cushion; and her bible, spectacles, and work-basket lay on the window-seat beside it. in another was a huge leather arm-chair, which hilda rightly supposed to be the farmer's, and a wonderful piece of furniture, half desk, half chest of drawers, with twisted legs and cupboards and pigeon-holes and tiny drawers, and i don't know what else. the third window hilda thought was the prettiest of all. it faced the west, and the full glory of sunset was now pouring through the clustering vines which partly shaded it. the sash was open, and a white rose was leaning in and nodding in a friendly way, as if greeting the new-comer. a low chair and a little work-table, both of quaint and graceful fashion, stood in the recess; and on the window-seat stood some flowering-plants in pretty blue and white pots.
"i suppose i am expected to sit there!" said hilda to herself. "as if i should sit down in a kitchen!" but all the while she knew in her heart of hearts that this was one of the most attractive rooms she had ever seen, and that that particular corner was pretty enough and picturesque enough for a queen to sit in. you are not to think that she saw all these things at the first glance; far from it. there was something else in the room which claimed the immediate attention of our heroine, and that was a square oak table, shining like a mirror, and covered with good things,—cold chicken, eggs and bacon, golden butter and honey, a great brown loaf on a wonderful carved wooden platter, delicate rolls piled high on a shallow blue dish, and a portly glass jug filled with rich, creamy milk. here was a pleasant sight for a hungry heroine of fifteen! but alas! at the head of this inviting table sat farmer hartley, the "odious savage," in his rough homespun coat, with his hair still very far from smooth (though indeed he had brushed it, and the broad, horny hands were scrupulously clean). with a slight shudder hilda took the seat which dame hartley offered her.
"well, huldy," said the farmer, looking up from his eggs and bacon with a cheery smile, "here ye be, eh? rested after yer journey, be ye?"
"yes, thank you!" said hilda, coldly.
"have some chick'n!" he continued, putting nearly half a chicken on her plate. "an' a leetle bacon, jes' ter liven it up, hey? that's right! it's my idee thet most everythin' 's the better for a bit o' bacon, unless it's soft custard. i d' 'no ez thet 'ud go with it pitickler. haw! haw!"
hilda kept her eyes on her plate, determined to pay no attention to the vulgar pleasantries of this unkempt monster. it was hard enough to eat with a steel fork, without being further tormented. but the farmer seemed determined to drag her into conversation.
"how's yer ha-alth in gineral, huldy? pooty rugged, be ye? seems to me ye look kin' o' peaked."
"i am quite well!" it was queen hildegarde who spoke now, in icy tones; but her coldness had no effect on her loquacious host.
"i s'pose ye'll want ter lay by a day or two, till ye git used ter things, like; but then i sh'll want ye ter take holt. we're short-handed now, and a smart, likely gal kin be a sight o' help. there's the cows ter milk—the' ain't but one o' them thet's real ugly, and she only kicks with the off hind-leg; so 't's easy enough ter look out for her."
hilda looked up in horror and amazement, and caught a twinkle in the farmer's eye which told her that he was quizzing her. the angry blood surged up even to the roots of her hair; but she disdained to reply, and continued to crumble her bread in silence.
"father, what ails you?" said kind dame hartley. "why can't you let the child alone? she's tired yet, and she doesn't understand your joking ways.—don't you mind the farmer, dear, one bit; his heart's in the right place, but he do love to tease."
but the good woman's gentle words were harder to bear, at that moment, than her husband's untimely jesting. hilda's heart swelled high. she felt that in another moment the tears must come; and murmuring a word of excuse, she hastily pushed back her chair and left the room.
an hour after, hilda was sitting by the window of her own room, looking listlessly out on the soft summer evening, and listening to the melancholy cry of the whippoorwill, when she heard voices below. the farmer was sitting with his pipe in the vine-clad porch just under the window; and now his wife had joined him, after "redding up" the kitchen, and giving orders for the next morning to the tidy maidservant.
"well, marm lucy," said farmer hartley's gruff, hearty voice, "now thet you have your fine bird, i sh'd like to know what you're a-goin' to do with her. she's as pretty as a pictur, but a stuck-up piece as ever i see. don't favor her mother, nor father either, as i can see."
"poor child!" said dame hartley, with a sigh, "i fear she will have a hard time of it before she comes to herself. but i promised miss mildred that i would try my best; and you said you would help me, jacob."
"so i did, and so i will!" replied the farmer. "but tell me agin, what was miss mildred's idee? i got the giner'l drift of it, but i can't seem to put it together exactly. i didn't s'pose the gal was this kind, anyhow."
