the road began now to ascend, and after twenty miles' travelling we reached a place called updyke's tanks. it was a nice place, with plenty of wood and grass. the next day we camped at jay coxe's tanks. it was a hard day's march, and i was tired out when we arrived there. the ambulance was simply jerked over those miles of fearful rocks; one could not say driven or dragged over, for we were pitched from rock to rock the entire distance.
stoneman's lake road was famous, as i afterwards heard. perhaps it was just as well for me that i did not know about it in advance.
the sure-footed mules picked their way over these sharp-edged rocks. there was not a moment's respite. we asked a soldier to help with holding the baby, for my arms gave out entirely, and were as if paralyzed. the jolting threw us all by turns against the sides of the ambulance (which was not padded), and we all got some rather bad bruises. we finally bethought ourselves of the pappoose basket, which we had brought along in the ambulance, having at the last moment no other place to put it. so a halt was called, we placed the tired baby in this semi-cradle, laced the sides snugly over him, and were thus enabled to carry him over those dreadful roads without danger.
he did not cry much, but the dust made him thirsty. i could not give him nourishment without stopping the entire train of wagons, on account of the constant pitching of the ambulance; delay was not advisable or expedient, so my poor little son had to endure with the rest of us. the big alsatian cavalryman held the cradle easily in his strong arms, and so the long miles were travelled, one by one.
at noon of this day we made a refreshing halt, built a fire and took some luncheon. we found a shady, grassy spot, upon which the blankets were spread, and we stretched ourselves out upon them and rested. but we were still some miles from water, so after a short respite we were compelled to push on. we had been getting steadily higher since leaving sunset crossing, and now it began to be cold and looked like snow. mrs. bailey and i found it very trying to meet these changes of temperature. a good place for the camp was found at coxe's tanks, trenches were dug around the tents, and the earth banked up to keep us warm. the cool air, our great fatigue, and the comparative absence of danger combined to give us a heavenly night's rest.
towards sunset of the next day, which was may day, our cavalcade reached stoneman's lake. we had had another rough march, and had reached the limit of endurance, or thought we had, when we emerged from a mountain pass and drew rein upon the high green mesa overlooking stoneman's lake, a beautiful blue sheet of water lying there away below us. it was good to our tired eyes, which had gazed upon nothing but burnt rocks and alkali plains for so many days. our camp was beautiful beyond description, and lay near the edge of the mesa, whence we could look down upon the lovely lake. it was a complete surprise to us, as points of scenery were not much known or talked about then in arizona. ponds and lakes were unheard of. they did not seem to exist in that drear land of arid wastes. we never heard of water except that of the colorado or the gila or the tanks and basins, and irrigation ditches of the settlers. but here was a real italian lake, a lake as blue as the skies above us. we feasted our eyes and our very souls upon it.
bailey and the guide shot some wild turkeys, and as we had already eaten all the mutton we had along, the ragout of turkey made by the soldier-cook for our supper tasted better to us tired and hungry travellers, perhaps, than a canvasback at delmonico's tastes to the weary lounger or the over-worked financier.
in the course of the day, we had passed a sort of sign-board, with the rudely written inscription, "camp starvation," and we had heard from mr. bailey the story of the tragic misfortunes at this very place of the well-known hitchcock family of arizona. the road was lined with dry bones, and skulls of oxen, white and bleached in the sun, lying on the bare rocks. indeed, at every stage of the road we had seen evidences of hard travel, exhausted cattle, anxious teamsters, hunger and thirst, despair, starvation, and death.
however, stoneman's lake remains a joy in the memory, and far and away the most beautiful spot i ever saw in arizona. but unless the approaches to it are made easier, tourists will never gaze upon it.
in the distance we saw the "divide," over which we must pass in order to reach camp verde, which was to be our first stopping place, and we looked joyfully towards the next day's march, which we expected would bring us there.
we thought the worst was over and, before retiring to our tents for the night, we walked over to the edge of the high mesa and, in the gathering shadows of twilight, looked down into the depths of that beautiful lake, knowing that probably we should never see it again.
and indeed, in all the years i spent in arizona afterward, i never even heard of the lake again.
i wonder now, did it really exist or was it an illusion, a dream, or the mirage which appears to the desert traveller, to satisfy him and lure him on, to quiet his imagination, and to save his senses from utter extinction?
