lady harman went home from that talk in a taxi, and on the way she passed the building operations in kensington road. a few weeks ago it had been a mere dusty field of operation for the house-wreckers; now its walls were already rising to the second storey. she realized how swiftly nowadays the search for wisdom can be outstripped by reinforced concrete.
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it was only by slow degrees and rather in the absence of a more commanding interest than through any invincible quality in their appeal to her mind that these hostels became in the next three years the grave occupation of lady harman's thoughts and energies. she yielded to them reluctantly. for a long time she wanted to look over them and past them and discover something—she did not know what—something high and domineering to which it would be easy to give herself. it was difficult to give herself to the hostels. in that mr. brumley, actuated by a mixture of more or less admirable motives, did his best to assist her. these hostels alone he thought could give them something upon which they could meet, give them a common interest and him a method of service and companionship. it threw the qualities of duty and justification over their more or less furtive meetings, their little expeditions together, their quiet frequent association.
together they made studies of the girls' clubs which are scattered about london, supplementary homes that have in such places as walworth and soho worked small miracles of civilization. these institutions appealed to a lower social level than the one their hostels were to touch, but they had been organized by capable and understanding minds and lady harman found in one or two of their evening dances and in the lunch she shared one morning with a row of cheerful young factory girls from soho just that quality of concrete realization for which her mind hungered. then mr. brumley took her once or twice for evening walks, just when the stream of workers is going home; he battled his way with her along the footpath of charing cross railway bridge from the waterloo side, they swam in the mild evening sunshine of september against a trampling torrent of bobbing heads, and afterwards they had tea together in one of the international stores near the strand, where mr. brumley made an unsuccessful attempt to draw out the waitress on the subject of babs wheeler and the recent strike. the young woman might have talked freely to a man alone or freely to lady harman alone but the combination of the two made her shy. the bridge experience led to several other expeditions, to see home-going on the tube, at the big railway termini, on the train—and once they followed up the process to streatham and saw how the people pour out of the train at last and scatter—until at last they are just isolated individuals running up steps, diving into basements. and then it occurred to mr. brumley that he knew someone who would take them over "gerrard," that huge telephone exchange, and there lady harman saw how the national telephone company, as it was in those days, had a care for its staff, the pleasant club rooms, the rest room, and stood in that queer rendez-vous of messages, where the "hello" girl sits all day, wearing a strange metallic apparatus over ear and mouth, watching small lights that wink significantly at her and perpetually pulling out and slipping in and releasing little flexible strings that seem to have a resilient volition of their own. they hunted out mrs. barnet and heard her ideas about conjoint homes for spinsters in the garden suburb. and then they went over a training college for elementary teachers and visited the post office and then came back to more unobtrusive contemplation, from the customer's little table, of the ministering personalities of the international stores.
there were times when all these things seen, seemed to fall into an entirely explicable system under mr. brumley's exposition, when they seemed to be giving and most generously giving the clearest indications of what kind of thing the hostels had to be, and times when this all vanished again and her mind became confused and perplexed. she tried to express just what it was she missed to mr. brumley. "one doesn't," she said, "see all of them and what one sees isn't what we have to do with. i mean we see them dressed up and respectable and busy and then they go home and the door shuts. it's the home that we are going to alter and replace—and what is it like?" mr. brumley took her for walks in highbury and the newer parts of hendon and over to clapham. "i want to go inside those doors," she said.
"that's just what they won't let you do," said mr. brumley. "nobody visits but relations—and prospective relations, and the only other social intercourse is over the garden wall. perhaps i can find books——"
he got her novels by edwin pugh and pett ridge and frank swinnerton and george gissing. they didn't seem to be attractive homes. and it seemed remarkable to her that no woman had ever given the woman's view of the small london home from the inside....
she overcame her own finer scruples and invaded the burnet household. apart from fresh aspects of susan's character in the capacity of a hostess she gained little light from that. she had never felt so completely outside a home in her life as she did when she was in the burnets' parlour. the very tablecloth on which the tea was spread had an air of being new and protective of familiar things; the tea was manifestly quite unlike their customary tea, it was no more intimate than the confectioner's shop window from which it mostly came; the whole room was full of the muffled cries of things hastily covered up and specially put away. vivid oblongs on the faded wallpaper betrayed even a rearrangement of the pictures. susan's mother was a little dingy woman, wearing a very smart new cap to the best of her ability; she had an air of having been severely shaken up and admonished, and her general bearing confessed only too plainly how shattered those preparations had left her. she watched her capable daughter for cues. susan's sisters displayed a disposition to keep their backs against something and at the earliest opportunity to get into the passage and leave susan and her tremendous visitor alone but within earshot. they started convulsively when they were addressed and insisted on "your ladyship." susan had told them not to but they would. when they supposed themselves to be unobserved they gave themselves up to the impassioned inspection of lady harman's costume. luke had fled into the street, and in spite of various messages conveyed to him by the youngest sister he refused to enter until lady harman had gone again and was well out of the way. and susan was no longer garrulous and at her ease; she had no pins in her mouth and that perhaps hampered her speech; she presided flushed and bright-eyed in a state of infectious nervous tension. her politeness was awful. never in all her life had lady harman felt her own lack of real conversational power so acutely. she couldn't think of a thing that mightn't be construed as an impertinence and that didn't remind her of district visiting. yet perhaps she succeeded better than she supposed.
"what a family you have had!" she said to mrs. burnet. "i have four little girls, and i find them as much as we can manage."
"you're young yet, my ladyship," said mrs. burnet, "and they aren't always the blessings they seem to be. it's the rearing's the difficulty."
"they're all such healthy-looking—people."
"i wish we could get hold of luke, my ladyship, and show you 'im. he's that sturdy. and yet when 'e was a little feller——"
she was launched for a time on those details that were always so dear to the mothers of the past order of things. her little spate of reminiscences was the only interlude of naturalness in an afternoon of painfully constrained behaviour....
lady harman returned a trifle shamefacedly from this abortive dip into realities to mr. brumley's speculative assurance.