"she told me," dame hartley said, "that this child—her only one, jacob! you know what that means—was getting into ways she didn't like. going about with other city misses, who cared for nothing but pleasure, and who flattered and petted her because of her beauty and her pretty, proud ways (and maybe because of her father's money too; though miss mildred didn't say that), she was getting to think too much of herself, and to care too much for fine dresses and sweetmeats and idle chatter about nothing at all." (how hilda's cheeks burned as she remembered the long séances in her room, she on the sofa, and madge in the arm-chair, with the box of huyler's or maillard's best always between them! had they ever talked of anything "worth the while," as mamma would say? she remembered mamma's coming in upon them once or twice, with her sweet, grave face. she remembered, too, a certain uneasy feeling she had had for a moment—only for a moment—when the door closed behind her mother. but madge had laughed, and said, "isn't your mother perfectly sweet? she doesn't mind a bit, does she?" and she had answered, "oh, no!" and had forgotten it in the account of helen mcivor's new bonnet.) "and then miss mildred said, 'i had meant to take her into the country with me this summer, and try to show the child what life really means, and let her learn to know her brothers and sisters in the different walks of this life, and how they live, and what they do. i want her to see for herself what a tiny bit of the world, and what a silly, useless, gilded bit, is the little set of fashionable girls whom she has chosen for her friends. but this sudden call to california has disarranged all my plans. i cannot take her with me there, for the child is not well, and country air and quiet are necessary for her bodily health. and so, nurse lucy,' she says, 'i want you to take my child, and do by her as you did by me!'
"'oh! miss mildred,' i said, 'do you think she can be happy or contented here? i'll do my best; i'm sure you know that! but if she's as you say, she is a very different child to what you were, miss mildred dear.'
"'she will not be happy at first,' says miss mildred. 'but she has a really noble nature, nurse lucy, and i am very sure that it will triumph over the follies and faults which are on the outside.'
"and then she kissed me, the dear! and came up and helped me set the little room to rights, and kissed the pillows, sweet lady, and cried over them a bit. ah me! 'tis hard parting from our children, even for a little while, that it is."
dame hartley paused and sighed. then she said: "and so, here the child is, for good or for ill, and we must do our very best by her, jacob, you as well as i. what ailed you to-night, to tease her so at supper? i thought shame of you, my man."
"well, marm lucy," said the farmer, "i don't hardly know what ailed me. but i tell ye what, 'twas either laugh or cry for me, and i thought laughin' was better nor t'other. to see that gal a-settin' there, with her pretty head tossed up, and her fine, mincin' ways, as if 'twas an honor to the vittles to put them in her mouth; and to think of my maid—" he stopped abruptly, and rising from the bench, began to pace up and down the garden-path. his wife joined him after a moment, and the two walked slowly to and fro together, talking in low tones, while the soft summer darkness gathered closer and closer, and the pleasant night-sounds woke, cricket and katydid and the distant whippoorwill filling the air with a cheerful murmur.
long, long sat hildegarde at the window, thinking more deeply than she had ever thought in her life before. different passions held her young mind in control while she sat motionless, gazing into the darkness with wide-open eyes. first anger burned high, flooding her cheek with hot blushes, making her temples throb and her hands clench themselves in a passion of resentment. but to this succeeded a mood of deep sadness, of despair, as she thought; though at fifteen one knows not, happily, the meaning of despair.
was this all true? was she no better, no wiser, than the silly girls of her set? she had always felt herself so far above them mentally; they had always so frankly acknowledged her supremacy; she knew she was considered a "very superior girl:" was it true that her only superiority lay in possessing powers which she never chose to exert? and then came the bitter thought: "what have i ever done to prove myself wiser than they?" alas for the answer! hilda hid her face in her hands, and it was shame instead of anger that now sent the crimson flush over her cheeks. her mother despised her! her mother—perhaps her father too! they loved her, of course; the tender love had never failed, and would never fail. they were proud of her too, in a way. and yet they despised her; they must despise her! how could they help it? her mother, whose days were a ceaseless round of work for others, without a thought of herself; her father, active, energetic, business-like,—what must her life seem to them? how was it that she had never seen, never dreamed before, that she was an idle, silly, frivolous girl? the revelation came upon her with stunning force. these people too, these coarse country people, despised her and laughed at her! the thought was more than she could bear. she sprang up, feeling as if she were suffocating, and walked up and down the little room with hurried and nervous steps. then suddenly there came into her mind one sentence of her mother's that dame hartley had repeated: "hilda has a really noble nature—" what was the rest? something about triumphing over the faults and follies which lay outside. had her mother really said that? did she believe, trust in, her silly daughter? the girl stood still, with clasped hands and bowed head. the tumult within her seemed to die away, and in its place something was trembling into life, the like of which hilda graham had never known, never thought of, before; faint and timid at first, but destined to gain strength and to grow from that one moment,—a wish, a hope, finally a resolve.