in the morning the camp was all astir for an early move. we had no time to look back: we were starting for a long day's march, across the "divide," and into camp verde.
but we soon found that the road (if road it could be called) was worse than any we had encountered. the ambulance was pitched and jerked from rock to rock and we were thumped against the iron framework in a most dangerous manner. so we got out and picked our way over the great sharp boulders.
the alsatian soldier carried the baby, who lay securely in the pappoose cradle.
one of the cavalry escort suggested my taking his horse, but i did not feel strong enough to think of mounting a horse, so great was my discouragement and so exhausted was my vitality. oh! if girls only knew about these things i thought! for just a little knowledge of the care of an infant and its needs, its nourishment and its habits, might have saved both mother and child from such utter collapse.
little by little we gave up hope of reaching verde that day. at four o'clock we crossed the "divide," and clattered down a road so near the edge of a precipice that i was frightened beyond everything: my senses nearly left me. down and around, this way and that, near the edge, then back again, swaying, swerving, pitching, the gravel clattering over the precipice, the six mules trotting their fastest, we reached the bottom and the driver pulled up his team. "beaver springs!" said he, impressively, loosening up the brakes.
as jack lifted me out of the ambulance, i said: "why didn't you tell me?" pointing back to the steep road. "oh," said he, "i thought it was better for you not to know; people get scared about such things, when they know about them before hand."
"but," i remarked, "such a break-neck pace!" then, to the driver, "smith, how could you drive down that place at such a rate and frighten me so?"
"had to, ma'am, or we'd a'gone over the edge."
i had been brought up in a flat country down near the sea, and i did not know the dangers of mountain travelling, nor the difficulties attending the piloting of a six-mule team down a road like that. from this time on, however, smith rose in my estimation. i seemed also to be realizing that the southwest was a great country and that there was much to learn about. life out there was beginning to interest me.
camp verde lay sixteen miles farther on; no one knew if the road were good or bad. i declared i could not travel another mile, even if they all went on and left me to the wolves and the darkness of beaver springs.
we looked to our provisions and took account of stock. there was not enough for the two families. we had no flour and no bread; there was only a small piece of bacon, six potatoes, some condensed milk, and some chocolate. the baileys decided to go on; for mrs. bailey was to meet her sister at verde and her parents at whipple. we said good-bye, and their ambulance rolled away. our tent was pitched and the baby was laid on the bed, asleep from pure exhaustion.
the dread darkness of night descended upon us, and the strange odors of the bottom-lands arose, mingling with the delicious smoky smell of the camp-fire.
by the light of the blazing mesquite wood, we now divided what provisions we had, into two portions: one for supper, and one for breakfast. a very light meal we had that evening, and i arose from the mess-table unsatisfied and hungry.
jack and i sat down by the camp-fire, musing over the hard times we were having, when suddenly i heard a terrified cry from my little son. we rushed to the tent, lighted a candle, and oh! horror upon horrors! his head and face were covered with large black ants; he was wailing helplessly, and beating the air with his tiny arms.
"my god!" cried jack, "we're camped over an ant-hill!"
i seized the child, and brushing off the ants as i fled, brought him out to the fire, where by its light i succeeded in getting rid of them all. but the horror of it! can any mother brought up in god's country with kind nurses and loved ones to minister to her child, for a moment imagine how i felt when i saw those hideous, three-bodied, long-legged black ants crawling over my baby's face? after a lapse of years, i cannot recall that moment without a shudder.
the soldiers at last found a place which seemed to be free from ant-hills, and our tent was again pitched, but only to find that the venomous things swarmed over us as soon as we lay down to rest.
and so, after the fashion of the missouri emigrant, we climbed into the ambulance and lay down upon our blankets in the bottom of it, and tried to believe we were comfortable.
my long, hard journey of the preceding autumn, covering a period of two months; my trying experiences during the winter at camp apache; the sudden break-up and the packing; the lack of assistance from a nurse; the terrors of the journey; the sympathy for my child, who suffered from many ailments and principally from lack of nourishment, added to the profound fatigue i felt, had reduced my strength to a minimum. i wonder that i lived, but something sustained me, and when we reached camp verde the next day, and drew up before lieutenant o'connell's quarters, and saw mrs. o'connell's kind face beaming to welcome us, i felt that here was relief at last.
the tall alsatian handed the pappoose cradle to mrs. o'connell.
