they were two quite small maidies, aged respectively four and six years with some odd months in each case. they are older now and have probably forgotten the stranger to whom they gave their fresh little hearts, who presently left their country never to return; for all this happened a long time ago—i think about three years. in a way they were rivals, yet had never seen one another, perhaps never will, since they inhabit two villages more than a dozen miles apart in a wild, desolate, hilly district of west cornwall.
let me first speak of millicent, the elder. i knew millicent well, having at various times spent several weeks with her in her parents' house, and she, an only child, was naturally regarded as the most important person in it. in cornwall it is always so. tall for her years, straight and slim, with no red colour on her cheeks; she had brown hair and large serious grey eyes; those eyes and her general air of gravity, and her forehead, which was too broad for perfect beauty, made me a little shy of her and we were not too intimate. and, indeed, that feeling on my part, which made me a little careful and ceremonious in our intercourse, seemed to be only what she expected of me. one day in a forgetful or expansive moment i happened to call her "millie," which caused her to look to me in surprise. "don't you like me to call you millie—for short?" i questioned apologetically. "no," she returned gravely; "it is not my name—my name is millicent." and so it had to be to the end of the chapter.
then there was her speech—i wondered how she got it! for it was unlike that of the people she lived among of her own class. no word-clipping and slurring, no "naughty english" as old nordin called it, and sing-song intonation with her! she spoke with an almost startling distinctness, giving every syllable its proper value, and her words were as if they had been read out of a nicely written book.
nevertheless, we got on fairly well together, meeting on most days at tea-time in the kitchen, when we would have nice sober little talks and look at her lessons and books and pictures, sometimes unbending so far as to draw pigs on her slate with our eyes shut, and laughing at the result just like ordinary persons.
it was during my last visit, after an absence of some months from that part of the country, that one evening on coming in i was told by her mother that millicent had gone for the milk, and that i would have to wait for my tea till she came back. now the farm that supplied the milk was away at the other end of the village, quite half a mile, and i went to meet her, but did not see her until i had walked the whole distance, when just as i arrived at the gate she came out of the farm-house burdened with a basket of things in one hand and a can of milk in the other. she graciously allowed me to relieve her of both, and taking basket and can with one hand i gave her the other, and so, hand in hand, very friendly, we set off down the long, bleak, windy road just when it was growing dark.
"i'm afraid you are rather thinly clad for this bleak december evening," i remarked. "your little hand feels cold as ice."
she smiled sweetly and said she was not feeling cold, after which there was a long interval of silence. from time to time we met a villager, a fisherman in his ponderous sea-boots, or a farm-labourer homeward plodding his weary way. but though heavy-footed after his day's labour he is never so stolid as an english ploughman is apt to be; invariably when giving us a good-night in passing the man would smile and look at millicent very directly with a meaning twinkle in his cornish eye. he might have been congratulating her on having a male companion to pay her all these nice little attentions, and perhaps signalling the hope that something would come of it.
grave little millicent, i was pleased to observe, took no notice of this cornubian foolishness. at length when we had walked half the distance home, in perfect silence, she said impressively: "mr. hudson, i have something i want to tell you very much."
i begged her to speak, pressing her cold little hand.
she proceeded: "i shall never forget that morning when you went away the last time. you said you were going to truro; but i'm not sure—perhaps it was to london. i only know that it was very far away, and you were going for a very long time. it was early in the morning, and i was in bed. you know how late i always am. i heard you calling to me to come down and say good-bye; so i jumped up and came down in my nightdress and saw you standing waiting for me at the foot of the stairs. then, when i got down, you took me up in your arms and kissed me. i shall never forget it!"
"why?" i said, rather lamely, just because it was necessary to say something. and after a little pause, she returned, "because i shall never forget it."
then, as i said nothing, she resumed: "that day after school i saw uncle charlie and told him, and he said: 'what! you allowed that tramp to kiss you! then i don't want to take you on my knee any more—you've lowered yourself too much."
"did he dare to say that?" i returned.
"yes, that's what uncle charlie said, but it makes no difference. i told him you were not a tramp, mr. hudson, and he said you could call yourself mister-what-you-liked but you were a tramp all the same, nothing but a common tramp, and that i ought to be ashamed of myself. 'you've disgraced the family,' that's what he said, but i don't care—i shall never forget it, the morning you went away and took me up in your arms and kissed me."
here was a revelation! it saddened me, and i made no reply although i think she expected one. and so after a minute or two of uncomfortable silence she repeated that she would never forget it. for all the time i was thinking of another and sweeter one who was also a person of importance in her own home and village over a dozen miles away.
in thoughtful silence we finished our talk; then there were lights and tea and general conversation; and if millicent had intended returning to the subject she found no opportunity then or afterwards.
it was better so, seeing that the other character possessed my whole heart. she was not intellectual; no one would have said of her, for example, that she would one day blossom into a second emily bronte; that to future generations her wild moorland village would be the haworth of the west. she was perhaps something better—a child of earth and sun, exquisite, with her flossy hair a shining chestnut gold, her eyes like the bugloss, her whole face like a flower or rather like a ripe peach in bloom and colour; we are apt to associate these delicious little beings with flavours as well as fragrances. but i am not going to be so foolish as to attempt to describe her.