"gracious goodness! what is this?" cried the bewildered woman; "surely it cannot be your baby! you haven't turned entirely indian, have you, amongst those wild apaches?"
i felt sorry i had not taken him out of the basket before we arrived. i did not realize the impression it would make at camp verde. after all, they did not know anything about our life at apache, or our rough travels to get back from there. here were lace-curtained windows, well-dressed women, smart uniforms, and, in fact, civilization, compared with what we had left.
the women of the post gathered around the broad piazza, to see the wonder. but when they saw the poor little wan face, the blue eyes which looked sadly out at them from this rude cradle, the linen bandages covering the back of the head, they did not laugh any more, but took him and ministered to him, as only kind women can minister to a sick baby.
there was not much rest, however, for we had to sort and rearrange our things, and dress ourselves properly. (oh! the luxury of a room and a tub, after that journey!) jack put on his best uniform, and there was no end of visiting, in spite of the heat, which was considerable even at that early date in may. the day there would have been pleasant enough but for my wretched condition.
the next morning we set out for fort whipple, making a long day's march, and arriving late in the evening. the wife of the quartermaster, a total stranger to me, received us, and before we had time to exchange the usual social platitudes, she gave one look at the baby, and put an end to any such attempts. "you have a sick child; give him to me;" then i told her some things, and she said: "i wonder he is alive." then she took him under her charge and declared we should not leave her house until he was well again. she understood all about nursing, and day by day, under her good care, and doctor henry lippincott's skilful treatment, i saw my baby brought back to life again. can i ever forget mrs. aldrich's blessed kindness?
up to then, i had taken no interest in camp macdowell, where was stationed the company into which my husband was promoted. i knew it was somewhere in the southern part of the territory, and isolated. the present was enough. i was meeting my old fort russell friends, and under doctor lippincott's good care i was getting back a measure of strength. camp macdowell was not yet a reality to me.
we met again colonel wilkins and mrs. wilkins and carrie, and mrs. wilkins thanked me for bringing her daughter alive out of those wilds. poor girl; 'twas but a few months when we heard of her death, at the birth of her second child. i have always thought her death was caused by the long hard journey from apache to whipple, for nature never intended women to go through what we went through, on that memorable journey by stoneman's lake.
there i met again captain porter, and i asked him if he had progressed any in his courtship, and he, being very much embarrassed, said he did not know, but if patient waiting was of any avail, he believed he might win his bride.
after we had been at whipple a few days, jack came in and remarked casually to lieutenant aldrich, "well, i heard bernard has asked to be relieved from ehrenberg.
"what!" i said, "the lonely man down there on the river—the prisoner of chillon—the silent one? well, they are going to relieve him, of course?"
"why, yes," said jack, falteringly, "if they can get anyone to take his place."
"can't they order some one?" i inquired.
"of course they can," he replied, and then, turning towards the window, he ventured: "the fact is martha, i've been offered it, and am thinking it over." (the real truth was, that he had applied for it, thinking it possessed great advantages over camp macdowell. )
"what! do i hear aright? have your senses left you? are you crazy? are you going to take me to that awful place? why, jack, i should die there!"
"now, martha, be reasonable; listen to me, and if you really decide against it, i'll throw up the detail. but don't you see, we shall be right on the river, the boat comes up every fortnight or so, you can jump aboard and go up to san francisco." (oh, how alluring that sounded to my ears!) "why, it's no trouble to get out of arizona from ehrenberg. then, too, i shall be independent, and can do just as i like, and when i like," et caetera, et caetera. "oh, you'll be making the greatest mistake, if you decide against it. as for macdowell, it's a hell of a place, down there in the south; and you never will be able to go back east with the baby, if we once get settled down there. why, it's a good fifteen days from the river."
and so he piled up the arguments in favor of ehrenberg, saying finally, "you need not stop a day there. if the boat happens to be up, you can jump right aboard and start at once down river."
all the discomforts of the voyage on the "newbern," and the memory of those long days spent on the river steamer in august had paled before my recent experiences. i flew, in imagination, to the deck of the "gila," and to good captain mellon, who would take me and my child out of that wretched territory.
"yes, yes, let us go then," i cried; for here came in my inexperience. i thought i was choosing the lesser evil, and i knew that jack believed it to be so, and also that he had set his heart upon ehrenberg, for reasons known only to the understanding of a military man.
so it was decided to take the ehrenberg detail.