our first meeting was at the village spring, where the women came with pails and pitchers for water; she came, and sitting on the stone rim of the basin into which the water gushed, regarded me smilingly, with questioning eyes. i started a conversation, but though smiling she was shy. luckily i had my luncheon, which consisted of fruit, in my satchel, and telling her about it she grew interested and confessed to me that of all good things fruit was what she loved best. i then opened my stores, and selecting the brightest yellow and richest purple fruits, told her that they were for her—on one condition—that she would love me and give me a kiss. and she consented and came to me. o that kiss! and what more can i find to say of it? why nothing, unless one of the poets, crawshaw for preference, can tell me. "my song," i might say with that mystic, after an angel had kissed him in the morning,
tasted of that breakfast all day long.
from that time we got on swimmingly, and were much in company, for soon, just to be near her, i went to stay at her village. i then made the discovery that mab, for that is what they called her, although so unlike, so much softer and sweeter than millicent, was yet like her in being a child of character and of an indomitable will. she never cried, never argued, or listened to arguments, never demonstrated after the fashion of wilful children generally, by throwing herself down screaming and kicking; she simply very gently insisted on having her own way and living her own life. in the end she always got it, and the beautiful thing was that she never wanted to be naughty or do anything really wrong! she took a quite wonderful interest in the life of the little community, and would always be where others were, especially when any gathering took place. thus, long before i knew her at the age of four, she made the discovery that the village children, or most of them, passed much of their time in school, and to school she accordingly resolved to go. her parents opposed, and talked seriously to her and used force to restrain her, but she overcame them in the end, and to the school they had to take her, where she was refused admission on account of her tender years. but she had resolved to go, and go she would; she laid siege to the schoolmistress, to the vicar, who told me how day after day she would come to the door of the vicarage, and the parlour-maid would come rushing into his study to announce, "miss mab to speak to you sir," and how he would talk seriously to her, and then tell her to run home to her mother and be a good child. but it was all in vain, and in the end, because of her importunity or sweetness, he had to admit her.
when i went, during school hours, to give a talk to the children, there i found mab, one of the forty, sitting with her book, which told her nothing, in her little hands. she listened to the talk with an appearance of interest, although understanding nothing, her bugloss eyes on me, encouraging me with a very sweet smile, whenever i looked her way.
it was the same about attending church. her parents went to one service on sundays; she insisted on going to all three, and would sit and stand and kneel, book in hand, as if taking a part in it all, but always when you looked at her, her eyes would meet yours and the sweet smile would come to her lips.
i had been told by her mother that mab would not have dolls and toys, and this fact, recalled at an opportune moment, revealed to me her secret mind—her baby philosophy. we, the inhabitants of the village, grown-ups and children as well as the domestic animals, were her playmates and playthings, so that she was independent of sham blue-eyed babies made of sawdust and cotton and inanimate fluffy teddy-bears; she was in possession of the real thing! the cottages, streets, the church and school, the fields and rocks and hills and sea and sky were all contained in her nursery or playground; and we, her fellow-beings, were all occupied from morn to night in an endless complicated game, which varied from day to day according to the weather and time of year, and had many beautiful surprises. she didn't understand it all, but was determined to be in it and get all the fun she could out of it. this mental attitude came out strikingly one day when we had a funeral—always a feast to the villagers; that is to say, an emotional feast; and on this occasion the circumstances made the ceremony a peculiarly impressive one.
a young man, well known and generally liked, son of a small farmer, died with tragic suddenness, and the little stone farm-house being situated away on the borders of the parish, the funeral procession had a considerable distance to walk to the village. to the church i went to view its approach; built on a rock, the church stands high in the centre of the village, and from the broad stone steps in front one got a fine view of the inland country and of the procession like an immense black serpent winding along over green fields and stiles, now disappearing in some hollow ground or behind grey masses of rock, then emerging on the sight, and the voices of the singers bursting out loud and clear in that still atmosphere.
when i arrived on the steps mab was already there; the whole village would be at that spot presently, but she was first. on that morning no sooner had she heard that the funeral was going to take place than she gave herself a holiday from school and made her docile mother dress her in her daintiest clothes. she welcomed me with a glad face and put her wee hand in mine; then the villagers—all those not in the procession—began to arrive, and very soon we were in the middle of a throng; then, as the six coffin-bearers came slowly toiling up the many steps, and the singing all at once grew loud and swept as a big wave of sound over us, the people were shaken with emotion, and all the faces, even of the oldest men, were wet with tears—all except ours, mab's and mine.
our tearless condition—our ability to keep dry when it was raining, so to say—resulted from quite different causes. mine just then were the eyes of a naturalist curiously observing the demeanour of the beings around me. to mab the whole spectacle was an act, an interlude, or scene in that wonderful endless play which was a perpetual delight to witness and in which she too was taking a part. and to see all her friends, her grown-up playmates, enjoying themselves in this unusual way, marching in a procession to the church, dressed in black, singing hymns with tears in their eyes—why, this was even better than school or sunday service, romps in the playground or a children's tea. every time i looked down at my little mate she lifted a rosy face to mine with her sweetest smile and bugloss eyes aglow with ineffable happiness. and now that we are far apart my loveliest memory of her is as she appeared then. i would not spoil that lovely image by going back to look at her again. three years! it was said of lewis carroll that he ceased to care anything about his little alices when they had come to the age of ten. seven is my limit: they are perfect then: but in mab's case the peculiar exquisite charm could hardly have lasted beyond the age of six.
